Woots. OB workshop was a big success. The game plan impressed lotsa people =D, even Mr Tan. haha , all my hard work worth it, he gave us a A straight for the activity part ^^ It's awesome to know I've done something so well. Oh and sad enough, everyone in class chose the same path, like 2/3 of the game was unexplored... so much for me thinking overly hard =/

But hahax, and yea recently my mood has been super bad from the stress. Have been easily pissable and annoyed and have been quite hostile to some of my friends. so sorry guys =( Boo me.

And waha, I realized I haven't been talking to anyone onn MSN other than Timothy, as in starting up a convo, but hahax, and with that there's still people chatting, it's kinda cool seeing people finding me to talk haha =) Thaaanks

Finally, YAAAAAAY not meant to boast but wheee I got 42/50 for stats~ 84% =D I thought I was gonna only get 30's or some where around there but heyhey, I'm one of the high fews! And I studied from slides =P lols. Okies enuf =x

"Happiness if found within yourself, for true happiness no man can give"

Labels: class, exams, frenz, School

The boy knocking at the door of my heart


I just found out that I,
have changed for the worse.
And I thought I was doing it right.
For something great, I lost something good.

I fear their rejection,
Open up, others told me.
I did, and they walked away.
Or maybe. I walked away.

Maybe in my life, I'm not destined to have it.
Maybe those 2 weeks, were just a passing cloud,
a shooting star, fulfilling my deepest desires,
and that it was just a dream.

Its time I stop living in that dream.
People are leaving.
Others are coming.
Who should I hold on to?

But I hanker after that dream,
cause I dont want to believe its over.
because I really want that feel.
But its reality and there ain't such a thing.

It was something I searched for throughout my life
and then discarded, thinking it would never meant to be
Til I found them,
I believed again.

I was revived.
the boy within me
and people accepted me
they loved me

Holding on to this dream,
I searched on, in my home,
for someone to pat my head,
for someone to love me more.

Nico I became,
to signify being me
to tell the world, I believed
that I put aside my perceptions, and believed

Believed that I would be accepted
The one inside me.
But even revealing that little bit
frowns, their smiles became.

My friend told me,
"Darren belongs to us,
Nico belongs to them"
I don't really have a choice, do I?

I opened up to you,
thinking is was the right thing to do
that you will give me the same.
turns out, dreams will always be dreams.

Today. I know, and I realized.
After this day,
the doors of my heart shall be closed.
I'll try my best to be who I am again.

I guess, being me,
can be disgusting.
I'll be who you want me to be
Just dont go.

Because between a world I want and enjoy
and the family I have,
though not as good as that out there
I'm choosing you.

So I'm gonna tell Nico to go
even though I wished him to stay
back to the dark pits of my heart
never to be seen again.

Goodbyes to you,
for it was nice seeing you,
after so many years
I got to held your hand again.

And with a pierced heart,
I turned my head away.
Tears falling as I ran,
back to my home where I began.

Goodbyes...

Labels: class, EMO, frenz, Me, memories, sacrifice, thoughts, YEP

Today stats was terribly terribly much of headache I dun think Panadol Fast can even help. Thooo, lauhgter can be quite an effective medicine. :)

taken from the budding star's blog

I wondered what all the commotion was about, so I asked Zk, and he referred me to Facebook.
instantly burst out laughing when I saw this, lucky it was during break time xD

Oh and haha, the joke is about Ash having a weird tendency to have no one sitting beside her. Either for some weird reasons, or heh,
no one likes her aww =(

Labels: class, smile

Whooo, finally am done for my current projects! Can finally chill a few days of rest before the chionging starts again. Havnt updated for such a long time.

Ok, so many things happened so I'll jus make some nice quick refreshers :)


- TODAY -
omg, today was OB presentation and my group ran out of time, just short of 3 slides, and Mr Tan cut us off :( Each of the other groups needed to ask 1 question just for feedback and haa omg guess what my super sweet class did?

They asked us for details on out missing slides xD. "So what strategies are there", "what is your conclusion" haha omg
T01, I love you people!!
could see Mr Tan smiling away, I bet he was just as surprised. And wowz, I was touched man. Even though they were small actions, but haha it really bring to life the beauty of the class ^^,

Alrites, next, another really heartwarming thing. on the day of Hi club opening ceremony, I was acquainted with a hearing impaired fren and had to host him. ha really was fun signing to him. You know, really did brought to life the whole meaning of handsigning. but heh, while in the lecture hall, something he said reaaaally touched my heart.

He signed:
"I dunno why but this place brings me a lot of joy"

Heh, its kinda cool seeing such people finding warmth in places like this. It would be kinda cool if hi club wasnt jus a place meant for people to learn hand signs but even for the hearing impaired community to be part of us. Wow too bad he dooesnt hav the time to join us =P and yea, thanks to him, my passion for hand signing is burning even more fiercely wahahaha!


Oh and I forgot... my life's pretty screwed currently. i cant even take care of myself ._. too much school work + poor time management + loads of laundry + dog + dinner + stooopid YEP medical form, baaaaaaaaaaaa! >=(


Many of you have probably come across a moment of me being plain weird, and laughed over it. (RIGHT?)

Here's a beautiful example, coupled with a very unfortunate typo.

Labels: class, hi club, memories, smile

Today was HMS LAC lunch.

Found some campmates as we walked to the tables, some where in the middle of Makan Place. And woah, was super cool seeing as more and more HMS people came by. And the whole area was pretty packed with us campees moving all about, with not enough seats. We settled down around 1.30 before everyone went about to buy their meals.


Oh. And I got "volunteered" to be HMS ambassador for open house or something lol. Not that I'm very outgoing or sorts. zomg, teacher went "Can I have someone to be ambassador for HMS?" And Ashleigh instantly screams my name ._.

I just kept quiet and teacher gave me a chance and asked who want volunteer. No hands went up. Nominations then. Guess who. HAHA All because they say I'm a very-HMS-person. oh boyz, and haha I dragged Timothy along xD. Not sure what I'm supposed to do but owells, hope itz gonna be fun :D


Suddenly I see a sunbeam piercing through the dark clouds. please oh please tell me its gonna be over.

Labels: class, hms

Class gathering at Irwin's Study was a blast!!!! Although "Class" there only meant one-third of class that came.

Minus of those who were working and those who couldn't make it at the last minute, only 7 ppl turned up. Quite far from the estimated half of the class who could make it on the original date.

Buuuut none the less, we had a loooot of fun. Those who didn't turn up will be envious. Believe me.

Haha, despite turning 30 recently, Irwin has more like a friend of our age. Especially when playing games

Kay, shall be using pictures instead...






Ordered 4 pizzas plus side orders




Playing Taboo



Squeaaak



Playing Indian Poker. Guess who's gonna lose?



Me. Card dealing fail. Twice.



Heart Attack



ARHHHHH~



OH-YAR-PAY-YAR-SOM





And finally, a video specially dedicated to Irwin :)
(Darnz... embeding the vid here screws the blog.)

--> (Video) <--
--> (Comments) <--

Haha, felt so touched after seeing how everyone liked it ^^

♥ your smile sweeps me off my feet ~

Labels: class, frenz, Me

Hey yo, Creative Psy is due today!

My group went first because i had to rush off for a YEP project later. Was nervous like shitz. 2 videos and a quick ppt, with a fussy professional psychologist as a teacher. (Note: professional refers to psychologist, not teacher)

I started off the tech stuff 5 minutes early to test the audio. Lol, stupid windows media player was like trying to be cheeky or something. Either it played without me starting it or it was playing another video. The videos played I think 3 or 4 times? Hope fully Fred didn't mind.

Yea so we started off with the skit video. Hey, wasn't so bad after all. The class actually laughed a few times. Maybe I was too judgmental? My documentary up next. Pretty solemn, didnt really garner much I guess. Hopefully at least they were intrigued by the illusions.

OHOHOH HEY, THE AWARENESS TEST VID WAS SUPER COOL.

Vid: "How many pasess does the team in white make?"
*Vid plays*
Vid: "Did you count 13?"
Sarah, Vic: YES I COUNTED ALL 13 WOOHOO!!!
Vid: "But, did you see the moonwalking bear?"
Vic: OMG WHAT MOONWALKING BEAR. WHERE GOT?
*Vid replays*
*guy in bear suit strides/moonwalks across scene*
Class laughs

=D yaaaaay. Although i bet Fred didnt care a hoot about that.

So yea, I gotta miss out the rest of the class' performances =/ Especially looking forward to 6Bores stuff. oh wells =/

But hey, YEP proj wasn't that too bad. (trying to console myself...) At least I got to gain more experience working with mentally disabled kids again. It was fun and a ity bity more bonding time with the YEP team. ALTHOUGH I LOVE MY CLASS MORE!

One thing that was hitched unto my mind was that, despite being mentally disabled, autistic, low IQ, whatsoever, the group that i worked with, the kids, they actually looked out for each other. They would call our for the one left behind, hold each other hands to keep the group together.

What about we as a society? Do we look out for ourselves? or even if not, do we look out for ourselves first? If mentally disabled kids are taught and able to live as such, what about we able-minded people?





WHAT THE OMG
TIM TOLD ME I MISSED OUT A HECK LOTS OF FUN TODAY!!! FELLOW CLASS PRESENTATIONS, CLASS OUTING, 6BORES, WAT THE HECK DAM. LSEG.

Labels: class, smile, YEP

Really simple and quick post today.

Malay class

Cher: Awak berkahwin sudah? (Are you married)
Me: Er.. er... wat?
Cher: Awak berkahwin sudah?
Me: er... er.. sudah?
Class: *laughters*
Me: ?? uh oh...
Cher: You're married already huh?
Me: . . .

Titanic + Iceberg + Sinking *bloop bloop bloop* = Fairytale

My innocent classmate Ashleigh thought so. lol haiiizzz.

and lols, her potato chips got stuck in the vending machine. So the kind me donate 70 cents to buy a new one. And... first one dropped but the second one got stuck. Then Sarah beside the vending machine yelling on top of her voice. Guess what? Presumably, the sound waves from her loud voice shook the machine and plop, down came the second pack. =)


Played some sociology game on social stratification
10 peeps left on Titanic,
1 life boat,
3 vacancies.

K, so we had to discuss abt on who should survived and who shouldn't. Here are my views.

ME - President of Titanic Shipline
Muz survive. I'm rich, the world TOTALLY needs me.

Timothy - Wife of President of Titanic Shipline.
Can make do without, I'm rich, I can always get another wife.

Xiao Hui - Captain of Titanic
Certainly nothing getting on. Who had us sinking in the first place?

Bobo - Nurse
Everybody's dying. It wouldn't make a difference...

Denise - Physician
Refer to above.

Victoria - SAF Military Commander
Army a lot of NS people, can just find any one to take over can liao.

Balu - MP
He's definitely boarding the ship with me. =)

Ashleigh - MP's child
Jus another spoilt brat, don't need to waste space.

Azlin - Retiree
Ok obvious, enjoy the last of your vacation dear.


Yea, so all in all, the rich survives whoooo. No actually, we weren't even discussing. I was just arguing on why I should survive and why the rest need not.

Other group best. Their survivors?
MP, President of Titanic and... migrant worker.
Migrant worker you ask? To help them row the boat....

Labels: class

Woots. OB workshop was a big success. The game plan impressed lotsa people =D, even Mr Tan. haha , all my hard work worth it, he gave us a A straight for the activity part ^^ It's awesome to know I've done something so well. Oh and sad enough, everyone in class chose the same path, like 2/3 of the game was unexplored... so much for me thinking overly hard =/

But hahax, and yea recently my mood has been super bad from the stress. Have been easily pissable and annoyed and have been quite hostile to some of my friends. so sorry guys =( Boo me.

And waha, I realized I haven't been talking to anyone onn MSN other than Timothy, as in starting up a convo, but hahax, and with that there's still people chatting, it's kinda cool seeing people finding me to talk haha =) Thaaanks

Finally, YAAAAAAY not meant to boast but wheee I got 42/50 for stats~ 84% =D I thought I was gonna only get 30's or some where around there but heyhey, I'm one of the high fews! And I studied from slides =P lols. Okies enuf =x

"Happiness if found within yourself, for true happiness no man can give"

Labels: class, exams, frenz, School

The boy knocking at the door of my heart


I just found out that I,
have changed for the worse.
And I thought I was doing it right.
For something great, I lost something good.

I fear their rejection,
Open up, others told me.
I did, and they walked away.
Or maybe. I walked away.

Maybe in my life, I'm not destined to have it.
Maybe those 2 weeks, were just a passing cloud,
a shooting star, fulfilling my deepest desires,
and that it was just a dream.

Its time I stop living in that dream.
People are leaving.
Others are coming.
Who should I hold on to?

But I hanker after that dream,
cause I dont want to believe its over.
because I really want that feel.
But its reality and there ain't such a thing.

It was something I searched for throughout my life
and then discarded, thinking it would never meant to be
Til I found them,
I believed again.

I was revived.
the boy within me
and people accepted me
they loved me

Holding on to this dream,
I searched on, in my home,
for someone to pat my head,
for someone to love me more.

Nico I became,
to signify being me
to tell the world, I believed
that I put aside my perceptions, and believed

Believed that I would be accepted
The one inside me.
But even revealing that little bit
frowns, their smiles became.

My friend told me,
"Darren belongs to us,
Nico belongs to them"
I don't really have a choice, do I?

I opened up to you,
thinking is was the right thing to do
that you will give me the same.
turns out, dreams will always be dreams.

Today. I know, and I realized.
After this day,
the doors of my heart shall be closed.
I'll try my best to be who I am again.

I guess, being me,
can be disgusting.
I'll be who you want me to be
Just dont go.

Because between a world I want and enjoy
and the family I have,
though not as good as that out there
I'm choosing you.

So I'm gonna tell Nico to go
even though I wished him to stay
back to the dark pits of my heart
never to be seen again.

Goodbyes to you,
for it was nice seeing you,
after so many years
I got to held your hand again.

And with a pierced heart,
I turned my head away.
Tears falling as I ran,
back to my home where I began.

Goodbyes...

Labels: class, EMO, frenz, Me, memories, sacrifice, thoughts, YEP

Today stats was terribly terribly much of headache I dun think Panadol Fast can even help. Thooo, lauhgter can be quite an effective medicine. :)

taken from the budding star's blog

I wondered what all the commotion was about, so I asked Zk, and he referred me to Facebook.
instantly burst out laughing when I saw this, lucky it was during break time xD

Oh and haha, the joke is about Ash having a weird tendency to have no one sitting beside her. Either for some weird reasons, or heh,
no one likes her aww =(

Labels: class, smile

Whooo, finally am done for my current projects! Can finally chill a few days of rest before the chionging starts again. Havnt updated for such a long time.

Ok, so many things happened so I'll jus make some nice quick refreshers :)


- TODAY -
omg, today was OB presentation and my group ran out of time, just short of 3 slides, and Mr Tan cut us off :( Each of the other groups needed to ask 1 question just for feedback and haa omg guess what my super sweet class did?

They asked us for details on out missing slides xD. "So what strategies are there", "what is your conclusion" haha omg
T01, I love you people!!
could see Mr Tan smiling away, I bet he was just as surprised. And wowz, I was touched man. Even though they were small actions, but haha it really bring to life the beauty of the class ^^,

Alrites, next, another really heartwarming thing. on the day of Hi club opening ceremony, I was acquainted with a hearing impaired fren and had to host him. ha really was fun signing to him. You know, really did brought to life the whole meaning of handsigning. but heh, while in the lecture hall, something he said reaaaally touched my heart.

He signed:
"I dunno why but this place brings me a lot of joy"

Heh, its kinda cool seeing such people finding warmth in places like this. It would be kinda cool if hi club wasnt jus a place meant for people to learn hand signs but even for the hearing impaired community to be part of us. Wow too bad he dooesnt hav the time to join us =P and yea, thanks to him, my passion for hand signing is burning even more fiercely wahahaha!


Oh and I forgot... my life's pretty screwed currently. i cant even take care of myself ._. too much school work + poor time management + loads of laundry + dog + dinner + stooopid YEP medical form, baaaaaaaaaaaa! >=(


Many of you have probably come across a moment of me being plain weird, and laughed over it. (RIGHT?)

Here's a beautiful example, coupled with a very unfortunate typo.

Labels: class, hi club, memories, smile

Today was HMS LAC lunch.

Found some campmates as we walked to the tables, some where in the middle of Makan Place. And woah, was super cool seeing as more and more HMS people came by. And the whole area was pretty packed with us campees moving all about, with not enough seats. We settled down around 1.30 before everyone went about to buy their meals.


Oh. And I got "volunteered" to be HMS ambassador for open house or something lol. Not that I'm very outgoing or sorts. zomg, teacher went "Can I have someone to be ambassador for HMS?" And Ashleigh instantly screams my name ._.

I just kept quiet and teacher gave me a chance and asked who want volunteer. No hands went up. Nominations then. Guess who. HAHA All because they say I'm a very-HMS-person. oh boyz, and haha I dragged Timothy along xD. Not sure what I'm supposed to do but owells, hope itz gonna be fun :D


Suddenly I see a sunbeam piercing through the dark clouds. please oh please tell me its gonna be over.

Labels: class, hms

Class gathering at Irwin's Study was a blast!!!! Although "Class" there only meant one-third of class that came.

Minus of those who were working and those who couldn't make it at the last minute, only 7 ppl turned up. Quite far from the estimated half of the class who could make it on the original date.

Buuuut none the less, we had a loooot of fun. Those who didn't turn up will be envious. Believe me.

Haha, despite turning 30 recently, Irwin has more like a friend of our age. Especially when playing games

Kay, shall be using pictures instead...






Ordered 4 pizzas plus side orders




Playing Taboo



Squeaaak



Playing Indian Poker. Guess who's gonna lose?



Me. Card dealing fail. Twice.



Heart Attack



ARHHHHH~



OH-YAR-PAY-YAR-SOM





And finally, a video specially dedicated to Irwin :)
(Darnz... embeding the vid here screws the blog.)

--> (Video) <--
--> (Comments) <--

Haha, felt so touched after seeing how everyone liked it ^^

♥ your smile sweeps me off my feet ~

Labels: class, frenz, Me

Hey yo, Creative Psy is due today!

My group went first because i had to rush off for a YEP project later. Was nervous like shitz. 2 videos and a quick ppt, with a fussy professional psychologist as a teacher. (Note: professional refers to psychologist, not teacher)

I started off the tech stuff 5 minutes early to test the audio. Lol, stupid windows media player was like trying to be cheeky or something. Either it played without me starting it or it was playing another video. The videos played I think 3 or 4 times? Hope fully Fred didn't mind.

Yea so we started off with the skit video. Hey, wasn't so bad after all. The class actually laughed a few times. Maybe I was too judgmental? My documentary up next. Pretty solemn, didnt really garner much I guess. Hopefully at least they were intrigued by the illusions.

OHOHOH HEY, THE AWARENESS TEST VID WAS SUPER COOL.

Vid: "How many pasess does the team in white make?"
*Vid plays*
Vid: "Did you count 13?"
Sarah, Vic: YES I COUNTED ALL 13 WOOHOO!!!
Vid: "But, did you see the moonwalking bear?"
Vic: OMG WHAT MOONWALKING BEAR. WHERE GOT?
*Vid replays*
*guy in bear suit strides/moonwalks across scene*
Class laughs

=D yaaaaay. Although i bet Fred didnt care a hoot about that.

So yea, I gotta miss out the rest of the class' performances =/ Especially looking forward to 6Bores stuff. oh wells =/

But hey, YEP proj wasn't that too bad. (trying to console myself...) At least I got to gain more experience working with mentally disabled kids again. It was fun and a ity bity more bonding time with the YEP team. ALTHOUGH I LOVE MY CLASS MORE!

One thing that was hitched unto my mind was that, despite being mentally disabled, autistic, low IQ, whatsoever, the group that i worked with, the kids, they actually looked out for each other. They would call our for the one left behind, hold each other hands to keep the group together.

What about we as a society? Do we look out for ourselves? or even if not, do we look out for ourselves first? If mentally disabled kids are taught and able to live as such, what about we able-minded people?





WHAT THE OMG
TIM TOLD ME I MISSED OUT A HECK LOTS OF FUN TODAY!!! FELLOW CLASS PRESENTATIONS, CLASS OUTING, 6BORES, WAT THE HECK DAM. LSEG.

Labels: class, smile, YEP

Really simple and quick post today.

Malay class

Cher: Awak berkahwin sudah? (Are you married)
Me: Er.. er... wat?
Cher: Awak berkahwin sudah?
Me: er... er.. sudah?
Class: *laughters*
Me: ?? uh oh...
Cher: You're married already huh?
Me: . . .

Titanic + Iceberg + Sinking *bloop bloop bloop* = Fairytale

My innocent classmate Ashleigh thought so. lol haiiizzz.

and lols, her potato chips got stuck in the vending machine. So the kind me donate 70 cents to buy a new one. And... first one dropped but the second one got stuck. Then Sarah beside the vending machine yelling on top of her voice. Guess what? Presumably, the sound waves from her loud voice shook the machine and plop, down came the second pack. =)


Played some sociology game on social stratification
10 peeps left on Titanic,
1 life boat,
3 vacancies.

K, so we had to discuss abt on who should survived and who shouldn't. Here are my views.

ME - President of Titanic Shipline
Muz survive. I'm rich, the world TOTALLY needs me.

Timothy - Wife of President of Titanic Shipline.
Can make do without, I'm rich, I can always get another wife.

Xiao Hui - Captain of Titanic
Certainly nothing getting on. Who had us sinking in the first place?

Bobo - Nurse
Everybody's dying. It wouldn't make a difference...

Denise - Physician
Refer to above.

Victoria - SAF Military Commander
Army a lot of NS people, can just find any one to take over can liao.

Balu - MP
He's definitely boarding the ship with me. =)

Ashleigh - MP's child
Jus another spoilt brat, don't need to waste space.

Azlin - Retiree
Ok obvious, enjoy the last of your vacation dear.


Yea, so all in all, the rich survives whoooo. No actually, we weren't even discussing. I was just arguing on why I should survive and why the rest need not.

Other group best. Their survivors?
MP, President of Titanic and... migrant worker.
Migrant worker you ask? To help them row the boat....

Labels: class