This year has been indeed one of the best ever in my life. An ever so fulfilling year with friends, cca’s experiences and things that keeps me running in life. The people around me, the joyful moments I laughed, the depressed days of melancholy, the incidents where I annoyed others, times where I touched the lives of others. Having looked back, this year has brought the most change in me. Sure enough, I have had thought through many things, achieving resolutions, setting more goals and growing closer in my walk with God.
This year has been filled with an abundance of life itself.
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I hadn’t gone to a proper school for years, not that there are proper schools or such, but my ideal picture of a school. The private ones were never the same; something I couldn’t describe just made it different.
I looked forward to re-entering the world. To meet new people, to have fun with friends, be involved in activities, have a class, all those things I hear and see of people out there but could only dream about. Well, it was gonna be reality now.
But if I was going to have that of a lifestyle, I had to make some changes. I needed to be more outgoing and definitely, less of an annoyance.
Before school started, I attended a few camps, in a bid to get me comfortable around people. I wasn’t a camp sort of person, but I’m sure it would help; and it did. The first camp was the school’s freshmen camp. I had problems finding a place socially, everyone was so different and I felt intimidated. Forfeits as well, had me doing crazy things I know I’ll never ever do again.
Following it was the HMS camp, where I walked beside my primary school friend without even recognizing him. It was till I choked up at “Hi” then did we found out about our history together. A good point he noted was that the lecture hall we sat in was say, about 70% girls?
Gratz ,we just landed ourselves into a girls school.
The next few days pushed me even more to opening up. I, surprisingly, was the center of attention. Somehow, I just brought smiles to the people around me and we were having lots of fun. That feeling of being something good for others, it wrings my heart albeit with utmost satisfaction.
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Four months into the year, school started. I stepped into the classroom with much trepidation. I found myself sitting besides the guys, pairing up my classmates faces with the interesting names I remembered on the class list. First class of the day was Written Communication and we had a young, good-looking, smart and interesting chap as our lecturer who tried on many types of careers purely for interests. He believed in making life a fulfilling one.
School was pretty fun and interesting, with all the psychology modules, despite having an absolutely bad learning experience with Intro to Community Services with quite a soporific ennui inducing teacher who can’t teach for nuts. Project works were relatively fun despite working in a team I wasn’t too fond of. Ideals do get in the way of life at times.
Found myself some CCA’s, a community service cca, my old streak of badminton and an interestingly cool sign language club. Badminton was well through the semester. HI! Club was the biggest thing though. I found a new passion within the simple matter of what seemed a charade and collection of gestures for communicating.
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Over the first semester, I got myself a small group of friends. I have no idea how things first started, but it’s remarkable (for me) to see how things evolved along the way, how we somehow became good friends. It too was because of them, that I started staying up late or through the night with my computer. I never did use the computer at night and now looking back, I wonder how I managed that.
The holidays approached we had more fun chatting and such. It was quite an uplifting thing to me, considering how much I never really had friends in that degree. The times spent together were just indescribable. Months past and I grew closer to one, relieving my life in everyday chats.
It is perhaps too that because I had little social contact with people that caused to me to learn so much about people? Sometimes it seems, that the world was not made out as what stories ideally made them out to be, but even at a heartbreaking level so, I concluded that many a thing in this world worked quite superficially. But of course, I couldn’t let my perception of life get in way of the lives affecting me and others and so as a friend once said, “You don’t wait for the environment to change, you change the environment.”
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It began from when a lecturer came into the lecture hall and gave a talk on Youth Expedition Project. A talk about an overseas trip, in Vietnam, to visit various pre-schools and orphanages. I could feel that tinge in me as the word “children” was repeated. I went ahead and signed up for it, something I normally wouldn’t have done, and got selected to be one of the 30 others chosen. Preparations took place amongst the busy exam weeks.
The holidays came and the team was set to go.
Apart from doing great things for the children and people there, we too were received much in return. There, it was a place away from daily life, and there’s nothing to distract us from the fundamentals. It was a time when everyone looked out for each other, to make sure everyone is alright, both on the surface and even the inner bits. I was cared for, like the much needed affection I had always yearned.
We came as strangers, we left as family.
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School started soon after. The dream had come to an end, but I didn’t want to let go. As some people said, that I always on the run, busy with other friends and sort. An entire month passed and each day after the other made me feel more troubled and lost. I had been busy searching for a certain something which I thought I never would. It took me a month or two to settle, though things were never quite right the same after that. New people came into my life as they replaced each previous batch of people. My social circle mushroomed to the biggest I think it ever did. But through it all, I ended up losing those that were close to me and because of the way I tick, things never got better or at most stagnated.
Well despite all the turbulent times, there were good things too. Over time, my passion for hand signing grew and every day I would be signing, be it songs, random words, just anything would make my hands move. And too, I found out how much of a nice person I can be, which really added my self esteem a lot. People were beginning to compliment me in things I thought were nothing. And thus it is my purpose to being someone that will be praised by everyone but not for my fame, but to bring glory to God.
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I ended off the year quite meaningfully, with Christmas, and two camps. Christmas was really quite unexpected. I had nothing in mind and would probably just idle the day away if not for my friends calling me out for a impromptu mini gathering and it was filled with plenty of laughters, fun, and love. Definitely a most splendid Christmas spent with friends ever. Leadership camp helped bonded a few high clubbers and it was quite an insightful camp I would say. From all the leadership qualities and the much cherished bonds we made, we were all quite sad to leave.
Church camp was another big thing to end the year with. Made with an objective to bring the generations together, A four day camp integrating 500 older and younger youths was held with well, only one day of fun and games. Quite an unexpected plan. The rest was mostly filled with sermons and workshops, with insights that inspired me. The Megalifers were mind blowing with their enthusiasm and of course since my group was mostly Megalifers I got to interact with them a lot and it just reignites my fire and love of teens. The worship too was an amazing experience that brought me closer to God, with times where I never lifted my hand higher than before. There too, I found my inspiration for a new revival and to enter leadership and for a new lease in life to live a life of love.
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And so, as I end of this reflection of 2009, alone in my house only lit by my study room, I want to thank God for the life He gave me, as well as all the rest of the people in my life that made this chapter of life an exciting and thrilling one.
To those whom I knew, to those whom I forgot, to those whom I cared, to those whom I never realized were there, to those whom impacted my life, to those whom hi’s and bye’s made a difference, to those whom surround me, to those whom hearts are far, to whom I loved, to whom loved, to my Father, and to whom reads this,
I thank you from the bottom of my heart. May 2010 be a fruitful year unto your path and your hearts set right and with all fullness and blessing from the Lord my Saviour be upon your lives.
Church camp was awesome right down to the last day. The camp had 500 people all from Megalife - Sec sch to JC, and Highlife - Poly to Uni.
At first it was tough bonding with all the younger kids and my group only had 3 that were around my age or older but in the end I got to bond with everyone of them =)
The older ones are well... think more and the younger ones are just fun and sweet, oh and cute. very. And they were like 14 years old? O_o oh and yea cute cause one of them is like super gullible and thought igloos were made naturally.
Bus ride was fun in some sorts. Played Taiti(?), Bridge, Murderer, Indian Poker and had a really good time bonding through it. And all those cheers aha.
Superman is a man of steel; Human Torch will burn for you; Teen Titans are young and bright; Green Lantern will shine his light; Captain Planet will save the earth; Ironman will show his worth; We are Heroes of the Sky; Now its time for us to fly; To infinity and beyond!
The tune goes by those army cheers not sure how to say and HEH, we had to do that cheer with one arm stretched high up like flying WHILE balancing on one leg, the other lifted up to make a "h" LOL
Camp only had one day of fun, three of which were left to workshops and sermons, some of which I was touched, some of which were insightful, meaningful and of course, some that I just fell asleep in. Let's see, I forgot quite a bit of it but mainly about championing for God, rethinking values, conquering fears, exploring leadership, gender specific, having faith, haha ah owells, many many more good and interesting and applicable and powerful stuffs =)
Yup, and the one and only games day. Had a simple game requiring us to tie a balloon on our legs and then running across an indoor stadium to our safe areas and well just seeing who can collect the most balloons and let me tell you, there is like a few hundreds of teens running about its insane I tell you. And then we will split up into different categories. Floorball with brooms, and watching some of them play with a feather duster cos thier brooms got confiscated for playing rouhgly. Soccer while having to be on all fours, stomachs up like a inverted crab. Tough.
AND for my game was captain's ball with omg, way crazier stuff than ever before. We had whole bunch of bananas, 2 balls of cabbage, 2 papayas, one which I totally witness a scene of someone just throwing a papaya reaaaally high and for it to land with no one catching and it just went, well SPLAT literally... Oh and the best? a RAW CHICKEN. you could watch the limbs and body spread out while rotating in the air in slow mo and then PIAK onto the floor. Playing it was quite hard having the floor quite lubricated with papaya mush and banana slush and plenty of leaves of cabbages to ride on the oily chickenated-floors. Good stuff indeed. And and before I forget,
Point system: Any kind of fruits including papayas that totally mimick bombs, boomerang shaped bananas, heavy shedding ball of cabbage, Chicken wings or thighs, chicken parts, Whole chicken, 1 POINT Chicken head 10 POINTS
Worship was a wonderful experience and time, with our hearts yearning for God. Haaa, quite a few songs I never hear before but yup still was gooood. Lifted my hand higher than ever, though I never once did jump like the Megalifers but yeaaaps, wanted to, but just wasn't my thing. Oh and some awesome lines
Heal my heart and make it clean; open up my eyes to the things unseen; show me how to love like You have love me; break my heart for what breaks Yours; everything I am for Your kingdom's cause; as I walk from earth into eternity.
And yups, felt a calling to lead a new life, one for God, with the heart for others. NEEEEW LIFE, and to really just drop the past and everything that has held me back. Get into a ongoing relationship with God. Yups, time for revival in me =) And boy oh boy, I think i might go into leadership training. I think its time I picked up what's necessary for me and press on. On a sidenote I do quite miss my Megalifer mates =l they were a fun bunch but heh, dun think I'll ever see them again, or at least once in a year? Haha owells but such is life isn't it. time to move on!
...will be to celebrate the good times with you here~
And so I did, with everyone of you. Yvette, Yi Zhen, Di Sheng, Timothy My deepest thanks, for this has been a memorable Christmas for me.
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This year, it was left to be an empty one, no outings, no friends, no christmas trees But you guys called me out and we had a mini party together. Boy was it fun. I really enjoyed it. I had a rocking good time!
Laughed til I teared during Taboo. had a turkey-ish dinner with pus-oozing sausages Took pictures, all kinds of funny ones, groups ones, photo bombing ones (Disheng...)^^ Had fun playing Jenga wahahas, my fast block swiping move hehe. And we baked cookies! And they were goooood ok =) ate like 6 or 7, or maybe more. Kinda lost count. And we played cluedo! First time playing and whooo lots of mind games involved.
filling the cookies
act cute only~
attempting to smear cookie paste on Yizhen's face kekekex
cute timothy pose- wink and a twist
coooookies!
our fail domino - only 4 fell....
baked cookies
cheese!!
To round in up quick (cos ima sleep cos ima hav caaamp tomorrow) Thank you for everything. For every friend out there. Thanks for this year. thanks for being part of my life. Thanks for you touch, deliberate or not.
This really has been the perfect ending to my wonderful year. Words are incapable of expressing the love I feel this Christmas. There's nothing greater I could ask for. It really has been a beautiful time spent with you all.
I LOVE YOU ALL.
Have a blessed new year ahead, I know I'll have one, because of friends like you by my side.
Random Smiles:
TABOO never fails to crack me up.
Disheng: Yizhen always eats my ...? and Darren: Disheng + Yizhen = ? and Yvette: When you see BECK you...? *points at mouth* Yizhen: Drools. and Yizhen: Look, my glasses makes me look? Yvette: Nerdy
Haha, ok people, for the first time in my life or at least for years to come, I finally took a taxi on my own, not that I cant, but just that I dun need or want to. but heeeeh
was at EunosMRT after my 154 ride from school. My ezlink's outta cash and my wallet's just as empty. ha, called my mom and she said she was out and ask me cab over.
Cab driver chatted with me and ask why I'm there. Haha told him I was stranded =(
yup. $7.20 because im outta money. darn. All the more I hate cabs. On a lighter note, wow, cabs are super spacious sia O.o
anyways, Christmas Eve been well. missing some festive spirit of it lols. And wow at the number of things going wrong, (not that I really care actually)
spent an hour buying sport shoes.
cut my leg while carrying bag of grocery.
my topup card worried me by having me dial the code like 10 over times.
am falling sick.
failed my jogging at only 1.5km
totally running out of time to finish assignments.
cant find my O level thingy to claim my cert from MOE.
spent 3 hours doodling the same doodle just to get it right.
my chocolate tin is too small. (for a surprise).
Yups haha, but nonetheless its gonna be Christmas tomorrow =) Merry Christmas folks~
cos in time, fairytales do come to life
I'll spend the perfect Christmas with you
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
First off the morning before camp started, Rushed to school to get my SPSS report done and whee, our results are significant but opposite... yups,
Students that have not gone to Dialogue in the Dark have significantly more positive attitudes towards people with visual impairment as compared to those that have not been.
WIN
And then ran off to meet me homeschoolers for Avatar. and wowz, I dunno what all the reviews meant by documentary-ish but heh, I think it was pretty cool and awesome, though I was kinda waiting for the action part to start but hey, Its a pretty good show I think. "Blue cats" - Lawlz
Ok, and then... HI CLUB LEADERSHIP CAMP!!!
first - its the best leadership camp I've ever been to. second - its the most uncomfortable camp I've been to - and it was purposely planned this way third - I planned the formation for my group fourth - I got to be a interpreter woooooo!
Gerek on 3!
Ok, more or less around there. and woaaah, camp started at say... 6? but heck, it slept at 3 or 4+ just on the first night. We played charades, one of the few games i hate because I tend to make a fool out of myself; and that I did... Yups, I just invented a new word, "printer" lols. How on earth would you charade printer, and at the moment i was thinking "photocopier" so i kinda place two palms about each other and wave the bottom one, like you know, the scanner? haha owells, the camp peeps had a jolly good time teasing me about it the whole night.
and wheee, we had a night amazing race with impossible clues (again to frustrate the shit out of us) and well it did work. Spent a 2 days learning 3 songs, one of which was a challenge to come up with a formation and learn the song in an hour. Games that made us challenge each other's trust, had us running around school, and plenty more. Had our own barbeque as we thoroughly blackened the rocks we picked from Ourspace hehe.
but its thru this camp I get to know much more about Hi! Club, the people in them and well more about leadership skills. Yups, it was time (and suffering) worthwhile.
Oh, hahax, and as for closing ceremony, well I screwed up much with interpretation but hahax, i think its not too bad for a first try =) Performance had two songs for us, one of which I barely remembered, "Get this party started" or something hahas, followed by a surprise performance for the seniors, "Perfect Christmas" and though most of us couldn't remember the lyrics, i'm sure it swept our hearts away.
the greatest gift that there could be wrapped underneath my Christmas tree would be the same my whole life through I'll spend the perfect Christmas with you
Happily snugged up on my doormat was this cat with a mix of white and brown. *meows* Used my shoe to pat it and all I got was snares
Anyway data keying was superb and fun, really. Haha TiongKiat didn't even want to give me his share of the data to key in til I bargained with him, and I only had like 14... Oh, and we would all cheer when we got the results we wanted, and boo at all the those that showed positive. Ironic isn't it?
In the end we completed 107 sheets with Ash collecting the remaining 93. And sooooo far, for the 107 data we have collected, we have quite significant results! of .027 :D Oh that's comparing 7 too 100 by the way .__.
And shitz, I went home forgetting that SPSS can only be accessed from school so now I'm having to decide between going to school early tomorrow just to key in the data, or bring my laptop to my 3 days camp O.o Cos I really wanna do that part :/ "Cheap thrills..." (Chong, 2009)
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Random Smiles
Okay I'm sure this ought to put a smile on your face :D
Hahahaha, true isn't it? Haha, and if it wasn't 小明, I'd write one of my classmates' name HAHA cos I didn't like him XP
It's the start of the holidays since I only have one test for CT week =) Stats was fairly ok, I'm estimating about 70% score, though ideally I would like 80%.
Oh, and heh, not looking forward to thinner days - cause I'm bound to lose a centimetre or two around my hips. and pfffft, its the season of loose pants and I'll have to wear a belt (which I hate) to keep my pants from falling off.
So... two days in and I'm feeling a little messed up. I've become over-reliant for people around me till I've lost the 'ability' to be by myself. Every other few minutes, I'm looking for someone, something but, there's isn't really anyone there... I probably check Facebook about 100 times a day... Oh. and I gamed 12 straight hours yesterday =,=
So yea, I'm wishing to be with people... BUUUT I also dunno go out where, do what and I also dunno how ask people lols. First time in my life I'm wanting to get out with people... Go out myself also feels weird, everything seems aimless. Dam I wish I was rich, I'll just maybe hit the arcade or go out on a food expedition. That's if I am... lols ^^
For Christmas I wish I could have something like a eh... mental secretary =,= there's so much I get when I think, but they fade away like the wind, never returning. by the time I type them down, *poofs* =,= bleh.
O.O maybe I should go back to New Horizons to help?
Sometimes I wish I could take a break and have others care for me... it's when I see them fussing over their friends that I feel this way...
You knew, didnt you?
Friday, December 11, 2009
So you knew all along huh, ひつじ
So happened to came across it, did a bit of searching and hey, turns out, there's so much more one could know if I did open my eyes big enough. thanks for it anyway. If not for you, I would have still been in the pits.
Things progressed and I had an extremely meaningful week after. And I hope you're happy with yours too. Thanks.
Baaaaaaaaa, after a chat with my friend, I think maybe its not worth it .__. owells. there's reasons ba :/ hais. *hides previous post*
Heh, owells, maybe I wont cut you of bah. heh, but if any of you want talk then talk lor :/ I'll just be here if anything is needed. I can help with anything with no expectations de =]
Woots. Finally I'm finally free from individual assignments. Can totally feel a weight lifted off me.
Anyways. wowz. 4 days in and you're still being a jerk =,= and compared to last week, omg I dunno how you managed it last week, this week is like the accumulated jerk within you. Dam. At times, I really hate you, even when no one does.
Anyway, this few weeks have been so stressful and tiring, my eyebags have gotten so bad that my friend thought why i gotten punched in the eyes or something. @_@
ohwells, this week was emoish, but lol. trying not to cause ppl dun wan me to =,=
Oh and we interviewed the blind guides in DiD too. It's quite insightful to be able to hear the things they go thru =) Awesomeness. and I'm addicted to Subway cookies, darn it.
anyways here's some smiles I got these few days:
RANDOM SMILES :)
doing my genogram. Gender: Male, female, PET, or don't know?
*trips over rock* Me: Argh, my toe red liao. Reminds me, last time when I was a kid I go kick a pile of sand by the beach, and guess what? Someone hid a brick inside... QQ: Why you go kick? Me: Cause I was a kid then? and kids do stupid things, kids kick piles of sand,kids hide bricks in piles of sand for other kids to kick. Yea.
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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This year has been indeed one of the best ever in my life. An ever so fulfilling year with friends, cca’s experiences and things that keeps me running in life. The people around me, the joyful moments I laughed, the depressed days of melancholy, the incidents where I annoyed others, times where I touched the lives of others. Having looked back, this year has brought the most change in me. Sure enough, I have had thought through many things, achieving resolutions, setting more goals and growing closer in my walk with God.
This year has been filled with an abundance of life itself.
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I hadn’t gone to a proper school for years, not that there are proper schools or such, but my ideal picture of a school. The private ones were never the same; something I couldn’t describe just made it different.
I looked forward to re-entering the world. To meet new people, to have fun with friends, be involved in activities, have a class, all those things I hear and see of people out there but could only dream about. Well, it was gonna be reality now.
But if I was going to have that of a lifestyle, I had to make some changes. I needed to be more outgoing and definitely, less of an annoyance.
Before school started, I attended a few camps, in a bid to get me comfortable around people. I wasn’t a camp sort of person, but I’m sure it would help; and it did. The first camp was the school’s freshmen camp. I had problems finding a place socially, everyone was so different and I felt intimidated. Forfeits as well, had me doing crazy things I know I’ll never ever do again.
Following it was the HMS camp, where I walked beside my primary school friend without even recognizing him. It was till I choked up at “Hi” then did we found out about our history together. A good point he noted was that the lecture hall we sat in was say, about 70% girls?
Gratz ,we just landed ourselves into a girls school.
The next few days pushed me even more to opening up. I, surprisingly, was the center of attention. Somehow, I just brought smiles to the people around me and we were having lots of fun. That feeling of being something good for others, it wrings my heart albeit with utmost satisfaction.
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Four months into the year, school started. I stepped into the classroom with much trepidation. I found myself sitting besides the guys, pairing up my classmates faces with the interesting names I remembered on the class list. First class of the day was Written Communication and we had a young, good-looking, smart and interesting chap as our lecturer who tried on many types of careers purely for interests. He believed in making life a fulfilling one.
School was pretty fun and interesting, with all the psychology modules, despite having an absolutely bad learning experience with Intro to Community Services with quite a soporific ennui inducing teacher who can’t teach for nuts. Project works were relatively fun despite working in a team I wasn’t too fond of. Ideals do get in the way of life at times.
Found myself some CCA’s, a community service cca, my old streak of badminton and an interestingly cool sign language club. Badminton was well through the semester. HI! Club was the biggest thing though. I found a new passion within the simple matter of what seemed a charade and collection of gestures for communicating.
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Over the first semester, I got myself a small group of friends. I have no idea how things first started, but it’s remarkable (for me) to see how things evolved along the way, how we somehow became good friends. It too was because of them, that I started staying up late or through the night with my computer. I never did use the computer at night and now looking back, I wonder how I managed that.
The holidays approached we had more fun chatting and such. It was quite an uplifting thing to me, considering how much I never really had friends in that degree. The times spent together were just indescribable. Months past and I grew closer to one, relieving my life in everyday chats.
It is perhaps too that because I had little social contact with people that caused to me to learn so much about people? Sometimes it seems, that the world was not made out as what stories ideally made them out to be, but even at a heartbreaking level so, I concluded that many a thing in this world worked quite superficially. But of course, I couldn’t let my perception of life get in way of the lives affecting me and others and so as a friend once said, “You don’t wait for the environment to change, you change the environment.”
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It began from when a lecturer came into the lecture hall and gave a talk on Youth Expedition Project. A talk about an overseas trip, in Vietnam, to visit various pre-schools and orphanages. I could feel that tinge in me as the word “children” was repeated. I went ahead and signed up for it, something I normally wouldn’t have done, and got selected to be one of the 30 others chosen. Preparations took place amongst the busy exam weeks.
The holidays came and the team was set to go.
Apart from doing great things for the children and people there, we too were received much in return. There, it was a place away from daily life, and there’s nothing to distract us from the fundamentals. It was a time when everyone looked out for each other, to make sure everyone is alright, both on the surface and even the inner bits. I was cared for, like the much needed affection I had always yearned.
We came as strangers, we left as family.
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School started soon after. The dream had come to an end, but I didn’t want to let go. As some people said, that I always on the run, busy with other friends and sort. An entire month passed and each day after the other made me feel more troubled and lost. I had been busy searching for a certain something which I thought I never would. It took me a month or two to settle, though things were never quite right the same after that. New people came into my life as they replaced each previous batch of people. My social circle mushroomed to the biggest I think it ever did. But through it all, I ended up losing those that were close to me and because of the way I tick, things never got better or at most stagnated.
Well despite all the turbulent times, there were good things too. Over time, my passion for hand signing grew and every day I would be signing, be it songs, random words, just anything would make my hands move. And too, I found out how much of a nice person I can be, which really added my self esteem a lot. People were beginning to compliment me in things I thought were nothing. And thus it is my purpose to being someone that will be praised by everyone but not for my fame, but to bring glory to God.
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I ended off the year quite meaningfully, with Christmas, and two camps. Christmas was really quite unexpected. I had nothing in mind and would probably just idle the day away if not for my friends calling me out for a impromptu mini gathering and it was filled with plenty of laughters, fun, and love. Definitely a most splendid Christmas spent with friends ever. Leadership camp helped bonded a few high clubbers and it was quite an insightful camp I would say. From all the leadership qualities and the much cherished bonds we made, we were all quite sad to leave.
Church camp was another big thing to end the year with. Made with an objective to bring the generations together, A four day camp integrating 500 older and younger youths was held with well, only one day of fun and games. Quite an unexpected plan. The rest was mostly filled with sermons and workshops, with insights that inspired me. The Megalifers were mind blowing with their enthusiasm and of course since my group was mostly Megalifers I got to interact with them a lot and it just reignites my fire and love of teens. The worship too was an amazing experience that brought me closer to God, with times where I never lifted my hand higher than before. There too, I found my inspiration for a new revival and to enter leadership and for a new lease in life to live a life of love.
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And so, as I end of this reflection of 2009, alone in my house only lit by my study room, I want to thank God for the life He gave me, as well as all the rest of the people in my life that made this chapter of life an exciting and thrilling one.
To those whom I knew, to those whom I forgot, to those whom I cared, to those whom I never realized were there, to those whom impacted my life, to those whom hi’s and bye’s made a difference, to those whom surround me, to those whom hearts are far, to whom I loved, to whom loved, to my Father, and to whom reads this,
I thank you from the bottom of my heart. May 2010 be a fruitful year unto your path and your hearts set right and with all fullness and blessing from the Lord my Saviour be upon your lives.
Church camp was awesome right down to the last day. The camp had 500 people all from Megalife - Sec sch to JC, and Highlife - Poly to Uni.
At first it was tough bonding with all the younger kids and my group only had 3 that were around my age or older but in the end I got to bond with everyone of them =)
The older ones are well... think more and the younger ones are just fun and sweet, oh and cute. very. And they were like 14 years old? O_o oh and yea cute cause one of them is like super gullible and thought igloos were made naturally.
Bus ride was fun in some sorts. Played Taiti(?), Bridge, Murderer, Indian Poker and had a really good time bonding through it. And all those cheers aha.
Superman is a man of steel; Human Torch will burn for you; Teen Titans are young and bright; Green Lantern will shine his light; Captain Planet will save the earth; Ironman will show his worth; We are Heroes of the Sky; Now its time for us to fly; To infinity and beyond!
The tune goes by those army cheers not sure how to say and HEH, we had to do that cheer with one arm stretched high up like flying WHILE balancing on one leg, the other lifted up to make a "h" LOL
Camp only had one day of fun, three of which were left to workshops and sermons, some of which I was touched, some of which were insightful, meaningful and of course, some that I just fell asleep in. Let's see, I forgot quite a bit of it but mainly about championing for God, rethinking values, conquering fears, exploring leadership, gender specific, having faith, haha ah owells, many many more good and interesting and applicable and powerful stuffs =)
Yup, and the one and only games day. Had a simple game requiring us to tie a balloon on our legs and then running across an indoor stadium to our safe areas and well just seeing who can collect the most balloons and let me tell you, there is like a few hundreds of teens running about its insane I tell you. And then we will split up into different categories. Floorball with brooms, and watching some of them play with a feather duster cos thier brooms got confiscated for playing rouhgly. Soccer while having to be on all fours, stomachs up like a inverted crab. Tough.
AND for my game was captain's ball with omg, way crazier stuff than ever before. We had whole bunch of bananas, 2 balls of cabbage, 2 papayas, one which I totally witness a scene of someone just throwing a papaya reaaaally high and for it to land with no one catching and it just went, well SPLAT literally... Oh and the best? a RAW CHICKEN. you could watch the limbs and body spread out while rotating in the air in slow mo and then PIAK onto the floor. Playing it was quite hard having the floor quite lubricated with papaya mush and banana slush and plenty of leaves of cabbages to ride on the oily chickenated-floors. Good stuff indeed. And and before I forget,
Point system: Any kind of fruits including papayas that totally mimick bombs, boomerang shaped bananas, heavy shedding ball of cabbage, Chicken wings or thighs, chicken parts, Whole chicken, 1 POINT Chicken head 10 POINTS
Worship was a wonderful experience and time, with our hearts yearning for God. Haaa, quite a few songs I never hear before but yup still was gooood. Lifted my hand higher than ever, though I never once did jump like the Megalifers but yeaaaps, wanted to, but just wasn't my thing. Oh and some awesome lines
Heal my heart and make it clean; open up my eyes to the things unseen; show me how to love like You have love me; break my heart for what breaks Yours; everything I am for Your kingdom's cause; as I walk from earth into eternity.
And yups, felt a calling to lead a new life, one for God, with the heart for others. NEEEEW LIFE, and to really just drop the past and everything that has held me back. Get into a ongoing relationship with God. Yups, time for revival in me =) And boy oh boy, I think i might go into leadership training. I think its time I picked up what's necessary for me and press on. On a sidenote I do quite miss my Megalifer mates =l they were a fun bunch but heh, dun think I'll ever see them again, or at least once in a year? Haha owells but such is life isn't it. time to move on!
...will be to celebrate the good times with you here~
And so I did, with everyone of you. Yvette, Yi Zhen, Di Sheng, Timothy My deepest thanks, for this has been a memorable Christmas for me.
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This year, it was left to be an empty one, no outings, no friends, no christmas trees But you guys called me out and we had a mini party together. Boy was it fun. I really enjoyed it. I had a rocking good time!
Laughed til I teared during Taboo. had a turkey-ish dinner with pus-oozing sausages Took pictures, all kinds of funny ones, groups ones, photo bombing ones (Disheng...)^^ Had fun playing Jenga wahahas, my fast block swiping move hehe. And we baked cookies! And they were goooood ok =) ate like 6 or 7, or maybe more. Kinda lost count. And we played cluedo! First time playing and whooo lots of mind games involved.
filling the cookies
act cute only~
attempting to smear cookie paste on Yizhen's face kekekex
cute timothy pose- wink and a twist
coooookies!
our fail domino - only 4 fell....
baked cookies
cheese!!
To round in up quick (cos ima sleep cos ima hav caaamp tomorrow) Thank you for everything. For every friend out there. Thanks for this year. thanks for being part of my life. Thanks for you touch, deliberate or not.
This really has been the perfect ending to my wonderful year. Words are incapable of expressing the love I feel this Christmas. There's nothing greater I could ask for. It really has been a beautiful time spent with you all.
I LOVE YOU ALL.
Have a blessed new year ahead, I know I'll have one, because of friends like you by my side.
Random Smiles:
TABOO never fails to crack me up.
Disheng: Yizhen always eats my ...? and Darren: Disheng + Yizhen = ? and Yvette: When you see BECK you...? *points at mouth* Yizhen: Drools. and Yizhen: Look, my glasses makes me look? Yvette: Nerdy
Haha, ok people, for the first time in my life or at least for years to come, I finally took a taxi on my own, not that I cant, but just that I dun need or want to. but heeeeh
was at EunosMRT after my 154 ride from school. My ezlink's outta cash and my wallet's just as empty. ha, called my mom and she said she was out and ask me cab over.
Cab driver chatted with me and ask why I'm there. Haha told him I was stranded =(
yup. $7.20 because im outta money. darn. All the more I hate cabs. On a lighter note, wow, cabs are super spacious sia O.o
anyways, Christmas Eve been well. missing some festive spirit of it lols. And wow at the number of things going wrong, (not that I really care actually)
spent an hour buying sport shoes.
cut my leg while carrying bag of grocery.
my topup card worried me by having me dial the code like 10 over times.
am falling sick.
failed my jogging at only 1.5km
totally running out of time to finish assignments.
cant find my O level thingy to claim my cert from MOE.
spent 3 hours doodling the same doodle just to get it right.
my chocolate tin is too small. (for a surprise).
Yups haha, but nonetheless its gonna be Christmas tomorrow =) Merry Christmas folks~
cos in time, fairytales do come to life
I'll spend the perfect Christmas with you
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
First off the morning before camp started, Rushed to school to get my SPSS report done and whee, our results are significant but opposite... yups,
Students that have not gone to Dialogue in the Dark have significantly more positive attitudes towards people with visual impairment as compared to those that have not been.
WIN
And then ran off to meet me homeschoolers for Avatar. and wowz, I dunno what all the reviews meant by documentary-ish but heh, I think it was pretty cool and awesome, though I was kinda waiting for the action part to start but hey, Its a pretty good show I think. "Blue cats" - Lawlz
Ok, and then... HI CLUB LEADERSHIP CAMP!!!
first - its the best leadership camp I've ever been to. second - its the most uncomfortable camp I've been to - and it was purposely planned this way third - I planned the formation for my group fourth - I got to be a interpreter woooooo!
Gerek on 3!
Ok, more or less around there. and woaaah, camp started at say... 6? but heck, it slept at 3 or 4+ just on the first night. We played charades, one of the few games i hate because I tend to make a fool out of myself; and that I did... Yups, I just invented a new word, "printer" lols. How on earth would you charade printer, and at the moment i was thinking "photocopier" so i kinda place two palms about each other and wave the bottom one, like you know, the scanner? haha owells, the camp peeps had a jolly good time teasing me about it the whole night.
and wheee, we had a night amazing race with impossible clues (again to frustrate the shit out of us) and well it did work. Spent a 2 days learning 3 songs, one of which was a challenge to come up with a formation and learn the song in an hour. Games that made us challenge each other's trust, had us running around school, and plenty more. Had our own barbeque as we thoroughly blackened the rocks we picked from Ourspace hehe.
but its thru this camp I get to know much more about Hi! Club, the people in them and well more about leadership skills. Yups, it was time (and suffering) worthwhile.
Oh, hahax, and as for closing ceremony, well I screwed up much with interpretation but hahax, i think its not too bad for a first try =) Performance had two songs for us, one of which I barely remembered, "Get this party started" or something hahas, followed by a surprise performance for the seniors, "Perfect Christmas" and though most of us couldn't remember the lyrics, i'm sure it swept our hearts away.
the greatest gift that there could be wrapped underneath my Christmas tree would be the same my whole life through I'll spend the perfect Christmas with you
Happily snugged up on my doormat was this cat with a mix of white and brown. *meows* Used my shoe to pat it and all I got was snares
Anyway data keying was superb and fun, really. Haha TiongKiat didn't even want to give me his share of the data to key in til I bargained with him, and I only had like 14... Oh, and we would all cheer when we got the results we wanted, and boo at all the those that showed positive. Ironic isn't it?
In the end we completed 107 sheets with Ash collecting the remaining 93. And sooooo far, for the 107 data we have collected, we have quite significant results! of .027 :D Oh that's comparing 7 too 100 by the way .__.
And shitz, I went home forgetting that SPSS can only be accessed from school so now I'm having to decide between going to school early tomorrow just to key in the data, or bring my laptop to my 3 days camp O.o Cos I really wanna do that part :/ "Cheap thrills..." (Chong, 2009)
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Random Smiles
Okay I'm sure this ought to put a smile on your face :D
Hahahaha, true isn't it? Haha, and if it wasn't 小明, I'd write one of my classmates' name HAHA cos I didn't like him XP
It's the start of the holidays since I only have one test for CT week =) Stats was fairly ok, I'm estimating about 70% score, though ideally I would like 80%.
Oh, and heh, not looking forward to thinner days - cause I'm bound to lose a centimetre or two around my hips. and pfffft, its the season of loose pants and I'll have to wear a belt (which I hate) to keep my pants from falling off.
So... two days in and I'm feeling a little messed up. I've become over-reliant for people around me till I've lost the 'ability' to be by myself. Every other few minutes, I'm looking for someone, something but, there's isn't really anyone there... I probably check Facebook about 100 times a day... Oh. and I gamed 12 straight hours yesterday =,=
So yea, I'm wishing to be with people... BUUUT I also dunno go out where, do what and I also dunno how ask people lols. First time in my life I'm wanting to get out with people... Go out myself also feels weird, everything seems aimless. Dam I wish I was rich, I'll just maybe hit the arcade or go out on a food expedition. That's if I am... lols ^^
For Christmas I wish I could have something like a eh... mental secretary =,= there's so much I get when I think, but they fade away like the wind, never returning. by the time I type them down, *poofs* =,= bleh.
O.O maybe I should go back to New Horizons to help?
Sometimes I wish I could take a break and have others care for me... it's when I see them fussing over their friends that I feel this way...
You knew, didnt you?
Friday, December 11, 2009
So you knew all along huh, ひつじ
So happened to came across it, did a bit of searching and hey, turns out, there's so much more one could know if I did open my eyes big enough. thanks for it anyway. If not for you, I would have still been in the pits.
Things progressed and I had an extremely meaningful week after. And I hope you're happy with yours too. Thanks.
Baaaaaaaaa, after a chat with my friend, I think maybe its not worth it .__. owells. there's reasons ba :/ hais. *hides previous post*
Heh, owells, maybe I wont cut you of bah. heh, but if any of you want talk then talk lor :/ I'll just be here if anything is needed. I can help with anything with no expectations de =]
Woots. Finally I'm finally free from individual assignments. Can totally feel a weight lifted off me.
Anyways. wowz. 4 days in and you're still being a jerk =,= and compared to last week, omg I dunno how you managed it last week, this week is like the accumulated jerk within you. Dam. At times, I really hate you, even when no one does.
Anyway, this few weeks have been so stressful and tiring, my eyebags have gotten so bad that my friend thought why i gotten punched in the eyes or something. @_@
ohwells, this week was emoish, but lol. trying not to cause ppl dun wan me to =,=
Oh and we interviewed the blind guides in DiD too. It's quite insightful to be able to hear the things they go thru =) Awesomeness. and I'm addicted to Subway cookies, darn it.
anyways here's some smiles I got these few days:
RANDOM SMILES :)
doing my genogram. Gender: Male, female, PET, or don't know?
*trips over rock* Me: Argh, my toe red liao. Reminds me, last time when I was a kid I go kick a pile of sand by the beach, and guess what? Someone hid a brick inside... QQ: Why you go kick? Me: Cause I was a kid then? and kids do stupid things, kids kick piles of sand,kids hide bricks in piles of sand for other kids to kick. Yea.
Darren Nico Pillai