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FYP Overdrive
Saturday, December 10, 2011

Going into a crisis state soon. FYP, school report, and camp planning all around the same date and it's closing in by a week. Starting to get really stressed, shutting myself out and having to do extreme things. Body still hasn't recovered from the toll with the previous event. Mind's on standby anticipating the moment to enter overdrive. And then there's the people everywhere. People I want to care for, people that want to be cared for.

I hope I can pull through this moment. I hate to be in such a state. I can forsee myself doingsomething stupid in that chaotic condition of my mind. Either to forget or neglect someone. Do or say something impulsively regrettable. Drop people suddenly. Even get unreasonably pissed at my dog. My mind's like a ball of glue bouncing around my caveload of troubles that's cracking on the pressure. It's times like this I wish to disappear so I wont risk having to hurt anyone.

Think I've already made some mistakes but I really cant help it. I hope they understand, though I dont expect anyone to. Owells, I should just disappear for the moment. Sorry friends

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Intern +7
Friday, October 14, 2011

It's one week of intern down, and it's been such a great experience. look forward to each day, meeting my friendly colleagues, hoping to be able to help in any way I can. Heading over to the before-and-after school care to help and spend time with the kids. And they're always greeting me with such energy and excitement.

Had to step out of my comfort zones to do phone calls to recruit participants for the upcoming program. Man, if you know me, you'll know I hate making calls, especially formal calls. Stared at the phone, terrified of touching the headset for a whole hour. Yeap. And finally after watching a demo by my colleague, I had a return call, without any time to prepare. Damn, it was exciting. =)

Quite enjoy the time here, looking forward to what's to come. Been thinking of my FYP and might be going for an old idea of food redistribution. Seems good, though manpower's a concern.

Gonna be interpreting for ministry tomorrow, cant wait =)

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MHI
Saturday, May 14, 2011

Been pretty busy to write things here. Plenty of things go through my mind everyday I wish to pen but nothing gets out in the end.

Minor updates on life;

Doing a behavioural modificational programme from my module to help me cut down on computer time spend unneccesarily. Heh hope it fits.

MHI seems like a great place to volunteer/work/intern in. I suddenly feel so much inspiration to do more HI events.

I think I did well as an advisor. Really loved how they started talking well during our first meeting. Kinda failed while spying on them during class though. Looking forward to being a good advisor for them ^^

Yes! Opening committee comm performance. To start of, heh, i probably made a huge mistake, a responsibility I take on my part. but at least, the formation looked good. I got new inspirations seeing how hms D4F did the transitions and tried to incorporated the same. Sadly, things didnt really meet my expectations to surpass waka waka but well, everyone tried their best I guess. at least I've made another hallmark in my own journey of song signing!

The effect of being a year 3 is slowly settling in. Do feel senior-like and a new sense of responsibility towards the juniors and as well as a tiny build up of the fear of leaving this place which I've taken so much from. future is scary.

friendships wise it feels like I've been alone for awhile since. I hope I can find back my place of "home" somewhr somehow. Walking down this path brings a good cause but lonely moments. Realize that I'm not longer pursuing much of anyone.

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Sophomore
Saturday, March 5, 2011

This week ends the 2nd year of academics in poly. Been reflecting about how much this 2 years have been, the experiences, the life within it. It's mindblowing trying to fit everything into my mind.

I wonder it would be like in year 3. Being seniors, and none higher. I wonder what would be the next transition of life be. I wonder how life would be as it goes on. Mind boggling.

But anyway. I'm inspired to use my holidays wisely this time. To do more productive things and not waste my time away facebooking or playing games. Maybe go out more to meet people and do some good. Pick up a new skills, gain more hands on experience. Build back some relationships, fix some. Learn new things, read more books. Develop myself, explore deeper, refine my character. Become a better friend, to love selflessly.

Wanna get the most out of what's there and yea =) Hope I find the strength to carry on everything. Been worn out lately, but I haven't been doing much either. It's time I did something more worthwhile.

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Cambodia 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010

Back from Cambodia 13-17 Dec 2010 (A little late I know haha)

It's been a really nice experience, both in my personal objectives as well as experentially. Got to see the different sides of poverty and disability, in a developing nation. And wow, kinda sad sometimes. Though I feel inspired by the social organizations that empower these people and their lives. And the volunteers there are really really sweet and warm people. Glad to see the love of christianity flow through them. Really wonderful and encouraging. Got to spend more time with my class. Haha, really nice being together with them, overseas. The laughters and times, makes me appreciate my class much more, I wish we had more time together.

anyway. Quite mixed feelings during the trip. I went there with an intention to bond with my classmates, hoping to tap on the conducive environment. First 3 days wasn't good I felt. tried too hard, and ended up mirroring others too much. I felt it yet find it hard to stop. In the end, after 3 days, I had nothing, for I was being nothing either.

4th day had it better, by me purposing to try be more relational. Tried with timothy, though didn't get too good results. Got some real results this time, being able to htht with mm 3 people and better a relationship with another =) And lol. Last night was pretty interesting. Got a random htht moment with a classmate, talking about God and stuff. Encouraging to know someone like her as well, and to know her life story. Haaa =)

Since i had the chance anyway, popped by another friend and had a chat ._. Was kinda looking out during the trip, but sheesh, got so many people around and stuff, didnt dare and kinda gave up. But owells, in the end had this bloody long convo through the night, shared a few secrets, preached some introspective thoughts and well, lol. Yeap.

Flight home, had those random flight chat with the person beside. He was a CEO of a manufacturing for branded apparels. Talking to him about family and life issues of the modern day world, how many people take things for granted, family, time, comfort and even life itself. Haha interesting experience.

And yea. =) sums up pretty much my trip, quite slipshod though, was gonna rush this as I felt shouldn't drag this anymore but heh ._. HAHA plenty more bahz.

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Making every moment count
Friday, December 10, 2010

Once again this time of the year brings a whole lot of contemplation.

With a new year just round the corner, I often look back, and look through the years of my life, reflecting on what life has been.

You know, I really really, don't want year 2012 to come. Not because the world doomed to end there lol, but I don't want to see the day where I take my last step out from Poly, with nothing but memories, as we all part ways, entering the next phase of our lives.

Everything from this season, one that has impacted my life in so many ways, from growth, to healing, acceptance, wisdom, miracles, friends, passion, community, love, depression, goals, altruism, life, depression, good hearts, struggling ones, impact, guidance, respect, morals and a whole heck lot more. This 2 years, has been such a great time in every measure possible.

So to me, having to put all this behind, my passion for sign language, and friends, those true friends I've met, the miracles of my lost hope, and newer ones for me to explore and understand. I don't know how I'll be able to leave all this behind, and move on. Maybe I'll break down?

Having to enter Uni, will I lose everything that I have now? Would I be the only one moving my hand in weird contortions unrecognizable to anyone else? Will I be able to find like minded friends, and being able to connect to them in a deeper manner? Would I find myself a community of people with just as awesome hearts as those that I know now? Will I be able to rebuild everything and all the valuables.

It kinda makes me wonder in life, all the different phases we go through, primary, secondary school. Now poly, and in the future, Uni, and the working life. All the different experiences and memories we take with us along the way. What do they mean? That old man who walks pass me, what's his life like when he was our age? What we're gonna be like when we're old?

I think, I don't really want to end things, I dun mind having it on replay. But life has to move on doesn't it. But I think, endless worrying about the future would be a complete waste of time and energy, when right now there's the present for me to be in. So yea, quit all the thoughts, and jus live for the present, with the future in mind. Cherish every moment, making them count.

Don't wait till it's too late, sometimes, life just doesn't grant you that second chance.

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Company of Evil
Thursday, October 28, 2010

I think I might have made a wrong choice. For a path so tempting, a company so alluring, and a lie so devious, between the tough choice of home or the world, I chose the latter.

I think that's what it feels like, a heart that is never at ease, knowing it deviance from the right choice. Making the best of what I had, fighting hard to stay pure within the evil that surrounded me. If it means I need to be quiet, and alone, I'll just have to do it. At least, to note to myself not in leave myself with such company to begin with.

But I think there are some interesting positive things to watch amongst the events. Notably the enthusiasm and bonding of the juniors as well as unity of the current batch. Pretty lovely seeing how awesome the kiddos are. Wish people around could be like that too, making the fullest and best our of the poly experience before we all head to work/uni.

On a random note, I think I needa learn how to look more on the better side and every good there is in an individual, even the worse seeming one. Gotta learn to love everybody for who they are, including their flaws and mistakes. =P

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I Sense You Are Feeling Troubled
Monday, October 25, 2010

Today's class on Counseling was super fun. One of my main interest, but looolz, lecture was super heavy, 106 slides of pure text omg =.=

Was suay enough to kena the first one to do roleplay for counseling practical, mostly made a fool of myself in there, but was really fun actually, just that feels weird to have a whole class outside watching you. Doesn't seem that hard actually. Too bad we cant get to the helping process yet =( I feel so impatient

CBT (cognitive-behavior-therapy) also seems pretty cool after watching the video. Kinda like something I use, so maybe it's my style of psychotherapy =D but sheesh, the Corey dude do until dam pro sia. I wanna like rewatch his vid to analyse how he asks his questions.

Empathy wise also need to learn how to relate and to paraphrase to ensure being on the same page with the client. Something I tend to skip =l Gotta learn and improve on it man. Hopefully can learn more and help lotsa people aroun =)

Anyway, been reading a book about love, love as in the love for the people around us, the care and concern kinda stuff. The choice between selfishness and selflessness.

Anyway, if love was giving even during inconvenient times, I think I haven't been really loving my friends much. I hardly ever the one who initiates the conversation in msn, mostly attributed to my personality, yet shouldn't be an excuse for not doing so. Especially to those whom put in extra effort to try maintain or build a relationship with me. Sorry ya all ._. I'll try learn and be better.

Reminds me of the times where I was mostly the initiator and whenever that person initiated a convo, I would be quite surprised. But having been through it, I haven't realize that I'm the one now who's being difficult.

And sheesh =.= realize I cant make it for tmr's camp lunch cos class starts from 1. Like wuuuut?! Ohwells.

Realized I probably will have to miss Alumni classes for Hiclub this semester. Hais, another round of sacrifice and surrendering? Am so bogged by my current struggles I think I can barely be bothered by it. But well, hopefully I can find some way round it, or I'll just have to learn to deal with it when it comes, in a few weeks more. God, you owe me a thumbs-up =(

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Procrastinatorz
Monday, July 19, 2010

Call me screwed, lazy, irresponsible

so much work, and actually ample time but heh with so much of procrastination, end up everything gets done at the last minute.

Today I kinda got my group screwed by overshooting the presentation time by more than 15 minutes. Twice our given time. Hais. I forgot about time and talked quite slowly, and even before half of our presentation was done, the beep is ringing away already =,=

Haaaaiissss. And there's still so much work to do, I think I actually can get them all done in one short but somehow I feel so dam unmotivated. "Just do it" isnt working for me :l my willpower is like hovering slightly over 0... Some how I always feel so amped up to do something but when I really get to it, I lose all appeal.

And heh, I still dun have that standard for writing essays or projects, I lack that part of just making everything indepth and nice =(

Ba stinkypoops. Gotta get my dam butt moving =,=

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Never Ending Chase
Saturday, July 17, 2010

5.03

Late submission?

Yea, that ends week 12 of school term. 2 assignments due this week, 2 last, and 2 more to go the next week. The chase of deadlines seems to be never ending, assignment after assignment, having to revisit that stupid SafeAssign every other week. At least one week is over. It's been a eventful week, but life seems to be repeating its same cycle over and over again. Slack. Chiong. Regret. Repeat.

Well, at least on the aspect of life, I'm growing. Beset with problems and new challenges each day, as the dynamics of human interaction coupled with the constant formulation of theories in my mind merge in a cocktail of thoughts and new understandings.

So much has happened, and there's still so much more to do. I wish there can be a pause button in life, where I can just nua some corner of life, dun think, dun do anything and jus idle away till I'm refreshed.

Anyway, haha, love seeing how two of my friends are becoming a couple. Dam cute I tell you. awww~ HAHA, they always got this super duper cute and shy dumb silly way of doing things xD

Quite an eye opener too though. Finally for the first time I really get to see two of my friends develop a relationship past the boundaries of friendship. It seems so fanciful, so whimsical, like some magical fairy tale. hahax. =)

Hmm... I've been somewhat resolving much within the inner parts of me. Be it friendship, where I'm going against my defense mechanism, my instincts and what my heart is telling me. To go ahead and push thru the hurts and past experiences, to believe that, yes, somewhere out there, there is a hope, a truth, a real love that will be found, in a form of

I like my new status:

being a fool for a great friend. Cos I treasure you too much. I am ignoring what my heart tells me and choosing to believe in you instead.

And a really encouraging reply from a friend (surprisingly):

I think this is much more of a strength than weakness though.
To love knowing you'll hurt, it's much harder than just turning away.
And it takes much courage for one to be this 'fool'.

^^, And though time is short, I will choose to cherish that which is present I need to make full use of.

I also kinda wish life can be more than just observing. I wished I had the skill to make a change. Sometimes, I feel so unwanted, so useless, so pathetic. Seeing how I resort to lowly means to boost my esteem, engaging to annoying and childish senseless behaviour =l

What if I had the power to do more than just sit around and contemplate and my weaknesses and lack of skill. After all, I'm only a weak soul deep down with mystical strength to perform miracles. But this I shall be then. If I have to face the dust with this self, then I gladly do so, with a heartbreaking denial of myself. All I have in my dreams is to make a significant change in this world, to the individual lives around me. To know that, without me, things would have been different. I'm sure my existence causes a rift in this world, but I desire more. Fantasies will die, and dreams reborned. I will make good, even if I have to drain every drip of blood in this heart of mine.

Sometimes, I wish life could be a dream. Sometimes, I wish dreams could become life.

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Take a break and here we go again
Saturday, July 10, 2010

Alrites man, today was a chiongster day having to finish up my WIC and Specom essay, was so dam worried. I often leave things to the last minute but I never experienced having to complete two essays in the same day but owells things were pretty good =D

Finished my wic term paper at 12.30 with 3.2k words. Record sia HAHA and optimal word count should be 2k but teacher let us have how much we want so HAHA like that lor Specom essay was just a random bomb of words, had my momentum going so yea, finished that pretty quick as well.

Anyway, more quick updates on me thoughts,
  • It's kinda cute seeing two of my friends developing a mutual liking for each other xD silly lovebirds~
  • I still wonder how the dynamics of relationships works. Love has a great power to change dynamics completely. And since I cant be in one, I have to learn from others. =l
  • Someone complimented me for being different. Made my day plenty plenty ^^ positively different also HAHA YAAAAY *high*
  • I wonder if I am actually doing things wrongly. I had been observing the dynamics of a certain someone analysing and stuff and sometimes I wonder if I'm actually making the same mistakes?
  • This week isn't gonna be any better with about 5 assignments to complete...
  • I think my condition should be stabilizing =D Havent been doing much screw ups recently ^^
  • I really need to sleep, my eyebags are majorly awesome, they look like makeup
  • Still aiming to be a better fella
  • Wondering if I'm truly as people think I am, or might it be a facade that even fools myself
  • Some of my behaviour has changed drastically for the worse, I'm disgusted at myself
  • Glad that I can at least put a smile on someone's face, sometimes, it makes a world of difference
  • Teaching my hiclub class of 31 people is no easy feat. Planning a formation makes it even tougher
  • I think I have neglected the one closest to me despite wanting to help others. Need to cherish him more.
  • I wish he could open up his world to me, sometimes I have no idea where I should probe and whether or not I ought to. =l Sorry, buddy
  • French is kinda fun but dam tough to learn. Je m'appelle Nico ^^ Et vous?
  • I friggin need a haircut, my hair is so dam long and irritating I touch it at least a hundred times each day =(

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Back to School 2.0
Sunday, April 18, 2010

Alrities, tomorrow's gonna be first day of year 2. It's been a year in poly already, and I've get to experience many many awesome things in just a year. No wonder why they say poly's one of the best times of life.

all the camps, re-entering the societal world, making and losing of friends, passion for sign language, increasing activeness in club stuff and other things, exams, creative projects, presentations, being able to be GL, lead a bunch of freshies, watch as they go thru what you did last year.

shucks man. it's been a great year indeed, and I can only hope for a better year ahead. I've grown much. The new insights, the new experiences, the new world I'm placed in. It's lovely. Looking back at the past seeing how much you've changed along the way, for the better of course =)


I'm gonna start school, and I dun really want it to start, not because I dun like school, but because I dun wan it to end. On a sad side, the days are numbered, on a happier side, it's more so we need to live life to the fullest.

To live as though everyday was our last, how ppl would take extra time out for their friends and ppl they love. hehe.

owells, gonna be home-alone with bro for the first week, not too fun way to start school with me having to do all the housework haha. May the future hold something more meaningful than what life already is now =)

I want a shepherd's heart.

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Goodabyeee Year 1
Saturday, February 27, 2010

WOOHOO, exams are oveeer which also marks the end of Year 1 poly. Yeaps, Not that i really want it to end though. Haven't exactly found the thing I'm looking for heyhoo, you know the times when you're pretty sure things wont be happening the way you imagine or wish it to be, yet there's this still small voice saying, "what if?". It just brings a hope which often balances over a fine line of perseverance, or just foolish dreams.

So exams were pretty fine, I did studied for my exams! My notes for lifespan has drawings all over to help me remember the many many points, which did help =) Lifespan test wasn't as hard as I thought. I guess I would be doing fine then, and I'm satisfied with my effort and my estimated outcome. Oh oh, and contrary to what others say about lifespan being sucky. I think I quite enjoy it hahaha, learnt quite a lot from it =D

Alrities, sooo yeap, having 2 months break. Hahaha nothing much to do.

Things to do/inspire to do

  • Signed up for HMS FOC camp to be GL. Hope I get in and more so hope that I'll be an awesome GL, that I can be part of my kiddos life in Ngee Ann =]
  • I've got Hiclub camp too and yeaps, signing rocks bwuahahahax!
  • 21 days prayer campaign too, so I'll be hard at work on my faith. yups, hope to grow more (in mind and heart, not height...)
  • As for the other days... prolly gonna indulge myself in games or dwell in my own thoughts and hopefully get soem good inspiration.. Feel free to ask me out if need people.
  • Read up on some psychology stuff or old textbooks xD
  • Go into hibernation (socioemotional selectivity)
  • Stop being such a slob
  • Remember to brush my teeth
  • Remember to bathe
  • Remember what day is it
  • Remember it's 2010.


But yeaps, so far year 1 of poly has been quite promising. First sem was fabulous with friends and CCAs =D. Honeymoon period~ Sem 2 was probably the fastest period of my life due to all the nonstop chionging. AND yups, I'm glad I came to poly and I'm proud of it. It's a whole new world for me, even though I stepped in much later than most would have. Friends, fun, achievement, studies, people, haaa good stuffz.

I'm still learning, so give me time.



Random smiles:

Simon commenting on some guy's performance on American Idol,

"ok, plus side, people are gonna remember your performance. The bad side, for the wrong reasons."

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TGIF and the end of IP!!!
Saturday, January 30, 2010



Alrights, today's a saturday and I'm kinda feeling weirdish again. Anyways, here's to the end of IP. Finally we're free from projects but we still have our exaaams =D Friday was lotsa fun with the class and hey I even got my nails painted with some thingy to make it look shiny, and lol at the number of times I whip out me fingers to admire them.

Usher duty for PCS symposium was haaawt. Me, Timothy and Ashleigh stood under the hot sun outside the Convention Center under blazing sun in our blazers (AHAHA) to guide guests into the reserved lots for like an hour plus or something. Whoooo, we were cooking sia xD Omg the relief we felt when we finally stepped back into the cold lovely comfy convention center.


I believe that's Ashleigh's fingerprint...


Nice shot from me phooone =D

Shall skip to class dinner...


TGIF with class ^^

We finally finally finally had another class outing this semester. It be eons since last sem we got out together as a class. I always liked those 3 hours breaks where the class would be out together having fun. Oh and ahaha, we also kinda got our class identity going during the symposium when we were all spamming pics. Ahhh I love T01 =)


Kinda weird why we're all slanted to the right

So we went out to eh some restaurant named TGIF and ahaha, everyone said the same thing when they saw the menu. "I need go draw money" Haha one meal costs me my months of savings but who cares man, the time together with the class was priceless ^^


just look at Tiongkiat's face...

And woots, I downed a freaking big glass of water in almost 10 seconds. baaaa, and then having fun with timothy in binge drinking water ahahaha


paranormal shot for fun - Balu has three hands xD

After dinner, some of them went home, and the rest bought alcohol to drink >=] and lols, my first sip of alcohol (aside from those lousy bacardi breezers) tasted like cough syrup xD and its blue in colour? And heh, we ended up playing games making ourselves feeling most awkward. ha, I wonder why?


Pictured: Cool Blue Cough Syrup



Yeaa, so that's all. And to reward you for your time taken, here's a pic of me acting cute...


Yea, go ahead and laugh your head off =/

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OB and STATS grades
Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Woots. OB workshop was a big success. The game plan impressed lotsa people =D, even Mr Tan. haha , all my hard work worth it, he gave us a A straight for the activity part ^^ It's awesome to know I've done something so well. Oh and sad enough, everyone in class chose the same path, like 2/3 of the game was unexplored... so much for me thinking overly hard =/

But hahax, and yea recently my mood has been super bad from the stress. Have been easily pissable and annoyed and have been quite hostile to some of my friends. so sorry guys =( Boo me.

And waha, I realized I haven't been talking to anyone onn MSN other than Timothy, as in starting up a convo, but hahax, and with that there's still people chatting, it's kinda cool seeing people finding me to talk haha =) Thaaanks

Finally, YAAAAAAY not meant to boast but wheee I got 42/50 for stats~ 84% =D I thought I was gonna only get 30's or some where around there but heyhey, I'm one of the high fews! And I studied from slides =P lols. Okies enuf =x

"Happiness if found within yourself, for true happiness no man can give"

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The last thing a fish will discover is water
Monday, January 4, 2010

Im bored staying up at 3 so I decided to blog about slightly random things of my life. And yea, you can see from the poor writing that i'm a little whoozy from lack of sleep ;)

I amazingly chionged essay together with Jun Ming at NLB. yupz. 1200 words. it is awesome shitz, haaa never do until so pro before. but also cause I read up a heckz lots before starting my work =) Oh and also cause there isn't any internet and I'm not allowed to make any noise, like heh, talk to people so all there's left to do is essayz =(

yups and woots, my cellgroups gonna have 8 fresh meat from sec 4 =D, and haha by God's grace I'll be taking up a potential leadership role. wahahas, hope to give them a good time with our cell ^^

I still can taste the Ajinomoto taste from lunch's fish porridge on my burnt tongue. It's 3am now... kinda 15 hours later? O.o

"The last thing a fish will discover is water." Kinda true isn't it. Often the times where we take for granted to things around us, only to discover and appreciate it when it's too late. As for a fish, to be out of water might mean possible death, but are we to be like fishes to only cherish things when we lose them?

Am commited to live a good and fulfilling 2010, a life right before God. All the growth, all the thing that's installed for me WHOOO, I cant wait!

Oh and schools starting tomorrow :/ but i heard only haz 1 or 2 days of class :D

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Now I know.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Quick update since i'm too bsuy.

I actually stayed up til 5.30 just to complete an assignment only to find out it wasn't due that very next day.

IP's terribly messed up with all the work piling up.

BUSY TTM ZOMG IMA GONNA DIE

Gonna get screwed by BA ppl in LMS.

I Love SocPsy

I'm got in trial SubComm for Hi! Club!

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I've been thinking, observing, analyzing, linking. and things are beginning to make sense. Even though against my wishes, I'm glad.

I'm getting tired. but heeeeey, too bad no one's gonna take the front.

What if I just took a break?

Again, I begin to wonder.

Worth.

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Worse than burdens
Thursday, December 3, 2009

Woots. Finally I'm finally free from individual assignments. Can totally feel a weight lifted off me.

Anyways. wowz. 4 days in and you're still being a jerk =,= and compared to last week, omg I dunno how you managed it last week, this week is like the accumulated jerk within you. Dam. At times, I really hate you, even when no one does.

Anyway, this few weeks have been so stressful and tiring, my eyebags have gotten so bad that my friend thought why i gotten punched in the eyes or something. @_@

ohwells, this week was emoish, but lol. trying not to cause ppl dun wan me to =,=

Oh and we interviewed the blind guides in DiD too. It's quite insightful to be able to hear the things they go thru =) Awesomeness. and I'm addicted to Subway cookies, darn it.


anyways here's some smiles I got these few days:

RANDOM SMILES :)

doing my genogram. Gender: Male, female, PET, or don't know?

*trips over rock*
Me: Argh, my toe red liao. Reminds me, last time when I was a kid I go kick a pile of sand by the beach, and guess what? Someone hid a brick inside...
QQ: Why you go kick?
Me: Cause I was a kid then? and kids do stupid things, kids kick piles of sand,kids hide bricks in piles of sand for other kids to kick. Yea.

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Commendations
Monday, November 30, 2009

Looking back this week, it has being a very good and meaningful week for me. I definitely with full assurance that feel I have become different. Seeing the interesting things that have happened. It's amazing how YEP's impacts on me has revolutionized my thinking and my way of life in such a unforeseen way, but heh, that's how God works. :)

BUT.

First day of school, compared the the last week, today was a failure. Went overboard again, said things I shudnt hav said urgh. Hope tomorrow things wont go out of hand.

And haha, Lifespan class was fun. and we had to share a bit on our lives. Was an enjoyable time of LOL. And I lied .___. And someone prolly knows I lied. lol.

Just couldnt help it. Kinda something I didnt really wished to be make known, especially in the case of general sincerity yea, hahax, perhaps reserve it til the time is right for sharing it :]


Hi club was lol-ish. The bunch of pangseh-ers finally came and so the instructors we taught them 3 classes and the song so I hopped over to the next class and signed their song together which was fun. lol. xD


And it's began to eat into me again.
Scars.
Really does ruins things dun they.
Cos my heart hurts whenever I feel you.

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Saliva. 3 litres of it.
Thursday, November 26, 2009

Essay and proposal is over.
and I ought to be happy.
yet in the midst of these cheerful moments.
every now and then, a wave of melancholy hits me.
maybe something's still not right.
but just got a few days left, before the chaos starts again.
I kinda need a break, I think.
but ha, at least good things are happening.
listened to the uncle at the western shop talk,
and relationships are getting better
and mostly, I'm part of something positive.
yea. =]

hope you keep smiling too yea? ^^


Oh wells, here's a smile

Random Smiles

Socpsy lesson

J.Y: So what are the ways that the Aids virus transmit
Some ppl: Sexually or through blood contact.
J.Y: Good, any more?
MH: Ya cher, 3 litres of saliva
J.Y: Haha, er ok. But its quite scary yea? You compare 3 litres and 1 drop of blood.
MH: Blood is thicker than water.

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