First day of block leave to chillout! Went baking with the cell. We made random butter cookies and jelly heart cake and marshmallows dipped in nutella! Our cookies turned out worse than we hoped but we still had fun spending time with each other and laughing our heads off. I swear nutella goes well with everything~
All our ingredients!
Snacking on nutella-dipped marshmallows while the rest do the work wahaha!
Jelly hearts in the making
Gabriel's spongebob cookie
Pizza-sized cookie (which no one ate)
Random beef steak we decided to cook
Mouldy looking cookie from too much blue colouring
TUESDAY
Met up with Architects for dinner at night. Kinda love how we're still together as a group since mroe than a year ago. This is the only sole group that disproves my notion towards camp groups being one-off and temporary. It shows that if we chose to, we could make it happen. I'm thankful for everyone in the group, and being accepted for the joking idiot I am there.
WEDNESDAY
Had a superb and meaningful time with cell. Was invited to lead that week. Racked my head the whole day over what I could bring in that week. It wasn't till the around last hour (6pm) that I somehow managed to pull together something, revolving around the accountability and upholding of christian brotherhood. A God-led session, I'd say it was. It's a feeling that's growing ever so familiar. To lead not by my own wisdom but through the grace of God. The things you do, the words you speak, you just know it isn't the typical you doing all this. Had a really great activity once again much to the anticipation and excitement of some members, that which I am extremely grateful and thankfully extolled for. Love to see the cell members enjoying themselves.
Cell playing games~
How well do you know your friends?
Abel sitting in Samuel's boot! One in a lifetime experience!
THURSDAY
Interpreting for a deaf staff from NP at a workshop organized by Rohei. Rohei is a really good organization, I'd like to dream working there. Their workshops, camps and acitivities and thoroughly well planned and aptly designed to invoke and capture specific learning outcomes, something I greatly envision and admire. The people too have a special touch to them, something undeniably attractive, I wonder what's the secret behind them.
Anyway, got to interpret for this deaf staff which I met for the first time. Interesting thing is, he comes from deaf parents. Deaf fmailies develop very differently from that of mixed conditions. He's a really nice guy, outgoing and friendly. And a pity, my reading skills have rusted terribly, especially finger-spelling. Had to "chicken" re-spelt before I could even get anything close. Sighs.
FRIDAY
First half of the day was back at interpreting again. Glad to have the exposure. Rohei offered to pay us, which would have been an insane amount of $120 for that day. I declined feeling terrible to take money for a simple service like this.
At midnight, the cell executed our plan for night cycling. Some of them couldn't join us at the last minute sadly. The rest of us were mostly worn out by the day's activities. Nonetheless we enjoyed ourselves. Our route was from pasir ris to east coast park down my route march, and then through the park connectors on our return. Rode a double bike with Jewel after great persuasion. I love double bikes, I love the increased inertia that propels our bike forward for a longer pace, and that it feels like a rocket, and lastly that there's someone riding together with you. I made Jewel yell and scream a lot with my silly antics, it was quite entertaining. All in all, when the day ended (started to be exact) we all flopped around in macs waiting to return our bikes. And it was a night well spent~Saturday
SATURDAY
Went to TSS followed by meeting up with Tim for our one-to-one chat. Really great having a friend like him to share our deep thoughts with. Sometimes there no other people that can understand the things we share and our chemistry has something special to it. Updated each other on some of our happenings as well as some of the issues we were facing currently. He's really a brother for keeping, I pray to God that I won't lose him, at least for as long as I can.
SUNDAY
Last day of the week. Had my last visit to church before confinement. I love going there. It always brings be back closer to God no matter whhat I've done, where I've been. Refresh myself all over again,together with a new teaching and principle to lay down in my life. Headed out to Bake & Brew with cell for lunch. Spent a lot of money there but the food was definitely good.
The kids that got left behind xD Too lazy to lift our butts.
So yea that's it! It's been an eventful and long week, going to say that it's been time well spent! Glad to have this time and chance to spend with the people around me. Next week, back to army!
Cell planned a farewell lunch for me and zx :D Am gonna miss them surely now that I wont be able to join them.
I remember my first two years in PolyITE1 wasn't all so good for me. Was the only one of my level/age for two years thus feeling disconnected from the rest. Been always dissatisfied at way things been. Was until my last year where I figured, sintead of thinking what this cell was for me, what could I be for the cell instead?
From there, things really took off, I learnt to opened up more, and to care for my fellow cell mates, sometimes hearing them out when they have troubles. And oh haha it makes me really happy inside whenever they get excited when I say there's activities, makes me feel really appreciated and motivated to plan new applicable stuffs to do haha.
Anyway, hope things continue to be better. A part of me regrets not doing more for this cell, but I know things will be well cos God's in control =)
24 And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, 25 not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another —and all the more as you see the Day approaching.
Today's cell went well. But all glory to God. Too caught up preparing for my interview I didn't get to prepare for cell. And on the train ride back was thinking what I could do for cell. Didn't do a too good job last week, cos my head was in a mess.
Nearing bedok was getting worried about the lack of inspiration til finally got a brain blast. The topic was supposed to be on the motives of the heart. And came the idea of playing charades of bible characters.
The gestures used for to depict the characters often was something significant that represented them. And so at the end of the game, we ought to ask ourselves too, if our life were to be acted out, what would it be like? As men and women of God, what would be our story of faith be as it is told to the next generation?
In an analogy, a verse came to mind, Psalms 1 about the righteous, and had it to capture each of our current state.
Mine used to be one that stood tall and strong, a tree that provided shade and protection for the smaller trees around. And in its time, suddenly grew weak. withered leaves, dried out trunk, shriveled branches. And it just feels weird that I'm the weak one now, knowing there are other trees around me still.
However through it all, I can feel and know that God's working through me, tearing everything that's weak down to the roots, to be able to make place for a new one to grow, stronger, mightier and more powerful. I know I'll get through this.
Haha cell was super duper great today, God is great and His wonders never cease to amaze me. Through the words spoken, His presence, our experiences, oh how they fall perfectly into place in His plan to help us grow. Amen!
Got to be a blessing to another dear brother, he got into his 13th choice for JAE. Fyi, that means he didnt get into any of his choice and simply got thrown into some random RP course he totally had no belonging in. But through this I kinda was able to relate my experience to him and haaa omg, it was too through his sharing that revealed God used my words to bless him omg omg omg super cool please?
Anyways, have faith Issac, cos no matter where you are placed, I'm sure God will work mighty wonders through your life. Lives will be touched, eyes will be opened and tongues will praise the God you serve because of your faith. Know that God's presence resides with you no matter how far you go in life and I know and believe, that one day you will look back, and thank God from the bottom most of your heart when you see His plans for you. Stay strong, dear brother. ^^
Besides that, I reflected upon how I've became self-centered over the months, how from getting all the attention, all the fame, the recognition, that through the pleasures of this world, that I turned away from my calling, my purpose, and everything I had set out in my life to do. The little achievements has ballooned my ego, and my desire for it, and I continue to strive on to acquire more of it.
And in time, I've lost myself and so many things around me, my friends, my humour, my cheerfulness, my bonds, my relationships, my mind, my security, my love for people, what I truly want, what I was called out for - A light for the lost, a hope for hopeless, and a refuge for the weary. Far from achieving that, yes I know, but through God's grace and guidance, this vision shall come to pass.
And yea, I hope through this I can yet set myself back on to the right track. My sincerest apologies and grateful thanks to my friends out there that held on to me still and not gave up.
A lovely old song which I thought of. Adapted from Psalms 34. and haha, the singer has a cute funny accent xD
~ Random smiles ~
Ok this is epic. Halfway through cell, I got a message from an unknown number and this is how our conversation went:
Unknown number: Lol crowded leh. Can help me on the internet.
Without thinking (more than 5 seconds) I replied: Wrong number =)
Unknown number: You not darren meh?
Me: Ok erm ya I am. Who are you uh? And wat crowded and help wat? ._.
Unknown number: I'm your brother. Help on internet.
Omg epic can? My bro came home and walked to the room, and yea I didnt have my bro's number on me contacts ever since he changed his number, I LOLed (in the middle of cell) when I saw the final reply.
Just a simple day spent with my cellmates and assimilating them into the older youths. Just kinda sat in all the conversations and kept pretty quiet, observing and listening to everyone chatting. For a moment, I kinda felt like not doing anything, not talk, not think, not even live(not emo) and just let things happen. Weird random feelings
Night was mostly spend immersing myself in nostalgia and worships songs, especially those I grew up with, those which hold fond memories for me. Yet suddenly I just feel everything is so calm, so beautiful, so serene...
Haha, and a random song I thought of when I was a kid. A sweet melody to a lovely song. OHMYSTINKINGPOOPS, THE FLUTE IS DAM BEAUTIFUL. I REALLY OUGHT TO LEARN IT >_<
It only takes a spark to get a fire going, And soon all those around can warm up in its glowing; That's how it is with God's Love, Once you've experienced it, You'll spread the love to everyone You want to pass it on.
What a wondrous time is spring, When all the trees are budding The birds begin to sing, the flowers start their blooming; That's how it is with God's love, Once you've experienced it. You want to sing, it's fresh like spring, You want to pass it on.
I wish for you my friend This happiness that I've found; You can depend on God It matters not where you're bound, I'll shout it from the mountain top I want the world to know The Lord of love has come to me I want to pass it on.
Same song, another vid...
"Let it be done unto me according to Your Word"
Random Smiles:
This is my school folder for this sem where I chuck everything into their respective folders and I always chuckle whenever I see LMS.
its named "LifeManagementSkills" but because the name is too long they cut the behind part and then it becomes: "LifeManagementS kills"
Wahahas, today was cell assimilation and I got to meet all the newbies that will be joining my cell. Kinda excited for the injection of fresssh newbies~ Get the whole cell thing started again, this time with me co-leading the cell waaaaahaaaas and yea, it gonna be a good experience I guess =) Cant wait for Thursday ^^
Another epic meal of my life. I bet many of you already know despite my really skinny and fragile looking size, I have some weird ability to eat a heck lot. Like seriously a heck lot. And still not get fat lols, which I bet many of you are envious of ;P. Truthfully, I have no idea where all the stuff goes to. So far, I've got comments like pig..., freak, monster, dustbin, bottomless pit, blackhole, a metabolism so high the food burns out even before it reaches my stomach, yea give it your best shot.
anyways, here's one of my exploits
Soup
Plus rice
equals awesomely good food (Time 9:22pm)
Eating while facebooking~ (Time 9:38)
Gone in like less than 20 minutes. o.O (Time 9:40)
Ok, now all those who have issues and fear of getting fat please don't kill me thankx xP Oh, and if you want to see more tell me. I don't mind doing another time with a tub of ice cream, provided you treat me, or at least half? Wheeeeee~
oh oh, And when I showed it to my mom, instead of supporting me, she laughs and is now waiting for me to get indigestion then to laugh at me again. Tsk. =__=
Random smiles:
Why did the chicken cross the road? To get the newspapers! Geddit? Did you get it? No? That's because the chicken got it first.
Baaa am not knowing why but I still feel a bit of melancholy. Just wanna stay my own corner and keep quiet, pretend that I'm invisible. Yet would I wish for people to come talk to me. Yet I don't really want to reply them. Lolz. Social relations can be quite a hassle at times.
And then best. Not really something I wanted but seems that my good friend is actually the cutting tool to my life. No, not cut as in the way you cut diamonds but the way you chisel rocks? Every now and then he chips a bit of my good feeling me without knowing, not that it's his fault, but just that he's the nemesis of my hidden personality and that quite sucks .___.
Hais, owells. that's why I dun like pro ppl, cause I really don't like being overshadowed by you, give me some space, I need a light of my own and heh, you're good I know, but you dun really have to stick your knife into me every now and then, telling me things I dun need to know. You're surpass me way lots in the already rare good things I have and now you're making me feel all useless... And he's my good friend? o.o, lose a friend or suffer the pain. The latter I guess...
Oh and yups, sorry to all the peeps I've been cold-ish towards. I well just don't feel like talking too much, but nooo, doesnt mean I dun wan to talk to you, I just have nothing much to talk at times. But I'm still open to conversations =]
And then I need to become the most friendly guy on thursday. Open house + cell assimilation =]
secrets and proximity, you win, I get it ok? now buzz off while I stay here to sulk.
Im bored staying up at 3 so I decided to blog about slightly random things of my life. And yea, you can see from the poor writing that i'm a little whoozy from lack of sleep ;)
I amazingly chionged essay together with Jun Ming at NLB. yupz. 1200 words. it is awesome shitz, haaa never do until so pro before. but also cause I read up a heckz lots before starting my work =) Oh and also cause there isn't any internet and I'm not allowed to make any noise, like heh, talk to people so all there's left to do is essayz =(
yups and woots, my cellgroups gonna have 8 fresh meat from sec 4 =D, and haha by God's grace I'll be taking up a potential leadership role. wahahas, hope to give them a good time with our cell ^^
I still can taste the Ajinomoto taste from lunch's fish porridge on my burnt tongue. It's 3am now... kinda 15 hours later? O.o
"The last thing a fish will discover is water." Kinda true isn't it. Often the times where we take for granted to things around us, only to discover and appreciate it when it's too late. As for a fish, to be out of water might mean possible death, but are we to be like fishes to only cherish things when we lose them?
Am commited to live a good and fulfilling 2010, a life right before God. All the growth, all the thing that's installed for me WHOOO, I cant wait!
Oh and schools starting tomorrow :/ but i heard only haz 1 or 2 days of class :D
Had combined cell at my house today, hosting about 15 people. Was fun =) made new friends, finally.
And we tried an exercise on trying to tune in to God' voice. Soooo, we had to pray for one another, trying to listen out for God's word on what we wants us to speak to our partner.
Its kinda exciting yet frightening ._.
And besides, it's beyond human understanding what we can comprehend of God's doing and ways. Naturally, we rely on our intellect to decipher life but heh, sometimes, in fact, always, we ought to seek God and to have faith.
Just let go and believe.
===== RaNdOm SMiLeS =====
YAY!
My mom asked me to buy some cakes back for my bro.
(cos i accidentally ate his...)
and I was eating dinner with friends.
so I thought I better buy it first just in case I forget.
I bought two cakes, one extra for him.
Aww that's so nice of me =)
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I forgot to take it back with me when we left after dinner
As her gaze swept by, our eyes locked for what seemed like endless bliss, yet in reality, only a mere second. My breath stolen, my thoughts stilled. My very being resonated with each ascending heartbeat, her face reconciling with the panorama of my memories with every other thump of my heart. Words, if any, eluded my speech. My frozen gaze and my opened mouth shocked with marvel etched onto the expression in reply that clearly painted my disbelief at fate.
It was her...
I am offered this course that teaches magic tricks which I really would love to go. I feel that it will equip me to reach out to people easier thru entertainment while weaving a story/message thru the act.
The problem is, the dates coincides with class, CCA, and... cell (3 C's LOL). I have always been interested in such techniques as I find them pretty useful for the future. Then again, I am to lead word for cell this coming week, and for the first time as well...
Its all about balancing the priorities. My passion, or my God. After encouragements from a special fellow brother of mine and my leader. Here I am, putting aside my wants, for His goals.
As a leader (to-be), many sacrifices will be needed. Personal time, wants, leisure, friends, but all in good faith.
I believe, as you honour God in your ways, putting His ways before yours, in all due time, He WILL bless you. Besides, when you're for Him, everything will fall in to place. I am sure, He has something greater in store for me. =) For God is not unrighteous to forget your work and labour of love, which ye have shewed toward his name, in that ye have ministered to the saints, and do minister. Hebrews 6:10 (KJV)
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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First day of block leave to chillout! Went baking with the cell. We made random butter cookies and jelly heart cake and marshmallows dipped in nutella! Our cookies turned out worse than we hoped but we still had fun spending time with each other and laughing our heads off. I swear nutella goes well with everything~
All our ingredients!
Snacking on nutella-dipped marshmallows while the rest do the work wahaha!
Jelly hearts in the making
Gabriel's spongebob cookie
Pizza-sized cookie (which no one ate)
Random beef steak we decided to cook
Mouldy looking cookie from too much blue colouring
TUESDAY
Met up with Architects for dinner at night. Kinda love how we're still together as a group since mroe than a year ago. This is the only sole group that disproves my notion towards camp groups being one-off and temporary. It shows that if we chose to, we could make it happen. I'm thankful for everyone in the group, and being accepted for the joking idiot I am there.
WEDNESDAY
Had a superb and meaningful time with cell. Was invited to lead that week. Racked my head the whole day over what I could bring in that week. It wasn't till the around last hour (6pm) that I somehow managed to pull together something, revolving around the accountability and upholding of christian brotherhood. A God-led session, I'd say it was. It's a feeling that's growing ever so familiar. To lead not by my own wisdom but through the grace of God. The things you do, the words you speak, you just know it isn't the typical you doing all this. Had a really great activity once again much to the anticipation and excitement of some members, that which I am extremely grateful and thankfully extolled for. Love to see the cell members enjoying themselves.
Cell playing games~
How well do you know your friends?
Abel sitting in Samuel's boot! One in a lifetime experience!
THURSDAY
Interpreting for a deaf staff from NP at a workshop organized by Rohei. Rohei is a really good organization, I'd like to dream working there. Their workshops, camps and acitivities and thoroughly well planned and aptly designed to invoke and capture specific learning outcomes, something I greatly envision and admire. The people too have a special touch to them, something undeniably attractive, I wonder what's the secret behind them.
Anyway, got to interpret for this deaf staff which I met for the first time. Interesting thing is, he comes from deaf parents. Deaf fmailies develop very differently from that of mixed conditions. He's a really nice guy, outgoing and friendly. And a pity, my reading skills have rusted terribly, especially finger-spelling. Had to "chicken" re-spelt before I could even get anything close. Sighs.
FRIDAY
First half of the day was back at interpreting again. Glad to have the exposure. Rohei offered to pay us, which would have been an insane amount of $120 for that day. I declined feeling terrible to take money for a simple service like this.
At midnight, the cell executed our plan for night cycling. Some of them couldn't join us at the last minute sadly. The rest of us were mostly worn out by the day's activities. Nonetheless we enjoyed ourselves. Our route was from pasir ris to east coast park down my route march, and then through the park connectors on our return. Rode a double bike with Jewel after great persuasion. I love double bikes, I love the increased inertia that propels our bike forward for a longer pace, and that it feels like a rocket, and lastly that there's someone riding together with you. I made Jewel yell and scream a lot with my silly antics, it was quite entertaining. All in all, when the day ended (started to be exact) we all flopped around in macs waiting to return our bikes. And it was a night well spent~Saturday
SATURDAY
Went to TSS followed by meeting up with Tim for our one-to-one chat. Really great having a friend like him to share our deep thoughts with. Sometimes there no other people that can understand the things we share and our chemistry has something special to it. Updated each other on some of our happenings as well as some of the issues we were facing currently. He's really a brother for keeping, I pray to God that I won't lose him, at least for as long as I can.
SUNDAY
Last day of the week. Had my last visit to church before confinement. I love going there. It always brings be back closer to God no matter whhat I've done, where I've been. Refresh myself all over again,together with a new teaching and principle to lay down in my life. Headed out to Bake & Brew with cell for lunch. Spent a lot of money there but the food was definitely good.
The kids that got left behind xD Too lazy to lift our butts.
So yea that's it! It's been an eventful and long week, going to say that it's been time well spent! Glad to have this time and chance to spend with the people around me. Next week, back to army!
Cell planned a farewell lunch for me and zx :D Am gonna miss them surely now that I wont be able to join them.
I remember my first two years in PolyITE1 wasn't all so good for me. Was the only one of my level/age for two years thus feeling disconnected from the rest. Been always dissatisfied at way things been. Was until my last year where I figured, sintead of thinking what this cell was for me, what could I be for the cell instead?
From there, things really took off, I learnt to opened up more, and to care for my fellow cell mates, sometimes hearing them out when they have troubles. And oh haha it makes me really happy inside whenever they get excited when I say there's activities, makes me feel really appreciated and motivated to plan new applicable stuffs to do haha.
Anyway, hope things continue to be better. A part of me regrets not doing more for this cell, but I know things will be well cos God's in control =)
24 And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, 25 not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another —and all the more as you see the Day approaching.
Today's cell went well. But all glory to God. Too caught up preparing for my interview I didn't get to prepare for cell. And on the train ride back was thinking what I could do for cell. Didn't do a too good job last week, cos my head was in a mess.
Nearing bedok was getting worried about the lack of inspiration til finally got a brain blast. The topic was supposed to be on the motives of the heart. And came the idea of playing charades of bible characters.
The gestures used for to depict the characters often was something significant that represented them. And so at the end of the game, we ought to ask ourselves too, if our life were to be acted out, what would it be like? As men and women of God, what would be our story of faith be as it is told to the next generation?
In an analogy, a verse came to mind, Psalms 1 about the righteous, and had it to capture each of our current state.
Mine used to be one that stood tall and strong, a tree that provided shade and protection for the smaller trees around. And in its time, suddenly grew weak. withered leaves, dried out trunk, shriveled branches. And it just feels weird that I'm the weak one now, knowing there are other trees around me still.
However through it all, I can feel and know that God's working through me, tearing everything that's weak down to the roots, to be able to make place for a new one to grow, stronger, mightier and more powerful. I know I'll get through this.
Haha cell was super duper great today, God is great and His wonders never cease to amaze me. Through the words spoken, His presence, our experiences, oh how they fall perfectly into place in His plan to help us grow. Amen!
Got to be a blessing to another dear brother, he got into his 13th choice for JAE. Fyi, that means he didnt get into any of his choice and simply got thrown into some random RP course he totally had no belonging in. But through this I kinda was able to relate my experience to him and haaa omg, it was too through his sharing that revealed God used my words to bless him omg omg omg super cool please?
Anyways, have faith Issac, cos no matter where you are placed, I'm sure God will work mighty wonders through your life. Lives will be touched, eyes will be opened and tongues will praise the God you serve because of your faith. Know that God's presence resides with you no matter how far you go in life and I know and believe, that one day you will look back, and thank God from the bottom most of your heart when you see His plans for you. Stay strong, dear brother. ^^
Besides that, I reflected upon how I've became self-centered over the months, how from getting all the attention, all the fame, the recognition, that through the pleasures of this world, that I turned away from my calling, my purpose, and everything I had set out in my life to do. The little achievements has ballooned my ego, and my desire for it, and I continue to strive on to acquire more of it.
And in time, I've lost myself and so many things around me, my friends, my humour, my cheerfulness, my bonds, my relationships, my mind, my security, my love for people, what I truly want, what I was called out for - A light for the lost, a hope for hopeless, and a refuge for the weary. Far from achieving that, yes I know, but through God's grace and guidance, this vision shall come to pass.
And yea, I hope through this I can yet set myself back on to the right track. My sincerest apologies and grateful thanks to my friends out there that held on to me still and not gave up.
A lovely old song which I thought of. Adapted from Psalms 34. and haha, the singer has a cute funny accent xD
~ Random smiles ~
Ok this is epic. Halfway through cell, I got a message from an unknown number and this is how our conversation went:
Unknown number: Lol crowded leh. Can help me on the internet.
Without thinking (more than 5 seconds) I replied: Wrong number =)
Unknown number: You not darren meh?
Me: Ok erm ya I am. Who are you uh? And wat crowded and help wat? ._.
Unknown number: I'm your brother. Help on internet.
Omg epic can? My bro came home and walked to the room, and yea I didnt have my bro's number on me contacts ever since he changed his number, I LOLed (in the middle of cell) when I saw the final reply.
Just a simple day spent with my cellmates and assimilating them into the older youths. Just kinda sat in all the conversations and kept pretty quiet, observing and listening to everyone chatting. For a moment, I kinda felt like not doing anything, not talk, not think, not even live(not emo) and just let things happen. Weird random feelings
Night was mostly spend immersing myself in nostalgia and worships songs, especially those I grew up with, those which hold fond memories for me. Yet suddenly I just feel everything is so calm, so beautiful, so serene...
Haha, and a random song I thought of when I was a kid. A sweet melody to a lovely song. OHMYSTINKINGPOOPS, THE FLUTE IS DAM BEAUTIFUL. I REALLY OUGHT TO LEARN IT >_<
It only takes a spark to get a fire going, And soon all those around can warm up in its glowing; That's how it is with God's Love, Once you've experienced it, You'll spread the love to everyone You want to pass it on.
What a wondrous time is spring, When all the trees are budding The birds begin to sing, the flowers start their blooming; That's how it is with God's love, Once you've experienced it. You want to sing, it's fresh like spring, You want to pass it on.
I wish for you my friend This happiness that I've found; You can depend on God It matters not where you're bound, I'll shout it from the mountain top I want the world to know The Lord of love has come to me I want to pass it on.
Same song, another vid...
"Let it be done unto me according to Your Word"
Random Smiles:
This is my school folder for this sem where I chuck everything into their respective folders and I always chuckle whenever I see LMS.
its named "LifeManagementSkills" but because the name is too long they cut the behind part and then it becomes: "LifeManagementS kills"
Wahahas, today was cell assimilation and I got to meet all the newbies that will be joining my cell. Kinda excited for the injection of fresssh newbies~ Get the whole cell thing started again, this time with me co-leading the cell waaaaahaaaas and yea, it gonna be a good experience I guess =) Cant wait for Thursday ^^
Another epic meal of my life. I bet many of you already know despite my really skinny and fragile looking size, I have some weird ability to eat a heck lot. Like seriously a heck lot. And still not get fat lols, which I bet many of you are envious of ;P. Truthfully, I have no idea where all the stuff goes to. So far, I've got comments like pig..., freak, monster, dustbin, bottomless pit, blackhole, a metabolism so high the food burns out even before it reaches my stomach, yea give it your best shot.
anyways, here's one of my exploits
Soup
Plus rice
equals awesomely good food (Time 9:22pm)
Eating while facebooking~ (Time 9:38)
Gone in like less than 20 minutes. o.O (Time 9:40)
Ok, now all those who have issues and fear of getting fat please don't kill me thankx xP Oh, and if you want to see more tell me. I don't mind doing another time with a tub of ice cream, provided you treat me, or at least half? Wheeeeee~
oh oh, And when I showed it to my mom, instead of supporting me, she laughs and is now waiting for me to get indigestion then to laugh at me again. Tsk. =__=
Random smiles:
Why did the chicken cross the road? To get the newspapers! Geddit? Did you get it? No? That's because the chicken got it first.
Baaa am not knowing why but I still feel a bit of melancholy. Just wanna stay my own corner and keep quiet, pretend that I'm invisible. Yet would I wish for people to come talk to me. Yet I don't really want to reply them. Lolz. Social relations can be quite a hassle at times.
And then best. Not really something I wanted but seems that my good friend is actually the cutting tool to my life. No, not cut as in the way you cut diamonds but the way you chisel rocks? Every now and then he chips a bit of my good feeling me without knowing, not that it's his fault, but just that he's the nemesis of my hidden personality and that quite sucks .___.
Hais, owells. that's why I dun like pro ppl, cause I really don't like being overshadowed by you, give me some space, I need a light of my own and heh, you're good I know, but you dun really have to stick your knife into me every now and then, telling me things I dun need to know. You're surpass me way lots in the already rare good things I have and now you're making me feel all useless... And he's my good friend? o.o, lose a friend or suffer the pain. The latter I guess...
Oh and yups, sorry to all the peeps I've been cold-ish towards. I well just don't feel like talking too much, but nooo, doesnt mean I dun wan to talk to you, I just have nothing much to talk at times. But I'm still open to conversations =]
And then I need to become the most friendly guy on thursday. Open house + cell assimilation =]
secrets and proximity, you win, I get it ok? now buzz off while I stay here to sulk.
Im bored staying up at 3 so I decided to blog about slightly random things of my life. And yea, you can see from the poor writing that i'm a little whoozy from lack of sleep ;)
I amazingly chionged essay together with Jun Ming at NLB. yupz. 1200 words. it is awesome shitz, haaa never do until so pro before. but also cause I read up a heckz lots before starting my work =) Oh and also cause there isn't any internet and I'm not allowed to make any noise, like heh, talk to people so all there's left to do is essayz =(
yups and woots, my cellgroups gonna have 8 fresh meat from sec 4 =D, and haha by God's grace I'll be taking up a potential leadership role. wahahas, hope to give them a good time with our cell ^^
I still can taste the Ajinomoto taste from lunch's fish porridge on my burnt tongue. It's 3am now... kinda 15 hours later? O.o
"The last thing a fish will discover is water." Kinda true isn't it. Often the times where we take for granted to things around us, only to discover and appreciate it when it's too late. As for a fish, to be out of water might mean possible death, but are we to be like fishes to only cherish things when we lose them?
Am commited to live a good and fulfilling 2010, a life right before God. All the growth, all the thing that's installed for me WHOOO, I cant wait!
Oh and schools starting tomorrow :/ but i heard only haz 1 or 2 days of class :D
Had combined cell at my house today, hosting about 15 people. Was fun =) made new friends, finally.
And we tried an exercise on trying to tune in to God' voice. Soooo, we had to pray for one another, trying to listen out for God's word on what we wants us to speak to our partner.
Its kinda exciting yet frightening ._.
And besides, it's beyond human understanding what we can comprehend of God's doing and ways. Naturally, we rely on our intellect to decipher life but heh, sometimes, in fact, always, we ought to seek God and to have faith.
Just let go and believe.
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YAY!
My mom asked me to buy some cakes back for my bro.
(cos i accidentally ate his...)
and I was eating dinner with friends.
so I thought I better buy it first just in case I forget.
I bought two cakes, one extra for him.
Aww that's so nice of me =)
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I forgot to take it back with me when we left after dinner
As her gaze swept by, our eyes locked for what seemed like endless bliss, yet in reality, only a mere second. My breath stolen, my thoughts stilled. My very being resonated with each ascending heartbeat, her face reconciling with the panorama of my memories with every other thump of my heart. Words, if any, eluded my speech. My frozen gaze and my opened mouth shocked with marvel etched onto the expression in reply that clearly painted my disbelief at fate.
It was her...
I am offered this course that teaches magic tricks which I really would love to go. I feel that it will equip me to reach out to people easier thru entertainment while weaving a story/message thru the act.
The problem is, the dates coincides with class, CCA, and... cell (3 C's LOL). I have always been interested in such techniques as I find them pretty useful for the future. Then again, I am to lead word for cell this coming week, and for the first time as well...
Its all about balancing the priorities. My passion, or my God. After encouragements from a special fellow brother of mine and my leader. Here I am, putting aside my wants, for His goals.
As a leader (to-be), many sacrifices will be needed. Personal time, wants, leisure, friends, but all in good faith.
I believe, as you honour God in your ways, putting His ways before yours, in all due time, He WILL bless you. Besides, when you're for Him, everything will fall in to place. I am sure, He has something greater in store for me. =) For God is not unrighteous to forget your work and labour of love, which ye have shewed toward his name, in that ye have ministered to the saints, and do minister. Hebrews 6:10 (KJV)
Darren Nico Pillai
