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Sophomore
Saturday, March 5, 2011

This week ends the 2nd year of academics in poly. Been reflecting about how much this 2 years have been, the experiences, the life within it. It's mindblowing trying to fit everything into my mind.

I wonder it would be like in year 3. Being seniors, and none higher. I wonder what would be the next transition of life be. I wonder how life would be as it goes on. Mind boggling.

But anyway. I'm inspired to use my holidays wisely this time. To do more productive things and not waste my time away facebooking or playing games. Maybe go out more to meet people and do some good. Pick up a new skills, gain more hands on experience. Build back some relationships, fix some. Learn new things, read more books. Develop myself, explore deeper, refine my character. Become a better friend, to love selflessly.

Wanna get the most out of what's there and yea =) Hope I find the strength to carry on everything. Been worn out lately, but I haven't been doing much either. It's time I did something more worthwhile.

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Words Behind The Screen
Friday, August 20, 2010

Wheee, it's gonna be the end of two weeks since the start of break, another two more to exams, I really got to start studying, or maybe mugging, for the third time in my life... =l Gonna ramble on because I have no concrete idea what to write about.

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Been slacking around, reading personality theories with much enthusiasm, I find them super interesting when read in depth. I wish there was more time to study all this, what we learn in class is so minute, so, out of detail sometimes. And lol, I wish I can come up with my own theories but baaah, the way of psychology is way too much for me. I'm keeping more towards my own personal theories towards social dynamics :)

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To the times we feel like burdens.

Well, it’s cos we think we are, which makes us feel like we are, and then treat ourselves like we are, and therefore we get the effects as though we are. But the truth is, to the people that love us, there is no such thing as burdens, and to share this load with you would be their joy and honour to.

I used to think I was one. Now I'm learning not to think I'm one. ^^

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Oh boyz, signed up to be main comm for a church camp for youths. I'm in Programming. I think its a big task and role. I don't think I can do it, but I'm gonna believe I can. I think perhaps, there's more then our rational mind can conceive so why not take the chance, do something that's so undesirably avoidable yet necessary in time. And dang, all those ideas, I has none. Slogging my brains (even though I'm not really thinking it out seriously) just to come up with some good idea. Bah, I'm tired of trying to think up of something but omg, there's only 3 weeks left to the camp. Cmon inspirations, please come to me.

And shucks, I really need a conducive environment to let these thoughts flourish. I need to have like an open active discussion with the team to let the ideas keep flowing, not the go home and think kind. zzz

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I think this camp is helping me grow a lot. Firstly, it's increasing my leadership experience and potential from which I have been escaping from. Hais, being a leader, is like one of the hardest roles, there's so much things to consider, and besides, the journey of a leader is lonely and not easy. Owells. slowly I guess ._. And lols, the camp is about the lies and perceptions we have that limit ourselves or are destructive in both personal and external ways. And they said, since we are the leaders of this camp, we need to set a good example, in faith, conduct, thoughts and life.

And yup. It's time I guess. Stop running away from myself and all these false thoughts about myself and this world. I know the truth yet I allow these lies to take over. It's time to regain lost ground. Difficult and uncomfortable it's gonna be, RAWR I'M GONNA FIGHT YOU. =)

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And, I've observed a common trait in people's behaviour seemingly rooting from the same cause. Kinda interesting. Wished I could do something about it though. Wish I could do more then just be one of them.

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Briefly went through all my previous posts. 255 of them now. Pretty amazing to see how I've been thru the years. All my past experiences, feelings, thoughts, memories, the people, my everything. Opened some of the draft posts that never made it out, I'm kinda amazed how I used to write last time. I think it's got a pretty nice touch to it. Haha, I got so excited while reading through all the posts, especially those with a cryptic and imaginary touch to it. Sheesh, I hope I can get that back =D

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Fried Soft Boiled
Saturday, August 14, 2010

It's midnight now.

oh boy, I've completely wasted a day away to mindless idling. I really have no idea how I can spend at least 10 hours on the computer practically doing nothing. Really. I think majority of the time is spent thinking what I'm supposed to do.

Owells. Today dinner's egg were fried soft boiled. Fried on the outside, runny on the insides. Weird much. Staying up to midnight, wishing for food to eat, and managed to salvage 10 nuggets and 1 pizza after some spring cleaning in the freezer.

I think I'm going mad. This social depravity is killing me. My mind is just spinning about in circles everyday and I'm constantly thinking of people's blogs to visit, not that I know much of. Just a bunch of them, without updates. I think its to keep my sanity on being out of the world. I wish I'd know.

Oh boy, I need some company but I don't know who and what to talk. I need to get out of the house somehow but I think I'm too afraid of being alone I wont know what to do. Life's so eerily quiet. Too still...

Oh and I'm sure, like pants-dropping sure, by the end of these 4 weeks, my jeans aint gonna fit me anymore =( I'm starving each day, but I'm not going out to eat. Oh boyz. What's becoming of me.

I need a friend...

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Goodabyeee Year 1
Saturday, February 27, 2010

WOOHOO, exams are oveeer which also marks the end of Year 1 poly. Yeaps, Not that i really want it to end though. Haven't exactly found the thing I'm looking for heyhoo, you know the times when you're pretty sure things wont be happening the way you imagine or wish it to be, yet there's this still small voice saying, "what if?". It just brings a hope which often balances over a fine line of perseverance, or just foolish dreams.

So exams were pretty fine, I did studied for my exams! My notes for lifespan has drawings all over to help me remember the many many points, which did help =) Lifespan test wasn't as hard as I thought. I guess I would be doing fine then, and I'm satisfied with my effort and my estimated outcome. Oh oh, and contrary to what others say about lifespan being sucky. I think I quite enjoy it hahaha, learnt quite a lot from it =D

Alrities, sooo yeap, having 2 months break. Hahaha nothing much to do.

Things to do/inspire to do

  • Signed up for HMS FOC camp to be GL. Hope I get in and more so hope that I'll be an awesome GL, that I can be part of my kiddos life in Ngee Ann =]
  • I've got Hiclub camp too and yeaps, signing rocks bwuahahahax!
  • 21 days prayer campaign too, so I'll be hard at work on my faith. yups, hope to grow more (in mind and heart, not height...)
  • As for the other days... prolly gonna indulge myself in games or dwell in my own thoughts and hopefully get soem good inspiration.. Feel free to ask me out if need people.
  • Read up on some psychology stuff or old textbooks xD
  • Go into hibernation (socioemotional selectivity)
  • Stop being such a slob
  • Remember to brush my teeth
  • Remember to bathe
  • Remember what day is it
  • Remember it's 2010.


But yeaps, so far year 1 of poly has been quite promising. First sem was fabulous with friends and CCAs =D. Honeymoon period~ Sem 2 was probably the fastest period of my life due to all the nonstop chionging. AND yups, I'm glad I came to poly and I'm proud of it. It's a whole new world for me, even though I stepped in much later than most would have. Friends, fun, achievement, studies, people, haaa good stuffz.

I'm still learning, so give me time.



Random smiles:

Simon commenting on some guy's performance on American Idol,

"ok, plus side, people are gonna remember your performance. The bad side, for the wrong reasons."

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Lifespan muz diiiieee
Thursday, February 18, 2010

Wheee, study week hasnt been all too productive with lifespan. Its kinda like reading the same topic 5 times, yet talking about fairly different stuff - infant, child, adolescence, adult, aging (elderly) with more extras behind it...

Because ohmystinkingpoops, I'm getting super overloaded by it all, but I have to admit, it's quite interesting to read. BUUUUT, it ends after reading like 5 topics [note: topics, not chapters], I flip a few pages ahead. Yeap, flip flip flip, wth, why haven't flip finish the chapter one. Turns out, I'm only halfway there. Even the main points of a topic has their own many many many subpoints. Oh boy the countless times I scream, pull my hair, bang my head, shut my book, curse and swear, scold the authors and all the other weird stuff studying Lifespan makes one do. Bleh.

Bahaa, today was well... silly.

finally hauled my silly ass to airport, because staying at home with my computer only had me wasting my entire day away. and blehz, got kicked out after 1.5 hours. Wandered aimlessly around the airport for another 30 minutes afterwards LOL. Take the travellators and escalators up and down, go T3, go T1. walk walk sit sit. lols. I think I crossed the "bridge" thingy above the mrt station linking T3 and T1/2 like almost 10 times.

ok moving on. Stayed home. Ate bakwa. Ate leftover oyster omelette from last nite's supper. Heck. I should really stop doing that. Poisoned myself for the #1247139 time and now - overnight raw oysters. But yea, I still live. Reminds me of the honey badger, go anyhow eat poisonous snakes, then go unconscious for a few hours, then wake up to finish of the half eaten snake. And lol, off to shower cause I had a baaaad migraine, and then got the runs, and then felt like vomiting. and then... I just rolled about on the [toilet] floor in agony until... I fell asleep. for 1hr.

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Ima go airport swensens tmr. with me RML 1-for-1 coupons. I need some place away from home that I (hopefully) wont get chased out from.

Be most welcomed to join me, cos eating ice cream alone in an airport on a friday which is the end of study break having to chiong lifespan is kinda... sad? o.O haha owells. Get used to it. =]

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FamRes is screeewed
Monday, February 8, 2010

Yup, screwed indeed.
Todays' famres exam was terrible, hopefuly with a repeat of history where everyone does badly for an exam and it gets moderated. Cos Famres was ohmymamamia. To start if of, when everyone turned the first page over, I can hear laughing and gasping and I turned my too and "OMG DIE LUH" and I turned back the page. Never mind. Take it another deep breathe and flip the page over again and looked at the second question and... "OMG ANOTHER ONE NEVER STUDY DE" and with knowing failure is not too far away, I look at the thrid question and yeaaaps, another question from the journal articles notes we never thought of studying for.

like come on, how do we event study journal articles. Anyway, with 35/50 marks confirmed chop chop gone cause I dunno how to do, I'm glad I didn't waste much time studying because most of the thing that came out for exams were the utterly useless points in the textbook that you'll never expect to appear in a test.

Saturday was a fully slackish day with intentions to start the next day but hey ho, fellowship with church mates took me til 2, and when I came back I quite spent the day of playing games, and when I again set myself to study, guess what, Pirate of the Caribbeans: At World's End played and omg, i havnt watch it before so I chose to sit in front of the tv. Show lasted til 11.30 and yea, I ended up chatting wit friends and my senior to refine my ideas and dreams for Hiclub and it took me til 3am... bessstz and then wake up to go school at 9 to study =l

Oh and i have to mention my exam experience. 2 hours - 8 questions - more than half of which I couldnt answer. So I wrote everything I could with minimal crapping and waited. Wait for another T01 student to walk out of the class so I dont have to be the pioneer one. Nopes, 5 mintues, 10 minutes, 15 minutes and as I watched the many other students handing in their paper, none of my dear T01's came forth. I even signed to Timothy when the invigilator was not looking to ask him go out with me.

I finally decided to just be the first leave early when I saw my friends from another class leaving. And who knows, I was the first to leave, I too was the last. Because no one else ever came out. I mean ok not some monester ate them up or what but omg? they just sat through the 2 hours thinking how to crap? like wuuuuuut? lols. All in all, like wuuuuut the heckz, from everything I've remembered and studied, almost nothing I knew came out. like hellloooo, why do you even test us on things that are useless for our knowing... owells

oh oh and the good thing about it? 2 exams down! left with 2 more weeks for more major GG coming lololols

Dropped by for lunch with T02 at BTP's pizza hut and lol a bit extra but haha still can luh, most of them there already know me. and instead of going home, they suggested to go play pool, but loool we had one heck of a funny shitz time there =D Hooraaay for freedom this week!



I cant promise you that my love will last forever, neither would it be that I'll stop caring, but this I tell you, with all that I am, I’ll do everything it takes to bring a smile to your face.

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OB and STATS grades
Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Woots. OB workshop was a big success. The game plan impressed lotsa people =D, even Mr Tan. haha , all my hard work worth it, he gave us a A straight for the activity part ^^ It's awesome to know I've done something so well. Oh and sad enough, everyone in class chose the same path, like 2/3 of the game was unexplored... so much for me thinking overly hard =/

But hahax, and yea recently my mood has been super bad from the stress. Have been easily pissable and annoyed and have been quite hostile to some of my friends. so sorry guys =( Boo me.

And waha, I realized I haven't been talking to anyone onn MSN other than Timothy, as in starting up a convo, but hahax, and with that there's still people chatting, it's kinda cool seeing people finding me to talk haha =) Thaaanks

Finally, YAAAAAAY not meant to boast but wheee I got 42/50 for stats~ 84% =D I thought I was gonna only get 30's or some where around there but heyhey, I'm one of the high fews! And I studied from slides =P lols. Okies enuf =x

"Happiness if found within yourself, for true happiness no man can give"

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Anthology of life
Saturday, June 6, 2009

Haha, a lot of sections to this posts. So many things have happened recently.

Well, I'll start of with some funny conversations I had with my classmates:

Ŋ Є Я R A Đ -- ρÿrøвlïτz -- says:
i dun like phooootoooos

David. Pony+Puppy+Domo+Giraffe+Duck+Colour Wolf= My Zoo HAHHA OMG IM IN LOVE WITH PHILLIP says:
no nid paiseh la

Ŋ Є Я R A Đ -- ρÿrøвlïτz -- says:
my face looks like alien
wat if NASA got hold of them?!

David. Pony+Puppy+Domo+Giraffe+Duck+Colour Wolf= My Zoo HAHHA OMG IM IN LOVE WITH PHILLIP says:
wad de my face like freaking monster can
dey see dey will call SWAT to come down n pwn me

(camera-shy people~)


David. Pony+Puppy+Domo+Giraffe+Duck+Colour Wolf= My Zoo HAHHA OMG IM IN LOVE WITH PHILLIP says:
Everybody was kung-fu fighting; Those cats went fast as lightning

Ŋ Є Я R A Đ -- ρÿrøвlïτz -- says:
then Zk see philip he go running

David. Pony+Puppy+Domo+Giraffe+Duck+Colour Wolf= My Zoo HAHHA OMG IM IN LOVE WITH PHILLIP says:
he kick with expert timing

(We were like talking abt the song and ZK beating some guy with kungfu.)


David. Pony+Puppy+Domo+Giraffe+Duck+Colour Wolf= My Zoo HAHHA OMG IM IN LOVE WITH PHILLIP says:
the hockey pokey guy

Ŋ Є Я R A Đ -- ρÿrøвlïτz -- says:
To the kitchen you go in;
You take the blender out;
You put your right hand in;
and you BZZZZZZ it all about;
you scream ZOMFG;
and you shake it all about;
that's what its all about!

(You do the hoooooookey pokey!)



EXAAMS!

Will make this brief.

APA wasnt all that too tough.
ITABS was ballooney crap.
INTCOMM will be apocalyptical.


ok, here are some acronyms for fun

I-Totally-Adore-Boring-Shitz [vng]

Its-Timothy,-Always-Bull-Shittng [tim/dnp]

I-Think-Already-Buay-Song [dnp]

Its-Totally-About-Boring-Shitz [yve]


HAHA. so you think APA is hard? Oh no, ITABS is waaaaaay crappier. What can be even harder than that? PEOPLE, I think you've forgotten ITNCOMM! You know, the lecture where the boring lecturer talks to the wall? The lecture where everyone's most awake when "That's all for today" is mentioned.

Oh cool,
Q: Name three expansion buses.

1.SBS
2.SMRT
3.Transit

Lol, IT test. The answer was usb, firewire and SATA. pooo, I couldn't remember so I just threw in the 3 bus companies. =/


Speak with your hands, Listen with your eyes.

Haha, after like 1 month and counting I realized I didn't post anything about Hi Club. Its awesome man!! Come join HI club (Hearing Impaired) too!

Benefits:
- Be equipped with another skill
- Talk to hearing/speech impaired people. (talk?!)
- Classes are fun!!
- Have a secret language with your friends.
- Communicate to friends when speaking is inappropiate
- Cheat during exams

Ok, maybe not the last one but its really cool I tell ya. Especially after experiencing my secret lingo with my classmates haha! You jus have to learn how to sign the letters and you can say anything you want le! er... but ya gotta sign 1 letter at a time.

For example, You wanna say "I fear long words". You'll go "I-H-A-V-E-Hippopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia" Good lucks, perhaps you'll develop the fear of signing long words too.


We're practicing a song for the Closing ceremony, a different one for every class. Mines 'Too Serious Too Soon". Hmm, when we first started at 0.5 speed, it seemed like it was waaaaay too fast, let alone speed 1. Haha, after like days of practice, I can sign the song at speed 2, and find speed 1 terribly slow. =(

I guess I learn fast cause of passion. Passion beats enthusiasm or interest when it comes to doing things, that's why I chose PCS! I think its important that we do what we enjoy, not because we like it, but because we will have the heart for it.


Darren Nico Pillai had two weeks of bad sleeping nights. Now his eyebags looks so bad, you'd think someone punched him in both eyes. Yes, deep black sunken eyes. @.@" (FB)


WOW, okay I've like been sleeping super late this few weeks nonstop just because I stay up to talk to my classmates. Funny conversations with my classmates and such. =)

And for two nites straight before common test, I was up til 6am and 3 am, doing what? DOODLING! drawinf stuff with msn handwriting tool. =D

Here's all Me/Yvette/ZK's stuff.
(p.s. I totally love the firefox one)






























Haha, the last 3:

1- Comic on me making my frens miss the bus =/

2- Summary of me: Fire/Sasher/RaisinChoc/Funny/Idiot-handsign/NiceArt = DNP =D

3- LOOK AT THAT LAZY LEMBEH DOG. (btw, please do no take note of the google search terms... Please dont)

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