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Happy Birthday~
Thursday, January 14, 2010


Happy Birthday to me ^^

Shall start with the good things first (yes lol, many sad things happened today =P)

I was waiting for this day since a long long time ago, not that it was my birthday, but I just wanted to see the people that would be involved, like you know, birthday wishes, cakes, surprises and just many more things people do for their friends. Well since it's one of my first birthdays that I'm in a big social environment. And yea, it's warming to see the wishes coming in and such, even from people whom I barely know. Oh and yea, lotsaaaa facebook wishes I'll go reply them all later.

12am came and while I was busy rushing the IP presentation slides for today's presentation, I'm busy getting wishes from everywhere, facebook, msn, sms hahax. I even forgot to say thanks to some of them.

Moving on, yea there was a surprised installed for me today. After the class IP presentation, we all wanted to take pics of us in our formal attires and since I was the last one out of the class, I went back in to take a chair for the camera. And ahaha, when I walked out towards the corridor carrying the chair, out into the brightness of the open balcony, much to my big big unexpectness, there everyone's surrounding me singing the birthday song for me. Haha it's super memorable guys. It's like stepping out of the door and there my friends are all around greeting me with their big smiles and songs. Thanks a whole lot~

Oh oh, and they got me a bag, or some 'crumpler' thingy or something everyone's been saying about it which I'm still unsure of. You might be laughing at me not knowing what it is, which was what happened to my class. I couldn't figure out what it was in the plastic wrapping, I thought it was some laptop bag or something hahaha, or and I did make quite a spectacle of myself throughout the whole time.

But hey, I am really touched. Haha I don't know, I just cant express my thanks to you all~ "Thanks" can only represent just that small bit of what I feel =)



Ok, that's where the story ends. Haha. But I'll write it from least bad to worse okies? =) And noo i didn't mean for this to be a saddening post >_<

So, I was hoping to spend the day with friends but well, everyone's busy and I dare not really ask, but I did tried once. A little dissapointed about it, or haha in fact quite =l but haha, it's ok anyways. So I was free the entire day... and lols, I just spend it sticking around with Timothy. since he's free and yea, just tag along wherever he goes. Ate lunch with Tim and Don, and then to ourspace to play some board games. and then Timothy left to instruct for Hi! Club.

Ok, then the next sad thing. I couldn't go for his lessons as I planned to. Wanted to visit just to observe and well since I had friends there but he requested that I don't go for that class if possible due to some unsaid reasons . But yea, isn't his fault. Just some bad timing I guess.

Next in line would be after quite a quiet eventless day spent in hopes, I'm alone sitting in my bus on the long ride home. Heh, that's where I started feeling a little sad, and was so tired I keep hitting the guy's shoulders beside me while snoozing.

And then because I told my family I would be out for the night (cause I intended to go to Timothy's class), I went back home to erm a... dark quiet house... everyone's out. Not much friends, no family for the day, no dinner for me either. Oh sheesh =/

Ok left two more hahax, and oh boyz, I pissed two people of today... One cause, I don't know. Secondly cause I'm being too self centered and erms, well I don't know. She kinda disturbed us by intruding our plans? Never mind, not an excuse still. Sorries =l

Ok this one's the best. The ultimate bomb. (oh and it's not an emo post. It's jus made slightly ambiguous to avoid direct contact just in case)
You know, I'm quite disappointed with you today. You probably had your reasons, but I thought that was unnecessary. But who am I to judge.
I can no longer reach where you are, I'm well on to a different level I guess. No longer the same me. I've no longer the same views and perspectives about it. No matter how I try, we've lost the connection already. I've lost grip of your hand.
And the rift is growing, with each thing that happens it just keep growing. And I really don't know, maybe I'm done with what I'm meant to do. I feel you're in quite good hands anyway, there isn't a real need for me to be around anymore. I'm ready to let go of this. Maybe I'm tired. Maybe I'm of no use to you anymore. Maybe I just don't know what to do anymore.

Memories for this birthday
  • My awesome class and that touching scene
  • My new bag =)
  • My friends
  • My most formal wear ever
  • My endless birthday wishes
  • You =P
Oh, and something important. Thanks Timothy, while it might have been nothing much for you but yea, without you, I would have spent my birthday alone. Thanks a lot bro. ^^
I'm at the brink of tears... it's been a lonely day...

A word, is just a word,
till you mean what you say.
And love, isn't love,
till you give it away.

I know those may have just been childish fantasies that held no truth, but those words are worth dreaming for. Because they were words spoken by you.

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