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To be, or not to be.
Friday, August 12, 2011
I find myself withdrawing more than ever, in much contradiction to the increased sociable facade. The void is expanding, and it'll come a time where, they'll reach that sudden chasm, a bridgeless sight of the friendship. The more I yearn, the more I fear; the more I fear, the more I yearn. There's a confusion within whether to believe in faith and hold on, or to release them from the repercussion of my weakness. I don't want anyone hurt because of the way I am, all that weakness, and incompetency in maintaining basic relationships. I've watched us rise in endless joy and then suddenly plunging into a poignant abyss, some in reason of my being, and I wonder why I have to be like this. Strong on the outside for others, yet miserably weak on the inside for myself. I don't want them to change for me. I feel like they have done so much, gave so much, yet here I am, being a selfish fool and dwelling in my idealistic desires, neglecting that around me.
I wish I'll become a better person. I know I love my friends, I do. I just don't know how to go about loving people sometimes. Nobody's ever taught me how.
Labels: frenz, life, Me, thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Leave a message on my tagboard or drop me some questions if any.
Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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To be, or not to be.
Friday, August 12, 2011
I find myself withdrawing more than ever, in much contradiction to the increased sociable facade. The void is expanding, and it'll come a time where, they'll reach that sudden chasm, a bridgeless sight of the friendship. The more I yearn, the more I fear; the more I fear, the more I yearn. There's a confusion within whether to believe in faith and hold on, or to release them from the repercussion of my weakness. I don't want anyone hurt because of the way I am, all that weakness, and incompetency in maintaining basic relationships. I've watched us rise in endless joy and then suddenly plunging into a poignant abyss, some in reason of my being, and I wonder why I have to be like this. Strong on the outside for others, yet miserably weak on the inside for myself. I don't want them to change for me. I feel like they have done so much, gave so much, yet here I am, being a selfish fool and dwelling in my idealistic desires, neglecting that around me.
I wish I'll become a better person. I know I love my friends, I do. I just don't know how to go about loving people sometimes. Nobody's ever taught me how.
Labels: frenz, life, Me, thoughts
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