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Words Behind The Screen
Friday, August 20, 2010
Wheee, it's gonna be the end of two weeks since the start of break, another two more to exams, I really got to start studying, or maybe mugging, for the third time in my life... =l Gonna ramble on because I have no concrete idea what to write about.~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~
Been slacking around, reading personality theories with much enthusiasm, I find them super interesting when read in depth. I wish there was more time to study all this, what we learn in class is so minute, so, out of detail sometimes. And lol, I wish I can come up with my own theories but baaah, the way of psychology is way too much for me. I'm keeping more towards my own personal theories towards social dynamics :)~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~
To the times we feel like burdens. Well, it’s cos we think we are, which makes us feel like we are, and then treat ourselves like we are, and therefore we get the effects as though we are. But the truth is, to the people that love us, there is no such thing as burdens, and to share this load with you would be their joy and honour to. I used to think I was one. Now I'm learning not to think I'm one. ^^
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Oh boyz, signed up to be main comm for a church camp for youths. I'm in Programming. I think its a big task and role. I don't think I can do it, but I'm gonna believe I can. I think perhaps, there's more then our rational mind can conceive so why not take the chance, do something that's so undesirably avoidable yet necessary in time. And dang, all those ideas, I has none. Slogging my brains (even though I'm not really thinking it out seriously) just to come up with some good idea. Bah, I'm tired of trying to think up of something but omg, there's only 3 weeks left to the camp. Cmon inspirations, please come to me.And shucks, I really need a conducive environment to let these thoughts flourish. I need to have like an open active discussion with the team to let the ideas keep flowing, not the go home and think kind. zzz~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~
I think this camp is helping me grow a lot. Firstly, it's increasing my leadership experience and potential from which I have been escaping from. Hais, being a leader, is like one of the hardest roles, there's so much things to consider, and besides, the journey of a leader is lonely and not easy. Owells. slowly I guess ._. And lols, the camp is about the lies and perceptions we have that limit ourselves or are destructive in both personal and external ways. And they said, since we are the leaders of this camp, we need to set a good example, in faith, conduct, thoughts and life.
And yup. It's time I guess. Stop running away from myself and all these false thoughts about myself and this world. I know the truth yet I allow these lies to take over. It's time to regain lost ground. Difficult and uncomfortable it's gonna be, RAWR I'M GONNA FIGHT YOU. =)
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And, I've observed a common trait in people's behaviour seemingly rooting from the same cause. Kinda interesting. Wished I could do something about it though. Wish I could do more then just be one of them.~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~
Briefly went through all my previous posts. 255 of them now. Pretty amazing to see how I've been thru the years. All my past experiences, feelings, thoughts, memories, the people, my everything. Opened some of the draft posts that never made it out, I'm kinda amazed how I used to write last time. I think it's got a pretty nice touch to it. Haha, I got so excited while reading through all the posts, especially those with a cryptic and imaginary touch to it. Sheesh, I hope I can get that back =DLabels: camp, church, exams, Me, thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
Find me at Facebook and Twitter
Leave a message on my tagboard or drop me some questions if any.
Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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Words Behind The Screen
Friday, August 20, 2010
Wheee, it's gonna be the end of two weeks since the start of break, another two more to exams, I really got to start studying, or maybe mugging, for the third time in my life... =l Gonna ramble on because I have no concrete idea what to write about.~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~
Been slacking around, reading personality theories with much enthusiasm, I find them super interesting when read in depth. I wish there was more time to study all this, what we learn in class is so minute, so, out of detail sometimes. And lol, I wish I can come up with my own theories but baaah, the way of psychology is way too much for me. I'm keeping more towards my own personal theories towards social dynamics :)~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~
To the times we feel like burdens. Well, it’s cos we think we are, which makes us feel like we are, and then treat ourselves like we are, and therefore we get the effects as though we are. But the truth is, to the people that love us, there is no such thing as burdens, and to share this load with you would be their joy and honour to. I used to think I was one. Now I'm learning not to think I'm one. ^^
~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~
Oh boyz, signed up to be main comm for a church camp for youths. I'm in Programming. I think its a big task and role. I don't think I can do it, but I'm gonna believe I can. I think perhaps, there's more then our rational mind can conceive so why not take the chance, do something that's so undesirably avoidable yet necessary in time. And dang, all those ideas, I has none. Slogging my brains (even though I'm not really thinking it out seriously) just to come up with some good idea. Bah, I'm tired of trying to think up of something but omg, there's only 3 weeks left to the camp. Cmon inspirations, please come to me.And shucks, I really need a conducive environment to let these thoughts flourish. I need to have like an open active discussion with the team to let the ideas keep flowing, not the go home and think kind. zzz~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~
I think this camp is helping me grow a lot. Firstly, it's increasing my leadership experience and potential from which I have been escaping from. Hais, being a leader, is like one of the hardest roles, there's so much things to consider, and besides, the journey of a leader is lonely and not easy. Owells. slowly I guess ._. And lols, the camp is about the lies and perceptions we have that limit ourselves or are destructive in both personal and external ways. And they said, since we are the leaders of this camp, we need to set a good example, in faith, conduct, thoughts and life.
And yup. It's time I guess. Stop running away from myself and all these false thoughts about myself and this world. I know the truth yet I allow these lies to take over. It's time to regain lost ground. Difficult and uncomfortable it's gonna be, RAWR I'M GONNA FIGHT YOU. =)
~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~
And, I've observed a common trait in people's behaviour seemingly rooting from the same cause. Kinda interesting. Wished I could do something about it though. Wish I could do more then just be one of them.~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~..~*'*~
Briefly went through all my previous posts. 255 of them now. Pretty amazing to see how I've been thru the years. All my past experiences, feelings, thoughts, memories, the people, my everything. Opened some of the draft posts that never made it out, I'm kinda amazed how I used to write last time. I think it's got a pretty nice touch to it. Haha, I got so excited while reading through all the posts, especially those with a cryptic and imaginary touch to it. Sheesh, I hope I can get that back =DLabels: camp, church, exams, Me, thoughts
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