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Sapphire Tears
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Sat alone pondering over quite a number of things.Life. I miss its simplicity and the fellowship of friends. Now, I'm just hurting those close to me, and I don't know what to do and who to go to anymore. Or maybe, its just me being alone. Trying hard to be something for them too, but I guess I'll never be good enough...I wish to have someone who will stay by me, chase me despite my fleeting personality. Sometimes, I really dont know how to build any relationship. I've never really experience the intimacy of friendship. I'm trying my best, though I know it's quite pathetic as compared to many people. I feel envious when I see others being able to come together and enjoy their time, and here I am, alone, with many incorporeal relationships not knowing how to make them work.But I dont think I deserve anyone coming. I'm too selfish. Too needy. Too screwed up.I hope I'll get used to this feeling soon. I hate crying over myself.Labels: EMO, Me, thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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Sapphire Tears
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Sat alone pondering over quite a number of things.Life. I miss its simplicity and the fellowship of friends. Now, I'm just hurting those close to me, and I don't know what to do and who to go to anymore. Or maybe, its just me being alone. Trying hard to be something for them too, but I guess I'll never be good enough...I wish to have someone who will stay by me, chase me despite my fleeting personality. Sometimes, I really dont know how to build any relationship. I've never really experience the intimacy of friendship. I'm trying my best, though I know it's quite pathetic as compared to many people. I feel envious when I see others being able to come together and enjoy their time, and here I am, alone, with many incorporeal relationships not knowing how to make them work.But I dont think I deserve anyone coming. I'm too selfish. Too needy. Too screwed up.I hope I'll get used to this feeling soon. I hate crying over myself.Labels: EMO, Me, thoughts
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