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She returned for me
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Have been writing only the bad stuff recently so here's to balance up with the normal parts of my life.Things must have seemed like a big drama but yea, I really did got to the point of making that decision. I've always wished that could happen since young. But yea, she came for me the next day. I was reluctant but I couldn't refuse. Each step besides her weakens my will, and at the fork, i knew I couldn't bear for us to part and I gave in. It's a good thing overall, but as much as I'm unwillingly grateful, it points out my weaknesses again, Too weak to do any great good, and just as weak to do any bad. But owells, since it isn't time for me to go, I'll just continue fighting then.Being darn busy planning camp programmes. Going back to school everyday and returning after 11. Time passes so fast the only thing I can keep track off is the days left to our semi-unprepared camp. The worries and problems never seem to end, but it's been a great learning process and experience to work alongside with my team =) And certainly way better than idling and rotting away at home =)The walk home felt different today, The wide tentage now filled with brightly lit stalls selling food, potted plants, accessories and many more It;s been a long time since there was a pasar malam in my neighbourhood. Brings back a lot of childhood memories. I remember how I loved to roam the night market. Everything was so exciting, especially the toys and those games stalls. I remember also buying my bolster from there! And it's still with me now, for more than 2/3 of my life already =P hehexFinally, for all you friends, sorry I don't have the time and energy to keep up with you all. Being drained by little things here and there. I hope there's still a chance for us, or I'll just fight more battles then...
After all these, I just wanna take a break from everything. No worries, problems and effort. Wanna sit back and chill with my friends mutually. If only.
Labels: camp, frenz, hi club, memories, qq
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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She returned for me
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Have been writing only the bad stuff recently so here's to balance up with the normal parts of my life.Things must have seemed like a big drama but yea, I really did got to the point of making that decision. I've always wished that could happen since young. But yea, she came for me the next day. I was reluctant but I couldn't refuse. Each step besides her weakens my will, and at the fork, i knew I couldn't bear for us to part and I gave in. It's a good thing overall, but as much as I'm unwillingly grateful, it points out my weaknesses again, Too weak to do any great good, and just as weak to do any bad. But owells, since it isn't time for me to go, I'll just continue fighting then.Being darn busy planning camp programmes. Going back to school everyday and returning after 11. Time passes so fast the only thing I can keep track off is the days left to our semi-unprepared camp. The worries and problems never seem to end, but it's been a great learning process and experience to work alongside with my team =) And certainly way better than idling and rotting away at home =)The walk home felt different today, The wide tentage now filled with brightly lit stalls selling food, potted plants, accessories and many more It;s been a long time since there was a pasar malam in my neighbourhood. Brings back a lot of childhood memories. I remember how I loved to roam the night market. Everything was so exciting, especially the toys and those games stalls. I remember also buying my bolster from there! And it's still with me now, for more than 2/3 of my life already =P hehexFinally, for all you friends, sorry I don't have the time and energy to keep up with you all. Being drained by little things here and there. I hope there's still a chance for us, or I'll just fight more battles then...
After all these, I just wanna take a break from everything. No worries, problems and effort. Wanna sit back and chill with my friends mutually. If only.
Labels: camp, frenz, hi club, memories, qq
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