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Unworthy
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Maybe you'd think I was wrong in doing that. I don't know now, I no longer will say I love, nor say I'm a friend, but all I know is that I couldn't sit by and leave my friend to that path. Morals albeit, some mistakes are not worth the folly of making. Forgive me if I have disappointed you.I expected a lash-back. I never imagined it would hurt that bad. A price to pay. ==================================
I wish I'd never had to go through it the third time. But it did. Been slightly unstable about it and trying to keep it calm, but the rocking boat has capsized.I thought you were someone good. I wished you could be someone I would wanna be like, look up to in respect. I tried believing in you even if no one did. But no, forget it. I've lost all faith in you. After struggling with it for so many years, I think I'm dropping you.You claim to have all these fundamental concepts, yet at the very basic, you fail as a friend. You fail to even love. You portray yourself as some know it all, filled with pride as if no one else knew as much as you did. Despite all that you talk about, you judge. You impose upon others your deep thoughts you assume to be the same rule of everyone. You end up creating this false world of your rules and anyone who breaks them has done wrong. Really, what happened to understanding?And all of them. You treat like projects instead of people. Trying to solve all the problems in the world, but you never had a proper relationships. All you did was go in their lives, tweak a bit of things, and walk out thinking smugly that you've done some good. You don't even build proper connections, making friends and forgetting them when new one comes along. You dont treat anyone as friends, only taking them as good feelings all for granted. You come in when you feel like it, leave when there's nothing appealing. Is this what you call love?And all those good things you've done, do you think you're someone noble, or expect to be admired for being good? Cause nothing you do is worth anything praiseworthy, especially when compared besides all the wrong that you've done. You take false pride in your little actions, but you neglect all the hurts and damage you've caused. Hurting them one after another. Don't you see no one's bothered by your worthless actions?You've caused everything I've believed in you to fall. You've hurt and reopen all my wounds again. Don't blame anyone but yourself. You are beyond screwed. You dont deserve any sympathy. Maybe that's why no one comes for you, maybe I was a fool to believe in you. You were never needed, anyone else could do the same good things you've done. Sometimes, you're nothing but a parasite to make the lives of people around you worse. I hope you'll be placed some where far from people so you cant hurt anyone.Right now, I'm sorry I'm walking out on you. But I really cant go on with you anymore. It hurts every time I place my faith in you high and you send them crashing down. This is the final straw.I can only hope you wont be too alone, and perhaps others would be there for you. Hopefully they can still see and tell the good in you, because I no longer do, nor will I anymore. Not sure if anyone appreciates you but I can only hope you'll find someone else who will bear your burden to help. I can no longer believe you anymore.For now, I wont ever call you a friend anymore. You're entirely unworthy of that status.
Labels: EMO, Me, thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Leave a message on my tagboard or drop me some questions if any.
Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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Unworthy
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Maybe you'd think I was wrong in doing that. I don't know now, I no longer will say I love, nor say I'm a friend, but all I know is that I couldn't sit by and leave my friend to that path. Morals albeit, some mistakes are not worth the folly of making. Forgive me if I have disappointed you.I expected a lash-back. I never imagined it would hurt that bad. A price to pay. ==================================
I wish I'd never had to go through it the third time. But it did. Been slightly unstable about it and trying to keep it calm, but the rocking boat has capsized.I thought you were someone good. I wished you could be someone I would wanna be like, look up to in respect. I tried believing in you even if no one did. But no, forget it. I've lost all faith in you. After struggling with it for so many years, I think I'm dropping you.You claim to have all these fundamental concepts, yet at the very basic, you fail as a friend. You fail to even love. You portray yourself as some know it all, filled with pride as if no one else knew as much as you did. Despite all that you talk about, you judge. You impose upon others your deep thoughts you assume to be the same rule of everyone. You end up creating this false world of your rules and anyone who breaks them has done wrong. Really, what happened to understanding?And all of them. You treat like projects instead of people. Trying to solve all the problems in the world, but you never had a proper relationships. All you did was go in their lives, tweak a bit of things, and walk out thinking smugly that you've done some good. You don't even build proper connections, making friends and forgetting them when new one comes along. You dont treat anyone as friends, only taking them as good feelings all for granted. You come in when you feel like it, leave when there's nothing appealing. Is this what you call love?And all those good things you've done, do you think you're someone noble, or expect to be admired for being good? Cause nothing you do is worth anything praiseworthy, especially when compared besides all the wrong that you've done. You take false pride in your little actions, but you neglect all the hurts and damage you've caused. Hurting them one after another. Don't you see no one's bothered by your worthless actions?You've caused everything I've believed in you to fall. You've hurt and reopen all my wounds again. Don't blame anyone but yourself. You are beyond screwed. You dont deserve any sympathy. Maybe that's why no one comes for you, maybe I was a fool to believe in you. You were never needed, anyone else could do the same good things you've done. Sometimes, you're nothing but a parasite to make the lives of people around you worse. I hope you'll be placed some where far from people so you cant hurt anyone.Right now, I'm sorry I'm walking out on you. But I really cant go on with you anymore. It hurts every time I place my faith in you high and you send them crashing down. This is the final straw.I can only hope you wont be too alone, and perhaps others would be there for you. Hopefully they can still see and tell the good in you, because I no longer do, nor will I anymore. Not sure if anyone appreciates you but I can only hope you'll find someone else who will bear your burden to help. I can no longer believe you anymore.For now, I wont ever call you a friend anymore. You're entirely unworthy of that status.
Labels: EMO, Me, thoughts
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