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Patience
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Back to my post on patience. Think maybe I'll need more patience. Patience with people, patience with time. I believe people can do good, but maybe I'm too hasty about it. Instant pleasure perhaps. Maybe that's why I keep egging people to do something, overlooking what has already been done.Have I been too impatient with the people around me? Done with good intentions, executed with wrong ideals? Maybe that's what accounts for my intolerance towards her. For all those whom I'm vaguely acquainted with, I take on a empathic objective approach, yet when I'm closely involved in it, I lose that sense and see things in only a forefront view. I wonder if I'm being fair to my friends. Giving them higher expectations of them may not fully be wrong, but I'm yet disallowing their chance for failure.You know, overall, I'm upset at you, as well as myself. I just cant see how you knowing it, allow yourself to sadistically live through such pain. I don't know if you're helping yourself, but sometimes seeing you live so closely to the edge creates much angst within me. Why would one devalue life like that. Or then so, why would you want to be that for others, why can't you be that for yourself instead. Sometimes, I don't want to be so near you because I end up caring for you in ways I wish I would not. Though I may not seem like much. I care too much for you for my own good it ends up affecting me. I wonder why do I even do so, and whether I even exist in your world. Maybe I just need a break. Maybe I need to be better myself. I'm so annoying even I annoy me.Love ought to be consistent throughout time and situations ._. Guess I needa work on it more.I'd wish I had more tact on doing things. I seem to know enough of how to spot things, yet I can never do them myself. Easily spot out group dynamics, yet its beyond my control. Maybe it's for me to take second position.My impulsive foolishness causes mistakes I wish time could undo. Waste of time? Was it necessary? Or to find the good in that bad, I find it hard to. But surely, there would be something good in it. But owells. Felt like I wasted the people's time of more than just that circle. Hais ._. Will never do it again.Labels: frenz, qq, thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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Patience
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Back to my post on patience. Think maybe I'll need more patience. Patience with people, patience with time. I believe people can do good, but maybe I'm too hasty about it. Instant pleasure perhaps. Maybe that's why I keep egging people to do something, overlooking what has already been done.Have I been too impatient with the people around me? Done with good intentions, executed with wrong ideals? Maybe that's what accounts for my intolerance towards her. For all those whom I'm vaguely acquainted with, I take on a empathic objective approach, yet when I'm closely involved in it, I lose that sense and see things in only a forefront view. I wonder if I'm being fair to my friends. Giving them higher expectations of them may not fully be wrong, but I'm yet disallowing their chance for failure.You know, overall, I'm upset at you, as well as myself. I just cant see how you knowing it, allow yourself to sadistically live through such pain. I don't know if you're helping yourself, but sometimes seeing you live so closely to the edge creates much angst within me. Why would one devalue life like that. Or then so, why would you want to be that for others, why can't you be that for yourself instead. Sometimes, I don't want to be so near you because I end up caring for you in ways I wish I would not. Though I may not seem like much. I care too much for you for my own good it ends up affecting me. I wonder why do I even do so, and whether I even exist in your world. Maybe I just need a break. Maybe I need to be better myself. I'm so annoying even I annoy me.Love ought to be consistent throughout time and situations ._. Guess I needa work on it more.I'd wish I had more tact on doing things. I seem to know enough of how to spot things, yet I can never do them myself. Easily spot out group dynamics, yet its beyond my control. Maybe it's for me to take second position.My impulsive foolishness causes mistakes I wish time could undo. Waste of time? Was it necessary? Or to find the good in that bad, I find it hard to. But surely, there would be something good in it. But owells. Felt like I wasted the people's time of more than just that circle. Hais ._. Will never do it again.Labels: frenz, qq, thoughts
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