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One-Two Punch
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Nice, just came back from camp having a realization on the train that jus "yesterday's morning" we were actually on the train to school with excitement.That aside. I don't intend to make this known publicly but yea, it's a privilege (to those that sees this as one) to have a peek into my personal thoughts and life.One punch right in the guts hurts like crap yea? What about two? Just a day earlier, I lost my phone, something simple but dear to my heart in many ways of sentimentality and importance. And that I got over with ease, though with a subtle throbbing heart.But the next day, I lost yet another important thing to me. The blood of my social life, the link to my social family in my current days. My post to Hi-Club main committee taken away. I admit truthfully that I am not of main comm material but all the dynamics just leads to social death within this field. Even my other dreams have been dashed...I have no need to further on in my whining. My heart tells me it's ok, and the faith that God has something better in store for me, but deep inside, my heart bleeds. Haha, I kinda wish for someone's presence and a comforting silence. You know, just be with and say nothing at all but with a un-awkward comfort with them? Haha, but yea, the only further I can reach, would just be my 30 minutes silence in the toilet alone.
Lolz.Life sucks, I know it will be for good, but it's hurts the hell out of my heart.
And for those that care and wanna do something or what, I strongly suggest you don't talk to me about it, unless it's something uplifting or encouraging, yea so please do not be bothering me about these stuff just if you wanna ask or talk about it. Some nice words and a understanding tact on your part will be great. So thanks. Silence is something I need if it isnt unnecessary. I just need someone there. Labels: frenz, hi club, Me
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Leave a message on my tagboard or drop me some questions if any.
Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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One-Two Punch
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Nice, just came back from camp having a realization on the train that jus "yesterday's morning" we were actually on the train to school with excitement.That aside. I don't intend to make this known publicly but yea, it's a privilege (to those that sees this as one) to have a peek into my personal thoughts and life.One punch right in the guts hurts like crap yea? What about two? Just a day earlier, I lost my phone, something simple but dear to my heart in many ways of sentimentality and importance. And that I got over with ease, though with a subtle throbbing heart.But the next day, I lost yet another important thing to me. The blood of my social life, the link to my social family in my current days. My post to Hi-Club main committee taken away. I admit truthfully that I am not of main comm material but all the dynamics just leads to social death within this field. Even my other dreams have been dashed...I have no need to further on in my whining. My heart tells me it's ok, and the faith that God has something better in store for me, but deep inside, my heart bleeds. Haha, I kinda wish for someone's presence and a comforting silence. You know, just be with and say nothing at all but with a un-awkward comfort with them? Haha, but yea, the only further I can reach, would just be my 30 minutes silence in the toilet alone.
Lolz.Life sucks, I know it will be for good, but it's hurts the hell out of my heart.
And for those that care and wanna do something or what, I strongly suggest you don't talk to me about it, unless it's something uplifting or encouraging, yea so please do not be bothering me about these stuff just if you wanna ask or talk about it. Some nice words and a understanding tact on your part will be great. So thanks. Silence is something I need if it isnt unnecessary. I just need someone there. Labels: frenz, hi club, Me
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