Woke up at 6pm. Crazy but I guess that was a good thing. Every minute awake, my mind was overly-saturated with thoughts, worries, mistakes, hurts, and everything stupid. Even had a migraine just by that.
I don't know what to do or think now. One half of me feels sorry, the other smirks with glee. It's this war waging everyday inside me, battling for reins over my life. Every action I take has a consequences I rather not face.
I keep trying to avoid the reality of the situation, to avoid recognizing the gravity of my misgivings. Yet even when I know full well, I'm too afraid to hurt, to afraid to do what's needed. Somehow, I wish when my eyes close everything will be alright.
"How could you play with love."
God please help me. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want anyone to hurt anymore.
Labels: life, thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai