Was thinking of what kind of person I am. I tend not to look at positive things I have done, if any (get what I mean?) So I thought why not give myself a chance.

Recently spent $80 with my free vouchers. Got treats for my family, a tub of ice cream and can of clams each, instant mee for my bro, and chocs for friends. It's was on my way home that I realized out of that much spent, I only used $6 for myself, (one tin of delicious clams, which I so quickly devoured).

So what kind of person am I? Was I selfless when I got everyone stuff and not for myself?

Been meeting up with various people too, people whom have made a significant part of my life. I don't think about others all the time, but yet I'd want to meet them at least once before I enter army. I know it's not like my life ends there, but a part of me fears that in this new season of my life, I won't be walking down the same path with some people.

Does this show I cherish and value them? That I do in some little way, love these friends around me?

I think others might laugh at me if I told them I didn't think I was someone good. Each time someone tells me something good about me, I make great efforts to contain myself. Inside, I'm all bubbling and crazily happy, wishing to hear it over and over again, but that would be plain silly wouldn't it? xD I know I'll constantly remind myself not to keep asking/talking about it. Haha.

Oh wells, I know I have a negative view of my self. Sometimes I wish I wouldn't be bias towards myself and learn to see the good that I really am. But I dunno, maybe it keeps me more humble this way.

Labels: Me, thoughts

Was thinking of what kind of person I am. I tend not to look at positive things I have done, if any (get what I mean?) So I thought why not give myself a chance.

Recently spent $80 with my free vouchers. Got treats for my family, a tub of ice cream and can of clams each, instant mee for my bro, and chocs for friends. It's was on my way home that I realized out of that much spent, I only used $6 for myself, (one tin of delicious clams, which I so quickly devoured).

So what kind of person am I? Was I selfless when I got everyone stuff and not for myself?

Been meeting up with various people too, people whom have made a significant part of my life. I don't think about others all the time, but yet I'd want to meet them at least once before I enter army. I know it's not like my life ends there, but a part of me fears that in this new season of my life, I won't be walking down the same path with some people.

Does this show I cherish and value them? That I do in some little way, love these friends around me?

I think others might laugh at me if I told them I didn't think I was someone good. Each time someone tells me something good about me, I make great efforts to contain myself. Inside, I'm all bubbling and crazily happy, wishing to hear it over and over again, but that would be plain silly wouldn't it? xD I know I'll constantly remind myself not to keep asking/talking about it. Haha.

Oh wells, I know I have a negative view of my self. Sometimes I wish I wouldn't be bias towards myself and learn to see the good that I really am. But I dunno, maybe it keeps me more humble this way.

Labels: Me, thoughts