And that's it, I've handed in my final assignment of my poly life. Man, that weight off the shoulders when throwing that booklet into the pigeon hole. Literally skipped and pranced the rest of the day.

Well, as much as that's done for the moment. Pretty much still have a big load in life to handle. Even worse, one's been added on recently, though you could say it was something I neglected anyway.

For now, I really want a break, if I could. but I'm just gonna trudge along with whatever I can find, and mercy be on me I get out of this with my sanity intact. It's been a really really bruising season, sweat drops turn crimson red.

As of the moment, 3 major issues in my life. and here they are in no particular order of disdain or excitement.

One.
Myself. and every lie I've believed in. That resolution I made this year, to free myself from the prison I kept myself in. To open up to love again, trust in the people and things around me. Forgive myself for all the wrongs I've done and learn to value myself a bit more.

Two.
Her. and everything that's has came out of this. There's still that incomprehensible frustration of how and why you were. Sometimes, you'd have to do the hardest things for love. Sometimes, you'd have to pay the highest price for it. And yet it is another mess I'm needing to sort out. It wont be easy, it'll come with pain, but to do it because it's necessary.

Three.
Him. and everything I've failed to be. The latest to my load, but was something neglected far too long. I'll have to put in effort to live up to my role, to be that example. It's long overdue, but never too late to start. Learn to be a better older brother


So gotta hold myself together, and pull through the storms ahead. Tough times ahead, but I'ma push through the rain to see that rainbow on the other side. Cheers!

Labels: life, thoughts

And that's it, I've handed in my final assignment of my poly life. Man, that weight off the shoulders when throwing that booklet into the pigeon hole. Literally skipped and pranced the rest of the day.

Well, as much as that's done for the moment. Pretty much still have a big load in life to handle. Even worse, one's been added on recently, though you could say it was something I neglected anyway.

For now, I really want a break, if I could. but I'm just gonna trudge along with whatever I can find, and mercy be on me I get out of this with my sanity intact. It's been a really really bruising season, sweat drops turn crimson red.

As of the moment, 3 major issues in my life. and here they are in no particular order of disdain or excitement.

One.
Myself. and every lie I've believed in. That resolution I made this year, to free myself from the prison I kept myself in. To open up to love again, trust in the people and things around me. Forgive myself for all the wrongs I've done and learn to value myself a bit more.

Two.
Her. and everything that's has came out of this. There's still that incomprehensible frustration of how and why you were. Sometimes, you'd have to do the hardest things for love. Sometimes, you'd have to pay the highest price for it. And yet it is another mess I'm needing to sort out. It wont be easy, it'll come with pain, but to do it because it's necessary.

Three.
Him. and everything I've failed to be. The latest to my load, but was something neglected far too long. I'll have to put in effort to live up to my role, to be that example. It's long overdue, but never too late to start. Learn to be a better older brother


So gotta hold myself together, and pull through the storms ahead. Tough times ahead, but I'ma push through the rain to see that rainbow on the other side. Cheers!

Labels: life, thoughts