Going into a crisis state soon. FYP, school report, and camp planning all around the same date and it's closing in by a week. Starting to get really stressed, shutting myself out and having to do extreme things. Body still hasn't recovered from the toll with the previous event. Mind's on standby anticipating the moment to enter overdrive. And then there's the people everywhere. People I want to care for, people that want to be cared for.
I hope I can pull through this moment. I hate to be in such a state. I can forsee myself doingsomething stupid in that chaotic condition of my mind. Either to forget or neglect someone. Do or say something impulsively regrettable. Drop people suddenly. Even get unreasonably pissed at my dog. My mind's like a ball of glue bouncing around my caveload of troubles that's cracking on the pressure. It's times like this I wish to disappear so I wont risk having to hurt anyone.
Think I've already made some mistakes but I really cant help it. I hope they understand, though I dont expect anyone to. Owells, I should just disappear for the moment. Sorry friends
Labels: life, School
Darren Nico Pillai