Life is greatly governed by the choices we make in response to our circumstances. No matter how tempting, or how pressing a dilemma, the choice is made by our own will. The worst of course, is when you're pivoted between two extreme circumstances, when neither choice would be a pleasant one. Then again, there are choices that cant be weigh out simply by measuring pros and cons, or majority rules. It's a whole new level when it involves people.

Been through a few difficult choices myself. Giving up an envied secondary school experience to be homeschooled. To stop dwelling in self-pity from past issues, putting aside my anguish to serve others. To dive into my fears with faith.

One of the toughest decision was particularly antagonizing. "Who would you choose to save if two of your loved ones were drowning at opposite ends and you only had time to rescue one?" A stereotypical question that challenges the values and priorities of one, said sometimes out of jest or pique. But it's no laughing matter when it becomes a reality, that terrible burden of extremity the fate of two lives lies responsible in your hands. And then some choices give you the luxury of time, harder ones dont.

Things get complicated when you try to assign a value to things, or worse people. Some things despite a difference in value, are incomparable on the same scale. Placing friendship over a life passion or dreams can be understandably difficult, but prioritizing between the happiness of two close friends makes everything horrible. Either one friend would have the fortune of been the chosen one, but neither one choice would make the one deciding feel any good about it. How does one bring about the message of having to let go of you, no amount of apologies or reason can ever offset the devastation it would bring on that person yet it doesnt bring any less pain to make such a decision To someone so special I could only mouth out a pathetic shameful "sorry" wishing I never have to apologize for such reasons ever again. It didnt meant I valued you less. I valued you differently.

Rule of the thumb. Don't compare. And don't bet yourself against another person.

Labels: frenz, thoughts

Life is greatly governed by the choices we make in response to our circumstances. No matter how tempting, or how pressing a dilemma, the choice is made by our own will. The worst of course, is when you're pivoted between two extreme circumstances, when neither choice would be a pleasant one. Then again, there are choices that cant be weigh out simply by measuring pros and cons, or majority rules. It's a whole new level when it involves people.

Been through a few difficult choices myself. Giving up an envied secondary school experience to be homeschooled. To stop dwelling in self-pity from past issues, putting aside my anguish to serve others. To dive into my fears with faith.

One of the toughest decision was particularly antagonizing. "Who would you choose to save if two of your loved ones were drowning at opposite ends and you only had time to rescue one?" A stereotypical question that challenges the values and priorities of one, said sometimes out of jest or pique. But it's no laughing matter when it becomes a reality, that terrible burden of extremity the fate of two lives lies responsible in your hands. And then some choices give you the luxury of time, harder ones dont.

Things get complicated when you try to assign a value to things, or worse people. Some things despite a difference in value, are incomparable on the same scale. Placing friendship over a life passion or dreams can be understandably difficult, but prioritizing between the happiness of two close friends makes everything horrible. Either one friend would have the fortune of been the chosen one, but neither one choice would make the one deciding feel any good about it. How does one bring about the message of having to let go of you, no amount of apologies or reason can ever offset the devastation it would bring on that person yet it doesnt bring any less pain to make such a decision To someone so special I could only mouth out a pathetic shameful "sorry" wishing I never have to apologize for such reasons ever again. It didnt meant I valued you less. I valued you differently.

Rule of the thumb. Don't compare. And don't bet yourself against another person.

Labels: frenz, thoughts