Curled up on the floor under the shower holding what's left in me, singing the words over and over again. I never felt so desperate and helpless yet struggling to keep my faith on Him who promises.
I not sure at all. I don't want to end up thinking it'll be well, and yet otherwise, knowing I could have done more. But desperation turns me back to You and I can only hope and hold strong to this promise. Please come to my rescue. I'm losing it. Please help me.
Countless "what if's" and scenarios kept playing in my mind. Don't want to ever lose you. Somehow in the midst of all these wavering emotions and unpredictable twists and turns, a part of me inside breaks and bleeds each time I think of you. Don't know what else to do in all these weaknesses. I desire in my heart so much to see you happy once again, to see you smile from within.
Guess I've lost it. Lost myself. Lost you. Lost him. Trying hard to hold everything together, for both of you. I'm trying hard to push myself to do more for the preciousness of these bonds I treasure. In my weakness I can only acknowledge the hurts and pains I've caused, sometimes watch helplessly as everything crumbles apart, so much so that an apology sounds so disgraceful coming from me. But at the end of everything, I love you. I really do.
sometimes I just don't know how. never really understood or felt loved either...
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Curled up on the floor under the shower holding what's left in me, singing the words over and over again. I never felt so desperate and helpless yet struggling to keep my faith on Him who promises.
I not sure at all. I don't want to end up thinking it'll be well, and yet otherwise, knowing I could have done more. But desperation turns me back to You and I can only hope and hold strong to this promise. Please come to my rescue. I'm losing it. Please help me.
Countless "what if's" and scenarios kept playing in my mind. Don't want to ever lose you. Somehow in the midst of all these wavering emotions and unpredictable twists and turns, a part of me inside breaks and bleeds each time I think of you. Don't know what else to do in all these weaknesses. I desire in my heart so much to see you happy once again, to see you smile from within.
Guess I've lost it. Lost myself. Lost you. Lost him. Trying hard to hold everything together, for both of you. I'm trying hard to push myself to do more for the preciousness of these bonds I treasure. In my weakness I can only acknowledge the hurts and pains I've caused, sometimes watch helplessly as everything crumbles apart, so much so that an apology sounds so disgraceful coming from me. But at the end of everything, I love you. I really do.
sometimes I just don't know how. never really understood or felt loved either...
Darren Nico Pillai