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Sunday Christian
Sunday, March 20, 2011
I wish everyday was a sunday.
Every early morning, it'll be a drag to get myself out of bed, walking to the mrt, and then for another 15 mins walk. But each time the lights dim, the music play and the words spoken forth, I'm enjoying every bit of being in His presence. A feeling I wish would never fade off if not for my human self.
Church. I feel blessed that each sunday, I am reminded of God and how real He is. I get a mixture of joy, gratefulness, brokenness, love, strength, hope with the best part of being able to feel the reality of God. My thoughts are centered around God and I find the inspiration and passion to do so many things I know I have to. I love how my thoughts would flow without ceasing about God. This godly touch every weekend, I wish I could stay in it forever. Because I know how well, each time I walk out of that service, I'm back to 'the world.I hate it. I hate how I always lose focus of God, feeling the lethargy to do anything. I hate how I become selfish and then weak. I guess I'm a sunday christian. 6 days of the week, I live in a bad testimony to God. Maybe I still have a good heart, but with the focus off God and reliance on human strength, I still become selfish, and fall far from what I set my morals to be. Every moment in your presence rejuvenates my soul, and without I become an empty vessel again. I wish I had a good christian community. One that holds the same standards as I do, one that will push me to do the right things, one that guide me back to God even what I don't want to. Yet again I cant wait for a community to happen, i need to build it by being it, and oh so many times I've rejected the voice to find God.
Dear God, I so dearly wish to be in Your presence. I don't just want it as something felt 3 hours every sunday and I'm left wishing for it. I don't want to be weak for the other 6 days, and gaining the strength when not many people can see that part of me. I know more than anyone else, crystal clear of how much You're real in my life, and have proven of every time I turn to You, things do work out. I wish I wont keep relying on human cognition, and bogged by my weaknesses.But in all, I use "wish" because I know none of this can happen with me just wishing. A choice must be chosen, an effort must be made. Only then can there be a difference, no matter how small the change. God please grant me added grace for me to do all these. Let my life be a true light of You.
 Labels: God, Me, thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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Sunday Christian
Sunday, March 20, 2011
I wish everyday was a sunday.
Every early morning, it'll be a drag to get myself out of bed, walking to the mrt, and then for another 15 mins walk. But each time the lights dim, the music play and the words spoken forth, I'm enjoying every bit of being in His presence. A feeling I wish would never fade off if not for my human self.
Church. I feel blessed that each sunday, I am reminded of God and how real He is. I get a mixture of joy, gratefulness, brokenness, love, strength, hope with the best part of being able to feel the reality of God. My thoughts are centered around God and I find the inspiration and passion to do so many things I know I have to. I love how my thoughts would flow without ceasing about God. This godly touch every weekend, I wish I could stay in it forever. Because I know how well, each time I walk out of that service, I'm back to 'the world.I hate it. I hate how I always lose focus of God, feeling the lethargy to do anything. I hate how I become selfish and then weak. I guess I'm a sunday christian. 6 days of the week, I live in a bad testimony to God. Maybe I still have a good heart, but with the focus off God and reliance on human strength, I still become selfish, and fall far from what I set my morals to be. Every moment in your presence rejuvenates my soul, and without I become an empty vessel again. I wish I had a good christian community. One that holds the same standards as I do, one that will push me to do the right things, one that guide me back to God even what I don't want to. Yet again I cant wait for a community to happen, i need to build it by being it, and oh so many times I've rejected the voice to find God.
Dear God, I so dearly wish to be in Your presence. I don't just want it as something felt 3 hours every sunday and I'm left wishing for it. I don't want to be weak for the other 6 days, and gaining the strength when not many people can see that part of me. I know more than anyone else, crystal clear of how much You're real in my life, and have proven of every time I turn to You, things do work out. I wish I wont keep relying on human cognition, and bogged by my weaknesses.But in all, I use "wish" because I know none of this can happen with me just wishing. A choice must be chosen, an effort must be made. Only then can there be a difference, no matter how small the change. God please grant me added grace for me to do all these. Let my life be a true light of You.
Labels: God, Me, thoughts
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