Suddenly I think through my daily life and stumble upon a thought I havent realized for quite some time.Friends. I don't really have any... Few maybe. To clear tings first, this wouldn't discount people treating me as friends, but me treating them as friends also.I find myself mostly doing everything alone, even when I'm with people. I rarely have a good conversation with anybody. Is it common? Maybe it is for introverts, but heh, I dont want it that way, I'd to have meaningful conversations with people.
Friends, temporal? It's seems tangible, close to touch, yet I cant grasp it. Did I lose something along the way? Am I being too selfish? Fears? Incompetency?
I think I'm doing it way too technically. I cant really remember being relaxed when making friends. I dont think I know how to in the first place. Baaah. I should stop being so technical and just open up, to receive. At most just go thru the hurts again.
Maybe I'll have to learn again this semester then. It's been so long, but heh.
Labels: frenz, thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai