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My destiny, God's calling
Sunday, November 21, 2010

Thought about it while walking today, trying to find a bible character in the same plight. Was thinking and suddenly I thought about Jesus. Oh blaaa. When you kena the same situation as Him, always got nothing to say. My puny impact and misjudge is nothing in the light of His. A spotless life who came to love and to save, yet a condemned death as though the worst man on Earth, rejected by the closest, betrayed by His own. Phewww, who am I to feel that I'm such a pity.

I thought about it. My Christianity. It was just more than God's work in my life. It's because He loves me. And that demonstrates itself through the wonders shown in my life, the miracles unseen to others, even those little ones that happen daily that never fail to amaze me.

It's the way I am, the way I've become, the things in me, it's His doing. My life is nothing but an empty vessel, to be emptied of its murky stagnated slime, and filled by His loving waters to be poured unto others.

I'm different. The people around know it. The things I say, the values I abide by. Deviant as I would like to label myself. Deviant from the world's way of selfishness. And I'm glad and comforted to find a brother, another who's sees the spoils of humanness, one who is willing to step out of the world. I'm not saying I'm righteous, all I want is to stop the way selfishness seeps in our lives.

I heeded the call, blessed by grace. All these things I know, the revelations and wisdom bestowed unto me, the fundamental aspects to the human life, I take it upon my faith, that these truths are what I based my life upon. People may disagree and others might scorn.

It's God's call in my life, that which my faith and conviction resides in, gives me the strength to carry on, even when I'm alone, or in the bleak times, and with this destiny, I know everything is part of God's plan for my purpose.

With what I have, primarily the deep knowledge, I'll start the revolutionary life of what it was first meant for. To reawaken the inner voice inside us, one kept aside by society, and the harshness of the tainted world. The voice of truth, speaking to us, maybe it's the conscience, maybe something more. The knowing inside of us to judge our motives, our fears, and what's right and wrong. To change the style of life, not the selfish one we enjoy today, but one out of selflessness, both for men and God, in the essence of agape love, all because He first loved us.

I may not be the best, or what I've said. I'm flawed in my ways, but I'll work towards refining myself to become better. And as a light, I stand firm, on the Solid Rock, even if the fiercest storms, I will not be shaken. Even if the battering winds push me over, there I will climb up again. And even if everyone turn their back against me, there I will persevere, and know that I'm never alone, for God's with me. Never forsaken, never forgotten.

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