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This Direction I'm Looking In
Friday, August 27, 2010
A long deep heart to heart with a good friendd on the bus made me think much over what I should be doing pertaining to the previous post.Amazingly, I managed to bring forth myself to speak those things from the deepest most of my heart, and well it didn't feel that scary after all ._. Basically, despite everything, maybe what's really stopping me is my irrational fears for an idealistic world. Maybe I need to stop thinking this way, and let things be. Maybe I should open myself and let this things happen. Maybe I should stop pushing you away and be a natural me ._. But this direction I'm looking in, the path is one I have never tread. I'm feeling much of trepidation and fear especially, I cant bring myself to forgo the possibility of me hurting another despite your claims of me over-exaggerating my badness. I cant see myself in that future and I dare not to. It would be nice certainly =x but, I think such things only exist in dramas and wild fantasies. But I'll try, really. Plan something out for myself and not let my thoughts get in the way. But truthfully, if without all the hurts and pains, I think that would be lovely =P but ha! Life isn't as simple as that. I really need to sleep early hais =lLabels: Me, thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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This Direction I'm Looking In
Friday, August 27, 2010
A long deep heart to heart with a good friendd on the bus made me think much over what I should be doing pertaining to the previous post.Amazingly, I managed to bring forth myself to speak those things from the deepest most of my heart, and well it didn't feel that scary after all ._. Basically, despite everything, maybe what's really stopping me is my irrational fears for an idealistic world. Maybe I need to stop thinking this way, and let things be. Maybe I should open myself and let this things happen. Maybe I should stop pushing you away and be a natural me ._. But this direction I'm looking in, the path is one I have never tread. I'm feeling much of trepidation and fear especially, I cant bring myself to forgo the possibility of me hurting another despite your claims of me over-exaggerating my badness. I cant see myself in that future and I dare not to. It would be nice certainly =x but, I think such things only exist in dramas and wild fantasies. But I'll try, really. Plan something out for myself and not let my thoughts get in the way. But truthfully, if without all the hurts and pains, I think that would be lovely =P but ha! Life isn't as simple as that. I really need to sleep early hais =lLabels: Me, thoughts
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