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My Chance For A Fairytale
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Leaning by the corner of a wall, writing about my dreams and fantasies.I wonder what's a fairytale like? Maybe I've been watching too mane movies or reminiscing from novels I read when I was little kid. This they call, something that exists in almost every story.Its like this something that's missing inside of me. This void I cant seem to fill, no matter how I try. I think I have the answers to it, but I don't think its meant to be. It's happened all around me. I've seen it. It's even happening now, and seeing it happen before my eyes is so heartwrenching.When's mine I wonder. Do I get a chance at it? I wished I know the thoughts of others. I wanna know my value. No, I'm not thinking I'm lousy, it's just that I wonder, do fairytales like these exists. Surely there ought to be some basis. A lie cant exists if there is no truth to lie about.But what are the chances? I've been through it 3 times, and none of which made into reality. 5 months after you left my memories, my heart has been wandering in the wilderness. Is there really a bliss that's exists? Or perhaps it's merely some story that's made up to bluff the world.At times, all I see is just a world of darkness, and I'm sitting there alone, a splotligh shining down on me, and all that surrounds me is black empty space.Every soul my path crosses has me questioning, what if? A little tingly feeling, a adrenaline rush, we been through them all. Even if I found one, how would it ever be possible for things to be that way. Everything's merely an illusion.Everyone. All them all. I'm playing with chances, toying with lives, gambling with fantasies...Have I been dreaming too much?Labels: heart, thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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My Chance For A Fairytale
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Leaning by the corner of a wall, writing about my dreams and fantasies.I wonder what's a fairytale like? Maybe I've been watching too mane movies or reminiscing from novels I read when I was little kid. This they call, something that exists in almost every story.Its like this something that's missing inside of me. This void I cant seem to fill, no matter how I try. I think I have the answers to it, but I don't think its meant to be. It's happened all around me. I've seen it. It's even happening now, and seeing it happen before my eyes is so heartwrenching.When's mine I wonder. Do I get a chance at it? I wished I know the thoughts of others. I wanna know my value. No, I'm not thinking I'm lousy, it's just that I wonder, do fairytales like these exists. Surely there ought to be some basis. A lie cant exists if there is no truth to lie about.But what are the chances? I've been through it 3 times, and none of which made into reality. 5 months after you left my memories, my heart has been wandering in the wilderness. Is there really a bliss that's exists? Or perhaps it's merely some story that's made up to bluff the world.At times, all I see is just a world of darkness, and I'm sitting there alone, a splotligh shining down on me, and all that surrounds me is black empty space.Every soul my path crosses has me questioning, what if? A little tingly feeling, a adrenaline rush, we been through them all. Even if I found one, how would it ever be possible for things to be that way. Everything's merely an illusion.Everyone. All them all. I'm playing with chances, toying with lives, gambling with fantasies...Have I been dreaming too much?Labels: heart, thoughts
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