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Dear ID,
Monday, June 28, 2010
Why cant you control yourself. Weak. Why cant you just do all that you want to be, for a better change, for a better world. Why must you be ruled by your selfish desires. Especially when you talk so much about living a life for others. Why do you have to be so annoying and irritating. Why do you have to be such an ass... Why cant you just be someone good? Why do you have to pursue after everything that you want? Don't you realize the ass you're being? Living by selfish gratification.I sick of you. I'm tired. I hate you. I hate myself. I feel like shit all thanks to you. I need to rediscover that passion of killing you, that I might attain true selflessness, damn you.I think I need a break. A break from everything, a break from myself. I need to stop letting you manifest in my life. You're getting way out of hand. I need to hide somewhere and find a refuge, one where I can be still. I need to be still.Nico. You have the potential. You need to make a change. You need to change. You can change. Life is never too late to turn around. Dear God, please, with all that I'm crying out, save me. Save me from myself.
I need to go some place far far away from everything. I don't want to, but I need to. Anyone willing to bring me there, and maybe stay with me while I'm there? O.o =x =/
Labels: EMO, Me
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Leave a message on my tagboard or drop me some questions if any.
Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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Dear ID,
Monday, June 28, 2010
Why cant you control yourself. Weak. Why cant you just do all that you want to be, for a better change, for a better world. Why must you be ruled by your selfish desires. Especially when you talk so much about living a life for others. Why do you have to be so annoying and irritating. Why do you have to be such an ass... Why cant you just be someone good? Why do you have to pursue after everything that you want? Don't you realize the ass you're being? Living by selfish gratification.I sick of you. I'm tired. I hate you. I hate myself. I feel like shit all thanks to you. I need to rediscover that passion of killing you, that I might attain true selflessness, damn you.I think I need a break. A break from everything, a break from myself. I need to stop letting you manifest in my life. You're getting way out of hand. I need to hide somewhere and find a refuge, one where I can be still. I need to be still.Nico. You have the potential. You need to make a change. You need to change. You can change. Life is never too late to turn around. Dear God, please, with all that I'm crying out, save me. Save me from myself.
I need to go some place far far away from everything. I don't want to, but I need to. Anyone willing to bring me there, and maybe stay with me while I'm there? O.o =x =/
Labels: EMO, Me
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