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Less Than We Deserve
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Righty yups, today's Easter sunday,and I didn't know my church was closed haha. They moved it to yesterday's service. Went to church to have my quiet time there and woah, it's closed. Thank God my mom sent me, so we drove off to Changi Beach for lunch, and had another heart to heart chat while strolling across the beach.It's been since horribly long since, eons, moons, ages, years ago that we ever did talk like this. My mom never knew me, and surely neither did I. My deepest darkest secrets would be kept to myself, or maybe confided with good good frens. But yea, it was ever since that revelation from God, where I felt so inspired to share with my mom my breakthrough, and from there, I believe God has greatly mended our relationship. From a past of hurts, to a life of hatred and detest, leading to forgiveness but with isolation, and now to restoration. I know this is not where it ends, and more will be there to come. I discovered out my mom was full of wisdom as well, from her many experiences, contrary to my pride in thinking I was smarter than her =x Anyways, been pretty restless these few days. Having this pursuit for something more in life, some form of ways I can seek God more besides just reading the Bible and meditating. I kinda want something way more substantial, maybe inspirational, mind blowing, but I think maybe I first have to clear up the clutter in my mind. Being through a lot recently, and learnt a great deal. A great great deal I would say. And with each passing day, yet is there not a moment miss where He teaches me something new, and with greater intensity so much so that I am beginning to tremble.Been reading up on Job since I too, have been bombarded with the things I love taken away from me. The common story of Job would be that God tested him, and Job prove worthy of God's faith and that Job didn't curse God but continued to praise Him. Honourable a something to imitate but I think certainly one great part of the whole story missed is that Job, emo-ed big time. So much I think the book of Job should be called Lamentations instead. But yea, he certainly didnt curse God or such, but more of emo-ed from a humanly point of view. Which yea, comes something I learn again. I think it's ok to be sad or angry, even godly characters experiences these kind of emotions. I too emo-ed for a few days (thankfully only a few) when faced with my circumstances. Besides, I think God wont be so bad so as to disallow us to feel angry or sad, but more of how we channel those emotions.Yeap, and me too in the end, this time, got sick of feeling the melancholy with God's absence due to me avoiding Him, got back on my feet, and yea, I'm back in action. It's not just about head knowledge thinking all will be well when in the heart, we'll all still sadded and stuffs.Anyways, here's a verse that I find so beautiful, Job 11:6b (NKJV)
Know therefore that God exacts from you
Less than your iniquity deserves. Yea, He's just so merciful, that He pardons us even for the things we do wrong sometimes. Times when we were young and wished and hoped hard, our parents or people would give us a second chance when we did something wrong. You know? that kind of yearning for mercy and just wishing we didn't have to face the bad consequences. Yea, sometimes, God's mercy is just like this too. He loves us too much that He even withhold His judgment upon our lives, Israel, and the many other cities full of sins that if you were God, you wouldn't wait to whoop their asses. But then, we aren't God, are we? That's where the difference comes in. A forgiving and merciful God of second chances. Ha, who can fathom the greatness of our Lord~Oh God, you never cease to amaze me daily =]
Here's a few random inspired quotes.
To give is a duty; To receive is a privilege.
Don't cry because it's over; Rejoice because it happened.
Labels: God, Me, thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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Less Than We Deserve
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Righty yups, today's Easter sunday,and I didn't know my church was closed haha. They moved it to yesterday's service. Went to church to have my quiet time there and woah, it's closed. Thank God my mom sent me, so we drove off to Changi Beach for lunch, and had another heart to heart chat while strolling across the beach.It's been since horribly long since, eons, moons, ages, years ago that we ever did talk like this. My mom never knew me, and surely neither did I. My deepest darkest secrets would be kept to myself, or maybe confided with good good frens. But yea, it was ever since that revelation from God, where I felt so inspired to share with my mom my breakthrough, and from there, I believe God has greatly mended our relationship. From a past of hurts, to a life of hatred and detest, leading to forgiveness but with isolation, and now to restoration. I know this is not where it ends, and more will be there to come. I discovered out my mom was full of wisdom as well, from her many experiences, contrary to my pride in thinking I was smarter than her =x Anyways, been pretty restless these few days. Having this pursuit for something more in life, some form of ways I can seek God more besides just reading the Bible and meditating. I kinda want something way more substantial, maybe inspirational, mind blowing, but I think maybe I first have to clear up the clutter in my mind. Being through a lot recently, and learnt a great deal. A great great deal I would say. And with each passing day, yet is there not a moment miss where He teaches me something new, and with greater intensity so much so that I am beginning to tremble.Been reading up on Job since I too, have been bombarded with the things I love taken away from me. The common story of Job would be that God tested him, and Job prove worthy of God's faith and that Job didn't curse God but continued to praise Him. Honourable a something to imitate but I think certainly one great part of the whole story missed is that Job, emo-ed big time. So much I think the book of Job should be called Lamentations instead. But yea, he certainly didnt curse God or such, but more of emo-ed from a humanly point of view. Which yea, comes something I learn again. I think it's ok to be sad or angry, even godly characters experiences these kind of emotions. I too emo-ed for a few days (thankfully only a few) when faced with my circumstances. Besides, I think God wont be so bad so as to disallow us to feel angry or sad, but more of how we channel those emotions.Yeap, and me too in the end, this time, got sick of feeling the melancholy with God's absence due to me avoiding Him, got back on my feet, and yea, I'm back in action. It's not just about head knowledge thinking all will be well when in the heart, we'll all still sadded and stuffs.Anyways, here's a verse that I find so beautiful, Job 11:6b (NKJV)
Know therefore that God exacts from you
Less than your iniquity deserves. Yea, He's just so merciful, that He pardons us even for the things we do wrong sometimes. Times when we were young and wished and hoped hard, our parents or people would give us a second chance when we did something wrong. You know? that kind of yearning for mercy and just wishing we didn't have to face the bad consequences. Yea, sometimes, God's mercy is just like this too. He loves us too much that He even withhold His judgment upon our lives, Israel, and the many other cities full of sins that if you were God, you wouldn't wait to whoop their asses. But then, we aren't God, are we? That's where the difference comes in. A forgiving and merciful God of second chances. Ha, who can fathom the greatness of our Lord~Oh God, you never cease to amaze me daily =]
Here's a few random inspired quotes.
To give is a duty; To receive is a privilege.
Don't cry because it's over; Rejoice because it happened.
Labels: God, Me, thoughts
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