While listening to covers of old songs, a wave of nostalgia hit me and suddenly I remembered the journal. When back to re-read to see what I was like back then. Could help but chuckle at myself. I really loved how I expressed my feelings and thoughts there. Simple, straightforward and kinda silly.
It's cute really, reading the entries, marking down the little things that made me smile, laugh, like being all excited/nervous when you talked to me. How I waited each night to talk to you, ready to put a smile on your face with the jokes I thought through the day. I must have worked really hard then, learning and trying all kinds of ways to strike up and maintain a conversation. Boy was I poor at social skills. And yes, my secret; exposed on numerous occasions yet I never having confront it myself. Felt contented with you around. And then came depression and separation, where my heart hurt a lil, of which I came out stronger, learning to let go of my affections and loving wholly.
It was beautiful, it was sweet, and I'm happy for such a memory.
Looking back, I've begin to see the locks I have placed on my heart along the way. No wonder it feels heavier. Hiding behind these glass walls, I've never truly allowed someone in my life for a long time. I really need to learn to open myself up to people around me, embrace life.
Here's a song to finish up that special feeling of nostalgia.
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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While listening to covers of old songs, a wave of nostalgia hit me and suddenly I remembered the journal. When back to re-read to see what I was like back then. Could help but chuckle at myself. I really loved how I expressed my feelings and thoughts there. Simple, straightforward and kinda silly.
It's cute really, reading the entries, marking down the little things that made me smile, laugh, like being all excited/nervous when you talked to me. How I waited each night to talk to you, ready to put a smile on your face with the jokes I thought through the day. I must have worked really hard then, learning and trying all kinds of ways to strike up and maintain a conversation. Boy was I poor at social skills. And yes, my secret; exposed on numerous occasions yet I never having confront it myself. Felt contented with you around. And then came depression and separation, where my heart hurt a lil, of which I came out stronger, learning to let go of my affections and loving wholly.
It was beautiful, it was sweet, and I'm happy for such a memory.
Looking back, I've begin to see the locks I have placed on my heart along the way. No wonder it feels heavier. Hiding behind these glass walls, I've never truly allowed someone in my life for a long time. I really need to learn to open myself up to people around me, embrace life.
Here's a song to finish up that special feeling of nostalgia.
Darren Nico Pillai