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Jump then Fall into me
Saturday, July 16, 2011
I fell today. I havent for a really long time.Slipped on the steps while walking in the rain. Tumbled down two steps further, my hand filled with dirt, my handphone on the floor, its cover a distance away. Amongst all the soot, I saw a tinge of red beginning to well up. I dreaded what came next.It's just a small cut, and a little blood. But the pain reminded me of the loneliness, falling on my own, having to stand up and pick myself up all by my own. There was a sudden flow of loneliness, and sadness rushing into my mind, paralyzing it. Somehow, I had to fight really hard to continue walking to catch up to my classmates in front. But it felt so cold, felt like everything was collapsing.The physical experience of falling made all the emotional battles I've been through suddenly feel so tangible. The difference when it's in your mind and in your hands.It's been quite a tough time, I can't remember the last time when things were simple and peaceful.Labels: thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Leave a message on my tagboard or drop me some questions if any.
Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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Jump then Fall into me
Saturday, July 16, 2011
I fell today. I havent for a really long time.Slipped on the steps while walking in the rain. Tumbled down two steps further, my hand filled with dirt, my handphone on the floor, its cover a distance away. Amongst all the soot, I saw a tinge of red beginning to well up. I dreaded what came next.It's just a small cut, and a little blood. But the pain reminded me of the loneliness, falling on my own, having to stand up and pick myself up all by my own. There was a sudden flow of loneliness, and sadness rushing into my mind, paralyzing it. Somehow, I had to fight really hard to continue walking to catch up to my classmates in front. But it felt so cold, felt like everything was collapsing.The physical experience of falling made all the emotional battles I've been through suddenly feel so tangible. The difference when it's in your mind and in your hands.It's been quite a tough time, I can't remember the last time when things were simple and peaceful.Labels: thoughts
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