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A true hero remains silent
Wednesday, April 27, 2011

If you're going to do something good, do it quietly. It doesn't count if it's made known to everyone.

I've always struggled with this. Keeping my head low in humility versus fighting away the feelings of pride and self-righteousness.

Yet its so hard, then every time when I feel that I've done something of good worth, to humbly keep quiet and let the matter past. A part of me bursts out in attempt to seek affirmation.

On the other hand, it's so tiring, so lost, that I don't really know who I am to others. I dare to take a little faith that I'm somewhat good, but overall, I'm only notified when I've done something wrong, on the contrary, little for what's done right.

It's frustrating when I look at myself and all I can find is self-accreditation, unvalidated faith in myself without the knowing of my true worth to others. It's all make belief. And through the midst of events, I have to watch the balance between coping mech for self assurance and the false pride.

Oh heck this. I'm tired, I wish I can stop all these. I cant seem to overcomes those needs. I'm still too weak.

I still wish someone would look at me and tell me I'm something.

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