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Exhaustion
Friday, February 11, 2011
Going down very soon. All I need to recharge me a little is just a bit of genuine interaction between people, seeing life inspires me on somehow but yea, CNY, assignments, duties, I looked forward for loft-stay to be a heartwarming experience but heh.Being putting so much, I'm starting to feel the drain, and my sensors indicating my need for input. Yet, I dont see any source anywhere. Once again, feeling things are being unfair. Me having to keep giving out, yet having no input.Responsibilities and commitment. There's so much things I need to do. Blargh. And feeling lonelier than ever, yet covered by the will to do good for them, I've forgotten about myself. And when I do, I find myself alone, and fighting it out. Thing are tough, everyone has their own personal battles to fight in equal proportions of difficulty.
Seems no one's there for me. Everyone's got their life. One's busy with added responsibilities, one's outta contact, the last one is busier than ever, no time and space for me. And then I remembered another person who said would be there. I had the chance, I just didn't have the guts to say. And to the others, I'm probably invisible. Everyone has their own lives. The loneliness is chilling. I wonder if it's linked to my lower cold tolerance lolol. But, hais. Not that I do it very well or often, but I do try my best. Just kinda hurts, that at the end of the day, when I'm in need, no one's there. Maybe it's just bad timing, everyone's tired as well. Don't need things to be fair to do what's right. Things never will be fair. But at least within my power and abilities, that I can make things slightly fairer for another person.Owells. Lonely day today. Everyone's busy. My phone's dead. No one's around.I'll just keep giving then, even if it means taking my life. Hopefully, something might come back return...Labels: thoughts
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Leave a message on my tagboard or drop me some questions if any.
Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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Exhaustion
Friday, February 11, 2011
Going down very soon. All I need to recharge me a little is just a bit of genuine interaction between people, seeing life inspires me on somehow but yea, CNY, assignments, duties, I looked forward for loft-stay to be a heartwarming experience but heh.Being putting so much, I'm starting to feel the drain, and my sensors indicating my need for input. Yet, I dont see any source anywhere. Once again, feeling things are being unfair. Me having to keep giving out, yet having no input.Responsibilities and commitment. There's so much things I need to do. Blargh. And feeling lonelier than ever, yet covered by the will to do good for them, I've forgotten about myself. And when I do, I find myself alone, and fighting it out. Thing are tough, everyone has their own personal battles to fight in equal proportions of difficulty.
Seems no one's there for me. Everyone's got their life. One's busy with added responsibilities, one's outta contact, the last one is busier than ever, no time and space for me. And then I remembered another person who said would be there. I had the chance, I just didn't have the guts to say. And to the others, I'm probably invisible. Everyone has their own lives. The loneliness is chilling. I wonder if it's linked to my lower cold tolerance lolol. But, hais. Not that I do it very well or often, but I do try my best. Just kinda hurts, that at the end of the day, when I'm in need, no one's there. Maybe it's just bad timing, everyone's tired as well. Don't need things to be fair to do what's right. Things never will be fair. But at least within my power and abilities, that I can make things slightly fairer for another person.Owells. Lonely day today. Everyone's busy. My phone's dead. No one's around.I'll just keep giving then, even if it means taking my life. Hopefully, something might come back return...Labels: thoughts
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