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Camp 180

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Camp 180 was really great and I hope it was for the many others too. Made a new community within highlife, came to respect a few great people, found another brother, learnt many things, appreciated the work that went behind planning a camp, took up a leadership role, facing up to my biggest fear, and learning to trust in God.

Arrive early at Friday morning to settle the remaining logistics and admin work. When the campers started arriving, my facil mode kicked in but was kinda held back due to my normal fears and thoughts but decided to go ahead with it anyway. Needed to step out of my comfort zone and overcome all these fears.

Ice breakers was fun with me and Caden having to do some random forfeit which I do not know how it happened. Rushed off to our amazing race stations with the campers hot on our trails. Haha, and when i finally reached mine which was lunch in between, had to wait for ages before anyone came, and when they did, oh my, all 4 groups come humtam me at one go. hahaha but it was fun.

Rained during the mass games. Watched as the clouds floated left, and the suddenly right. Wasn't raining but the thunders and lightning around prevented us from playing anything. Made a last minute contingency shift into the small shelter to play the games while squeeze up. Since we waited over 30 minutes, our mass water bomb games was canceled but nonetheless I'm sure we all had fun hahax.

First night service taught about the various lies we often have about God, He being far away, not caring, not always good, and does not hear. Kinda funny how we have our knowledge of God's truth yet we subtlely let in these lies to seep into our minds. Moved on to overcoming these which was to accept our context as we were placed there for a reason, be purified, and face up to the truth, and then look towards God as a model for change.

Late night was interesting, had ministry with a brother and we cried for ages with our tears and mucus flowing abundantly. But I was really glad to see him back. Kinda like my hope for him. :)

Second day started bright and early at 7.30, had quiet time which lead my reading the whole of James and having several passages which spoke out to me. Following that was morning exercise just to wake people up. Once again stepped out of my comfort zone and did something I usually wouldn't hahax. Workshops were great, again touching on the various lies we had.

And yet again, the schedule had t be changed because of major time shortage, and we all opted for the mass game while canceling the other 3 planned games (which we worked kinda hard on...) haha but can see that everyone really had fun.

Night services and the next morning were still good, just that either I was burnt out or just well, hardened heart or sorts, didn't feel much towards it. But not to live by feelings, decided to take the step out, face my biggest fear, openly say it out to all, even to those whom I uncomfortable with and I wanna make it my commitment to change for the better. It's the only thing that stopping me for being who I am.

Yup, kinda sums up the whole experience in a quick flash of 3 days. Kinda sad that I didn't really get to bond with my own group but definitely got a lot out of the camp. Will be posting my thoughts and things I've learnt as the days goes.

for now. piiiictuuures cos my blog is so dang wordy...