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The Shadow Self
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Woah, another awakening of my shadow. Been long since I got all riled up enough with devious thoughts going through my mind. Eesh. It isn't a nice thing to have and to let be known, but ah well, I'm gonna be open about it.I, in my opinion, have a sense of gifted insight where I can thankfully so see a certain depth of an issue. Be it good, bad, or what yea. I'm not exactly flaunting it or saying that I'm smart but haha, it's nice having an analytical insight to the things around me. For some, they'll probably say I think too much, but mm, I kinda think they're just oblivious to the hidden dynamics that encompass each and every of our influence.Well, sometimes I have it for looking into an issue, spotting out tiny cracks in things that seem ordinarily ok on the surface, and trying to resolve it if it's within my means. Well most of the time, I'm just being horribly insensitive. But yea, anything of power can be both used for good or bad means. Fire for example. A dangerous tool that the heathen fear. In control, it provides heat and light that benefits our daily living, but if left without control, it attains the ever feared symbol of destruction. And that's when the shadow takes over. Baah, thankfully enough, I think I have a conscience and accountability good enough that I know I should never do such things. Honestly speaking, if I wanted, I could 'screw' one's mind, twisting every little gear, and setting in a plague so subtle even an ant bite would be more noticeable. If I was set to be some seriously evil fella, lols, beware. They say one shouldn't hang dirty linen in public, but yea, putting this up certainly doesnt give me a good name, and I think would perhaps get people a little on their guard which prolly wont do both of us any good. I writing this to face my flaws as well as to change. I don't even know if putting this up here would cause negative tensions (which I doubt any/most would understand what I mean)Change as in even in thoughts. Having the thoughts is as good as doing it. No one gets hurt yea, except me. Conceiving such stuff in mind is akin to doing it out inaction, the repercussions on oneself is the same, a catharsis only promotes future behaviour, the effects and scent left in the unconscious mind.Anyways, I haven't done anything like that, and I shouldn't ever. Note to self: Don't abuse power. Oh by the way, I totally abhor hard-hearted inconsiderate selfcentered asses who have no regard of people's feelings around them. I'm nice, I give chances. If it doesnt work out. You ought to stay away from me.
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Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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The Shadow Self
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Woah, another awakening of my shadow. Been long since I got all riled up enough with devious thoughts going through my mind. Eesh. It isn't a nice thing to have and to let be known, but ah well, I'm gonna be open about it.I, in my opinion, have a sense of gifted insight where I can thankfully so see a certain depth of an issue. Be it good, bad, or what yea. I'm not exactly flaunting it or saying that I'm smart but haha, it's nice having an analytical insight to the things around me. For some, they'll probably say I think too much, but mm, I kinda think they're just oblivious to the hidden dynamics that encompass each and every of our influence.Well, sometimes I have it for looking into an issue, spotting out tiny cracks in things that seem ordinarily ok on the surface, and trying to resolve it if it's within my means. Well most of the time, I'm just being horribly insensitive. But yea, anything of power can be both used for good or bad means. Fire for example. A dangerous tool that the heathen fear. In control, it provides heat and light that benefits our daily living, but if left without control, it attains the ever feared symbol of destruction. And that's when the shadow takes over. Baah, thankfully enough, I think I have a conscience and accountability good enough that I know I should never do such things. Honestly speaking, if I wanted, I could 'screw' one's mind, twisting every little gear, and setting in a plague so subtle even an ant bite would be more noticeable. If I was set to be some seriously evil fella, lols, beware. They say one shouldn't hang dirty linen in public, but yea, putting this up certainly doesnt give me a good name, and I think would perhaps get people a little on their guard which prolly wont do both of us any good. I writing this to face my flaws as well as to change. I don't even know if putting this up here would cause negative tensions (which I doubt any/most would understand what I mean)Change as in even in thoughts. Having the thoughts is as good as doing it. No one gets hurt yea, except me. Conceiving such stuff in mind is akin to doing it out inaction, the repercussions on oneself is the same, a catharsis only promotes future behaviour, the effects and scent left in the unconscious mind.Anyways, I haven't done anything like that, and I shouldn't ever. Note to self: Don't abuse power. Oh by the way, I totally abhor hard-hearted inconsiderate selfcentered asses who have no regard of people's feelings around them. I'm nice, I give chances. If it doesnt work out. You ought to stay away from me.
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