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Tuesday, July 21, 2009
"if you don't see me the next few days... it was nice knowing you all."A simple innocent sentence that brought forth a maelstrom of emotions; anxiousness, worry, rage, panic, envy.Having people being flustered over a message like this was certainly new to me, especially when believing in my own judgment that everything was fine. Things even got slightly heated.From my perspective, analyzing personality, style of speech, I was pretty sure it was just a joke. Yes, I could understand why everyone else was on red alert, but I just couldn't see it their way. Not that I was ruling out any possibilities.But what had me stirred was their reaction. The basis of their actions. I pushed it to see if it was real... and it was.I could feel the calcified wall crumbling again. My heart shriveling with overwhelming emotions. Recluse emotions from that dark abyss shadowing My heart wrung. And I'm hooked to that feeling of heartaches. Indulging on enamoured despair.It isn't anyone's fault. Really.It's just something from my past. Something I lacked, something I sought, something I fought for, something I gave up on, something I knew I was still searching for deep down. Witnessing it again flooded that deep empty pit, surfacing debris of past hurts.
Picturing myself there, fantasizing those desires, something simple yet far-fetched.Will you too?Labels: EMO
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
Find me at Facebook and Twitter
Leave a message on my tagboard or drop me some questions if any.
Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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Will you too?
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
"if you don't see me the next few days... it was nice knowing you all."A simple innocent sentence that brought forth a maelstrom of emotions; anxiousness, worry, rage, panic, envy.Having people being flustered over a message like this was certainly new to me, especially when believing in my own judgment that everything was fine. Things even got slightly heated.From my perspective, analyzing personality, style of speech, I was pretty sure it was just a joke. Yes, I could understand why everyone else was on red alert, but I just couldn't see it their way. Not that I was ruling out any possibilities.But what had me stirred was their reaction. The basis of their actions. I pushed it to see if it was real... and it was.I could feel the calcified wall crumbling again. My heart shriveling with overwhelming emotions. Recluse emotions from that dark abyss shadowing My heart wrung. And I'm hooked to that feeling of heartaches. Indulging on enamoured despair.It isn't anyone's fault. Really.It's just something from my past. Something I lacked, something I sought, something I fought for, something I gave up on, something I knew I was still searching for deep down. Witnessing it again flooded that deep empty pit, surfacing debris of past hurts.
Picturing myself there, fantasizing those desires, something simple yet far-fetched.Will you too?Labels: EMO
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