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Buggy Feeling
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Blaaa, cool down a bit should this shouldn't be a rage post.Zzz, kinda crappish seeing something from my blog being out there and perhaps somewhat misinterpreted. The benefit of doubt maybe, shall trust that no harm intended, but zzz, it kinda irritates me whenever people misinterpret something written here.Blaargh, this is a place where I'm fully open and honest with myself at a curent point of time. And the way it's written differs sometimes when I'm pissed or emo, eh, dun bother reading those, often it's with warped thinking. haha but hais, sometimes I dunno if I should lock up things, or create a new private blog for my other thoughts, now that I know certain people reading it, or the irritating possibility of once again getting misunderstood. Dont feel like hiding anything in the first place, hence I'm writing in such a way. But baaah, gets me this buggy feeling. Ok nvm, shall stop all these random stuff. I've got nothing to hide anyway, or maybe a few things I feel to awkward to say to people directly ahaha.Hi to all random people who read this!!! Thanks, veh much appreciated knowing people take time to read my horribly long wordy posts =P
I wonder if I secretly hate you for the way you are. I think I need to be less judgmental. Like seriously.I also wished you'll take charge of your life. Don't live your life in non-existence to others, be responsible for your own life, your actions, your choices.The question is would you be able to face up to reality, or would you rather that exist in fantasy, wishing that it'll be so, but unable to accept it when it happens.
I hate it when I think about you, my mind goes on forever. this is like the 4th edit =.= but yea. haaaaaaaaais. I'm tired of fighting on already, it's going into reverse, I'm drawing myself away I think. Or maybe I just wan to avoid all the negative emotions.
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Leave a message on my tagboard or drop me some questions if any.
Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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Buggy Feeling
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Blaaa, cool down a bit should this shouldn't be a rage post.Zzz, kinda crappish seeing something from my blog being out there and perhaps somewhat misinterpreted. The benefit of doubt maybe, shall trust that no harm intended, but zzz, it kinda irritates me whenever people misinterpret something written here.Blaargh, this is a place where I'm fully open and honest with myself at a curent point of time. And the way it's written differs sometimes when I'm pissed or emo, eh, dun bother reading those, often it's with warped thinking. haha but hais, sometimes I dunno if I should lock up things, or create a new private blog for my other thoughts, now that I know certain people reading it, or the irritating possibility of once again getting misunderstood. Dont feel like hiding anything in the first place, hence I'm writing in such a way. But baaah, gets me this buggy feeling. Ok nvm, shall stop all these random stuff. I've got nothing to hide anyway, or maybe a few things I feel to awkward to say to people directly ahaha.Hi to all random people who read this!!! Thanks, veh much appreciated knowing people take time to read my horribly long wordy posts =P
I wonder if I secretly hate you for the way you are. I think I need to be less judgmental. Like seriously.I also wished you'll take charge of your life. Don't live your life in non-existence to others, be responsible for your own life, your actions, your choices.The question is would you be able to face up to reality, or would you rather that exist in fantasy, wishing that it'll be so, but unable to accept it when it happens.
I hate it when I think about you, my mind goes on forever. this is like the 4th edit =.= but yea. haaaaaaaaais. I'm tired of fighting on already, it's going into reverse, I'm drawing myself away I think. Or maybe I just wan to avoid all the negative emotions.
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