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Bambooish
Saturday, October 16, 2010
~A bucket full of random thoughts~
to be filled with little bits and pieces as I stroll along the shore
Am pretty bored and maybe too tired to do anything these past few days. Been idling all around all day. Checking facebook every bunch of seconds. Haaais.
Wishing to go out with people but there isn't anyone near by, and then even so I wouldn't know where and what to do. All I want is a break from everything. Some place where I can be at ease, not think and worry so much and just be at peace.
Feeling a little lost every now and then, feeling that I've lose meaning to the things around me. Like in a daze. Feels like I haven't been about doing what I ought to be doing. I wish I can be just good once again, without much care. It's like back to the state where I feel like being loved again ._.
Oh and dear me, I've realized, I am dam friggin skinny. I didn't really think I was, I mean I know I am, but not like ridiculously skinny. Thanks to all the holidays and skipped meals, my waist is like ... yea ._. It's scary when I like wrapped my waist tightly using my shirt and see how puny it is. ARGHHH O.O I need to be a bit fatter HAHAHA, so tall and skinny, like bamboo like that =P I'll fit perfectly into a corset xD
Been missing people also. Feels empty sometimes. Wishing I can read everybody's blog just to have a update on their lives. It's like when you sweep away all the superficial stuff you'll realize there isn't anything much actually. Feels like I'm not part of anything or anyone, not for the recognition, but for the meaning. Feels as though like I'm doing nothing. Yet to be honest, I don't feel like doing much either o.O
Wanna spend sometimes out with friends, doing nothing and just pure relaxing. Don't wanna think about how to be a friend, nor how to make the day eventful, or anything. Blehz anybody wanna go out? =)
You know, soon all our JC peers are gonna be graduating while we continue our studies. In a certain way, it's kinda like them moving on to the next phase of life first. But nah, I'm happy I still have another year. I love everyone around me, the things I'm doing, and I only wish there will be more time for everything =]
I hate how my house is always void of food somehow. Stocking up doesnt work. The last time my mom brought for me two tubes of pringles, I finished everything the next day. Raaawwr. I wish for a neverending bar of chocolate this Christmas.
and now that I think back, I haven't really celebrated Christmas since about 4 years back o.O woah. So much for presents and stuff. I don't think I even celebrate anything now except for birthdays.
Think I've been improving on my sensitivity, spotting out people's emotions much better =D Now able to sense emoness in others more. Not very smart still though. Gotta work on it.
Dam, my drama aint loading, it suuuucks. I can only find two sources from China webbies and raaawwwr aint wooorkiiinnggg. I wanna watch them get together =(
Refinement of oneself is an infinite progression towards perfection. You get there yet you don't and vice versa.
Wondering what its like to have a girl in my life ._. shall not elaborate further =x
Funny how sometimes, two parties are afraid of disturbing the other. Why not just try?
I wish class can be more meaningful and not be so dead with everyone being so solemn.
It's funny to see how my thoughts are getting shorter and shorter.
Life feels like a toilet roll at times. It goes faster and faster as it progresses.
Dam ecstatic over the performance, as everyone likes it lots ^^ WakaWakaEhEh WHEEEE, one of my best creations ever, of course with the help of many others. But ahhh~ feeling dam happy about it ^^ =D
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
Find me at Facebook and Twitter
Leave a message on my tagboard or drop me some questions if any.
Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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Bambooish
Saturday, October 16, 2010
~A bucket full of random thoughts~
to be filled with little bits and pieces as I stroll along the shore
Am pretty bored and maybe too tired to do anything these past few days. Been idling all around all day. Checking facebook every bunch of seconds. Haaais.
Wishing to go out with people but there isn't anyone near by, and then even so I wouldn't know where and what to do. All I want is a break from everything. Some place where I can be at ease, not think and worry so much and just be at peace.
Feeling a little lost every now and then, feeling that I've lose meaning to the things around me. Like in a daze. Feels like I haven't been about doing what I ought to be doing. I wish I can be just good once again, without much care. It's like back to the state where I feel like being loved again ._.
Oh and dear me, I've realized, I am dam friggin skinny. I didn't really think I was, I mean I know I am, but not like ridiculously skinny. Thanks to all the holidays and skipped meals, my waist is like ... yea ._. It's scary when I like wrapped my waist tightly using my shirt and see how puny it is. ARGHHH O.O I need to be a bit fatter HAHAHA, so tall and skinny, like bamboo like that =P I'll fit perfectly into a corset xD
Been missing people also. Feels empty sometimes. Wishing I can read everybody's blog just to have a update on their lives. It's like when you sweep away all the superficial stuff you'll realize there isn't anything much actually. Feels like I'm not part of anything or anyone, not for the recognition, but for the meaning. Feels as though like I'm doing nothing. Yet to be honest, I don't feel like doing much either o.O
Wanna spend sometimes out with friends, doing nothing and just pure relaxing. Don't wanna think about how to be a friend, nor how to make the day eventful, or anything. Blehz anybody wanna go out? =)
You know, soon all our JC peers are gonna be graduating while we continue our studies. In a certain way, it's kinda like them moving on to the next phase of life first. But nah, I'm happy I still have another year. I love everyone around me, the things I'm doing, and I only wish there will be more time for everything =]
I hate how my house is always void of food somehow. Stocking up doesnt work. The last time my mom brought for me two tubes of pringles, I finished everything the next day. Raaawwr. I wish for a neverending bar of chocolate this Christmas.
and now that I think back, I haven't really celebrated Christmas since about 4 years back o.O woah. So much for presents and stuff. I don't think I even celebrate anything now except for birthdays.
Think I've been improving on my sensitivity, spotting out people's emotions much better =D Now able to sense emoness in others more. Not very smart still though. Gotta work on it.
Dam, my drama aint loading, it suuuucks. I can only find two sources from China webbies and raaawwwr aint wooorkiiinnggg. I wanna watch them get together =(
Refinement of oneself is an infinite progression towards perfection. You get there yet you don't and vice versa.
Wondering what its like to have a girl in my life ._. shall not elaborate further =x
Funny how sometimes, two parties are afraid of disturbing the other. Why not just try?
I wish class can be more meaningful and not be so dead with everyone being so solemn.
It's funny to see how my thoughts are getting shorter and shorter.
Life feels like a toilet roll at times. It goes faster and faster as it progresses.
Dam ecstatic over the performance, as everyone likes it lots ^^ WakaWakaEhEh WHEEEE, one of my best creations ever, of course with the help of many others. But ahhh~ feeling dam happy about it ^^ =D
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