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The Distant Past
Saturday, April 17, 2010
It's been a long time since you crossed my mind. Til today. I would say I'm over with the past, but certain comments prompted by a friend just suddenly made me rethink everything once again. 4 times I asked, he told me, all with no reply but just a smile.Maybe I got used to it over the time, but truthfully, I didn't get a single word in reply. Not even a hi? I hope it was just me missing out your voice.When I mouth your name, the feeling I get is one of distant memories. Something of the past. You're no longer part of my life, now. But I guess that's just the way it is. The way we make friends, the way we handle our friendships, and the way we maintain them.But as for me, I'm ready to let it go. Or I already did. I don't see a point investing more time into it, a friendship I dun see any future in. Friendship should be something two way. I dunno, 1 year in, and I still find you the very same mysterious person. There isn't even a sense of familiarity. Those were good and memorable times. But a friendship built upon joy and merry only cannot and will not last when the breeze comes. Neither do I enjoy building my castles only to watch them fall. But this isn't your fault. I for one, am bad and doing all these friends thing. I'm not as funny, witty, or am able to come out with stuff to talk about. My outlooks in life, values, and principles, doubt they are interesting topics yea? Maybe I'm made to be a loner. A soloist. Sometimes, I can't trust in friends anymore. I too, am destined to walk down a very different path either way. Having friends is just a privilege to me.Like chocolate filled donuts.Labels: sss
Darren Nico Pillai
Not-so-average teen, deep thinker, perfectionist with quirky randomness. Trained in the art of sarcasm and nonsensical logic.
Overcoming the circumstances of the present, and the issues of my past,
striving in self-betterment with a moral balance with the hope of the fulfillment of the destiny to be a light for Christ in His likeness,
spreading the love of God as how He first loved us
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Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am, for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
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- Hosanna -
Philosophy:
I like to think about life, especially pursuing on the concept of love. Not that lovey dovey romantic kind, but the affections we have for one another
that ties us together,strangers, friends, besties, family, that's the love I wanna know about. Love is the essence of life that ties us together,
love is what we were made for and to be, love is embracing the gift of the relationship with GOD.
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Collection of inspirations and reminders: Nico_thoughts@Twitter
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The Distant Past
Saturday, April 17, 2010
It's been a long time since you crossed my mind. Til today. I would say I'm over with the past, but certain comments prompted by a friend just suddenly made me rethink everything once again. 4 times I asked, he told me, all with no reply but just a smile.Maybe I got used to it over the time, but truthfully, I didn't get a single word in reply. Not even a hi? I hope it was just me missing out your voice.When I mouth your name, the feeling I get is one of distant memories. Something of the past. You're no longer part of my life, now. But I guess that's just the way it is. The way we make friends, the way we handle our friendships, and the way we maintain them.But as for me, I'm ready to let it go. Or I already did. I don't see a point investing more time into it, a friendship I dun see any future in. Friendship should be something two way. I dunno, 1 year in, and I still find you the very same mysterious person. There isn't even a sense of familiarity. Those were good and memorable times. But a friendship built upon joy and merry only cannot and will not last when the breeze comes. Neither do I enjoy building my castles only to watch them fall. But this isn't your fault. I for one, am bad and doing all these friends thing. I'm not as funny, witty, or am able to come out with stuff to talk about. My outlooks in life, values, and principles, doubt they are interesting topics yea? Maybe I'm made to be a loner. A soloist. Sometimes, I can't trust in friends anymore. I too, am destined to walk down a very different path either way. Having friends is just a privilege to me.Like chocolate filled donuts.Labels: sss
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