I dunno. Since last sem, this problem has been haunting me ever since.

Passion vs God

For a brief summary, it about me wanting to be an instructor for Hi club, but yea I cant make it because Hi! Club classes are on Mon and Thurs. yeap and I hav to attend classes at monday, so I cant teach, or vice versa.

for those that's gonna tell me to quit my cell/join another day/just go teach,
I already hav commitments to it. As much as i would like to just drop everything and go, it isnt as easy as you think. Haiz. And its an issue which has spanned across centuries and ages. God or the world. You either have one, not both.

And as much as with head knowledge I jolly well know I shud obey God, it reeeaaallly isnt easy. Especially when I already hold on to very little things in life. I dunno. its forever gonna be something swinging in front of me, mocking me of my decision.

I really wished I could hav the faith that something good will come out of it. But I dun see in anyway how I ever fulfil this dream/passion. I'm sorry, I really dont.

Please Lord, either give me the strength and faith to persevere on, or just give me my Thursdays...


On a lighter note...


I was so bored in class so me and Timothy decided to play with my classmate's ponytail. (Childish I know...)

Me: *hold out highlighter and prods Timothy to do something stupid*
Timothy: Eh Sarah, Darren want to highlight your hair.
Sarah: *turns*
Me: What me? Do you think i'm that sort of person who does such things?
Sarah: I don't know. You're Darren.
Me: O.o

Labels: God, sacrifice, smile

I dunno. Since last sem, this problem has been haunting me ever since.

Passion vs God

For a brief summary, it about me wanting to be an instructor for Hi club, but yea I cant make it because Hi! Club classes are on Mon and Thurs. yeap and I hav to attend classes at monday, so I cant teach, or vice versa.

for those that's gonna tell me to quit my cell/join another day/just go teach,
I already hav commitments to it. As much as i would like to just drop everything and go, it isnt as easy as you think. Haiz. And its an issue which has spanned across centuries and ages. God or the world. You either have one, not both.

And as much as with head knowledge I jolly well know I shud obey God, it reeeaaallly isnt easy. Especially when I already hold on to very little things in life. I dunno. its forever gonna be something swinging in front of me, mocking me of my decision.

I really wished I could hav the faith that something good will come out of it. But I dun see in anyway how I ever fulfil this dream/passion. I'm sorry, I really dont.

Please Lord, either give me the strength and faith to persevere on, or just give me my Thursdays...


On a lighter note...


I was so bored in class so me and Timothy decided to play with my classmate's ponytail. (Childish I know...)

Me: *hold out highlighter and prods Timothy to do something stupid*
Timothy: Eh Sarah, Darren want to highlight your hair.
Sarah: *turns*
Me: What me? Do you think i'm that sort of person who does such things?
Sarah: I don't know. You're Darren.
Me: O.o

Labels: God, sacrifice, smile